Ch.25 It Ends Tonight

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ALLISON POV

I'm really not feeling well but I can't postpone my visit to Cassy because it's her death anniversary. I'm a bit surprised that Salt noticed that I always wear black once a month. It's getting harder and harder for me to lie to her but I don't have a choice.

There are bunch of flowers and candles placed in front of her grave when I arrived. I'm sure that it came from her grandfather, too bad we didn't get to meet and catch up because he always come early. I stayed with her for five hours before heading back to school.

I'm about to park my car when I saw Salt in front of my dorm while talking to the guard. I immediately let her inside my car and instructed the guard to go back to his post.

"What are you doing here outside?" I asked anxiously. I leaned closer after a couple of seconds and gave her a peck on the lips when she didn't respond.

"Salt, what's the problem?" I asked patiently. She's acting weird.

"What's with December one?"

"December one?" I asked faking a confused expression. I don't know how did she learn the significance of that date to me.

"Are you hiding something from me?" she changed the question. I don't want to lie to her but I'm not yet ready to tell her everything.

"Hiding something? What are you talking about?" I said before averting my gaze back to the windshield. I don't want to look at her because I don't want her to notice that I'm nervous.

"Luna told me to ask you about the truth regarding this December one date" I groaned mentally in annoyance because I didn't expect that Luna will go this low just to take revenge on me.

"Truth about that date?" I repeated frowning.

"I don't know too! That's why I'm asking you, so don't ask me back" she replied irritably.

"I don't know what you're talking about. Luna is just making up stupid stories to get back at me because of the incident between me and Keena. Youshould know better" I lied hastily. I pretended to be upset to somehow lessen her suspicions on me.

"She told me that I am just a duplicate of someone that you loved, and she mentioned a name" my body tensed up upon hearing what she said.

"Cassy" She added when I didn't respond.

My face flushed upon hearing the name and my grip on the steering wheel hardened. I will surely kill Luna, she's a snitching bitch.

"That Bitch" I mumbled under my breath. I will make Luna regret everything that she said to her.

"Who's Cassy anyway? Is Luna telling the truth?" she asked suspiciously.

"She's a liar, don't listen to her" I said abruptly.

"Okay, I won't believe what she said to me, but" she paused. I hate it when people do that, pausing when they're about to tell something important.

"You need to answer all of my questions, and it's all about your past" She bargained. It's frustrating me that she can't just let go of my past.

"What do you want to know? I am already yours so what's the point ofasking me things from my past?" " I blurted in frustration. I want to drop the conversation, I don't want to talk about it.

"There are certain things that needs to be questioned" she argued flatly. She's right but I don't like being questioned, especially when it comes to my past.

"And there are also certain questions that doesn't need to be answered" I replied evasively.

"Don't ask questions that you don't want to know the answer." I added before turning back my gaze to the front. I don't want to tell her about Cassy because I'm afraid that it will just make things worse.

"Of course I want to know the answer! Who the hell is Cassy? I'm sure she's not my sister" she blurted out before slapping my right shoulder in annoyance. She's starting to lose her patience on me but there's nothing I could do about it. I'm afraid to know her reaction if I told her the truth.

"Cassy don't exist, Luna just wants to piss you off" I said with a blank expression on my face.

"I don't believe you. I know that you're not telling me the whole truth" She said upset. I can't afford to lose her now that I am starting to fall in love with her. I'd rather lie to keep her, than take a risk by telling her the truth.

"Let's not talk about this, it's not healthy for our relationship" I said gently before leaning closer to caress her cheeks.

"Keeping something from each other is not healthy either" she argued.

"Past is past Salt" I said sadly. I don't want to see her in pain, and telling her the truth will surely be painful.

"What you don't know won't hurt you and that's more important" I added.

She retreated her face from my hands because her tears are already starting to form, and it immediately broke my heart when it finally fell down her face.

"Can't you see that I am already hurting? You keep on saying that you don't wanna hurt me, but you're doing the opposite right now" she said between sobbing.

You're wrong Salt, I care for you that's why I can't bring myself to tell the truth.

"Salt I care for you, you are very important to me so please understand that I'm still not ready to talk about my past, and I don't know that Cassy. Luna is just being a bitch" I explained gently.

She didn't respond.

"I am telling the truth, trust me" I pleaded before lifting her chin up to face me.

"Thank you!" I said in relief and kissed her left cheek afterwards when she nodded. I feel that she's really not convinced but I'm still glad that she finally didn't insist.

"I love you, you know that" She reminded me.

"Of course I know" I frowned when she removed my hand on her chin.

"Then please don't waste it" She said before getting out of my car.

"I'm sorry Salt but I can't afford to lose you, I don't know what to do if I lose you" I said while slapping the steering wheel in so much guilt.

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"Be sure to deliver it on time" I said to the sales clerk on the other line before hanging up. I bought a gold necklace for Salt as a gift for our second month. It's already late so no one is with me in the auditorium.

I've been practicing the song that I'm going to sing for her. I don't have a very good voice but I can still sing some low pitch songs. I chose the song when God made you by Natalie Grant. It is the first time that I will sing for someone, even Cassy didn't hear me sing before. 

Salt doesn't have any idea about my surprise because I want our second month to be special and private. Eleventh of December is the start of our Christmas break and all of the students will go home to their families for the holiday.

I was too engrossed in practicing that  I didn't realize that it's already two in the morning. I immediately stood up and closed my piano. I need to wake up early because we invited Salt's mom and Cassandra for lunch and the reservation that I booked in the restaurant is at eleven thirty.

The next morning came and our lunch went well and fun. They need to go home early because the snow is getting heavy and it will be hard for the vehicle to pass through it.

"Thank you girls for the wonderful lunch, please come with Salt next week" Salt's mom said before giving me and Missy a tight hug. She's the kind of mom that I wish we have, very loving and sweet.

We didn't move until the car disappeared from our sight. We're about to head back inside when my phone suddenly rang.

"It's dad" I said dryly before pressing the answer button.

"Missy we need to go to dad's office now, he wants to discuss something to us" I immediately said after hanging up.

"I'll walk you two there" Salt offered but I shook my head in objection.

"Just wait in our room, we're fine. Dad is in a bad mood so I don't want him to see you" I explained before releasing a sigh because I sensed that the discussion will be about me.

I smiled when she removed her scarf and tied it on my neck afterwards.

"I'll wait for the both of you inside okay?" she said sweetly before heading back to our dorm.

Dad is drinking cognac when we arrived and that's not a good sign, it means that he's really in a bad mood.

"Sit down" he said flatly while pointing to the couch in front of him.

"What are we going to talk about?" I asked politely but he just glared at me in response.

He played with his bottle of cognac for a couple of seconds before he finally spoke.

"I believe you're intelligent enough to know why I called the both of you here" Missy reached for my right hand upon hearing what he said. Her hand is trembling because of nervousness.

"I don't know what you're talking about" I replied flatly.

"Leave that girl Allison. I know that you two are already dating, and I know that you will not want me to make things worse for her" he threatened.

"And you Missy, I didn't expect you to hide this from me" he said in a low sharp voice. Missy flinched the moment she heard her name.

"She don't know anything, leave her out of this" I said unfazed by his threat.

"Really? You really think you can fool me?" He said angrily before throwing his glass of cognac to the floor.

He's already drunk. He used to be the most caring dad when I'm younger, but everything changed when mom left us, I don't know him anymore.

"You will leave that Salt and will be engaged to Henry!" I frowned upon hearing what he said. I never liked Henry because he's a maniac.

"I believed you when you brought your fake boyfriend to the party. I wonder where did you get that trash? If I bumped into him I promise you I will make his life miserable, he will pay for fooling me!" I didn't flinch, it's a relief because he didn't suspect that it was Salt.

"I already told you dad, I don't like him"

"I already told you too that I don't want you having a relationship with that Salt. I don't have a lesbian daughter!" He said in distaste.

"Dad that's unfair! Allison have the rights to choose who she wants to be with. Please let her be" Missy interjected.

"As long as you're a McKinley you don't have the rights to refuse me or break my order. Unless you want to be disowned" He threatened.

"I never asked you to give me that name" I said while clenching my fist to control my anger.

"What did you say?!" In just a flash he was already in front of me, pointing his finger on my face.

"You're just my daughter so don't you ever answer back to me!" I gave him the same glare that he's giving me right now.

"Do it, disown me because I will not leave Salt" I said challenging him. I'd rather be with Salt and become poor than marry Henry.

"How dare you!" He yelled and about to slap me when Missy grabbed his hand.

"Dad you're drunk! Stop it you're going to hurt Allison!" Missy pleaded while crying.

He calmed down a bit and moved back to his desk without removing his glare on me.

"You're lucky your sister is here! If you don't want to marry Henry then leave that girl!" I didn't respond because I don't want to do what he's telling me. He massaged his temple and sighed in annoyance because of my stubbornness.

"I will give you a week, I need an answer. Look I am being considerate here, that's your only option. Marry Henry or leave Salt" again I didn't respond.

"Get your sister out of here Missy" he commanded which Missy immediately obliged.

"Thanks" I said to her as soon as we got out of the office. She reached for my hands and pressed it gently.

"He's just drunk, he can't disown you because you're his favorite!" She consoled me. I just smiled at her because I'm too tired to respond.

"You head back to the dorm first, I need to finish something" she said after letting go of my hands.

"Finish something?" I asked frowning.

"The renovation of the music room is already finished, and as you know, I will be handling now the music club" she mentioned that to me before but I forgot.

"Okay, I'll see you before dinner" I said before walking my way back to the dorm, hoping that Salt is not yet bored of waiting.

I frowned when I tried to open the front door and it was locked, I forgot to bring my key so I knocked. The door opened after my third try. I plastered my perfect smile but it immediately disappeared when I noticed that her eyes are sore, it's obvious that she cried. 

"Salt, hey what happened to—-" I didn't get the chance to finish what I'm going to say because she slapped my face hard. I'm so taken aback by what she did, I never once thought that she can hurt me physically. 

"What happened? Why did you slap me?" I asked confused while massaging my right cheek. 

I'm afraid because I'm sensing that she found out something and my suspicion was confirmed when she raised the photo album that I've been keeping for years while crying.

"Salt" I walked closer to her but she moved away.

"How can you do this to me?" she asked full of hurt.

"Salt, I...I'm sorry" I don't know what to say, everything that I've been keeping from her has been revealed by the photo album.

"You told me that you don't know Cassy!" she yelled in anger.

"I trusted you liar!" I walked closer again and tried to hug her but she keeps on pushing me away.

"Salt please" I pleaded as my tears started to form. This is the moment that I've been dreading to come.

"I asked you many times, why do you have to lie?!"

"Because I have to! I don't want to lose you if you find out about my past!" I said as my tears started to fall.

"So you think keeping this shit from me won't keep you from losing me?!" she yelled in anger. I panicked upon hearing what she said. I immediately closed the distance between us and hugged her tight.

"Salt please, let's talk about this, I'm sorry, I'm sorry" I tried to kiss her but she pushed me away again.

"Don't touch me!" I almost slipped because she pushed me so hard.

"So it's all about Cassy huh?" she added. 

I just looked at her while crying. I don't want to answer her question because I'm afraid that If I tell her the truth, it will only hurt her more.

"Give me that album Salt please, let's talk" I pleaded once again. She shook her head and what she did next broke my heart in so much hurt.

"All because of her, all because of this bitch you lied to me, you make me look like a fool!" she said while ripping the entire album into pieces in front of me. That's the only memory of Cassy that was left of me, and now it's gone.

"Stop it!" I tried to grab the album but she's fast. She kept on ripping the photos apart and I am starting to be pissed off.

"I said stop it!" I grabbed her hand to stop her from what she's doing and grabbed the album and threw it to the floor afterwards. I pinned her to the wall so that she can't fight my grasp.

"Let go of me you liar!" I hugged her tight. She kept on yelling and pushing me but it's no use, she's crying hard because of  the frustration and hurt that she's feeling right now. I can't blame her because it's all my fault.

"I tried to push you away because you remind me of her" I explained almost whispering, my tears are already soaking her nape.

"I'm sorry...I'm so sorry" I said full of regret.

"Now it's my fault huh" she said chuckling.

"It's my fault because I love you, you're right I'm stupid." She added sarcastically.

"It was never your fault, it was mine. Please don't leave me, I'm so sorry" I said between trying my best to stop her from pushing me away.

"You're sorry won't change anything, the damage has been done" she said before pushing me with all of her strength. She then tried to walk away but I grabbed her hand again. I am desperate now, I will do anything to make her stay.

"Please, I love you please don't do this" I cried out loud while hugging her back.

"Are you saying that to me or to Cassy?" she asked flatly. I'm stunned by her question, I don't know too if I am telling it to her or to Cassy, I am blinded by her face. I didn't respond and just kept on mumbling my sorry.

"It's okay if you don't love me yet, what hurts is that you still love someone else and I will never be able to replace her in your heart, in your life" she pointed out.

"That's not true, you're important to me! I even chose you over dad" I said hoping that she would somehow calm down and forgive me.

"I can accept the fact that you're using me to forget someone, but using me to relive someone is just too much" she gently removed my hands on her waist and sat down on the couch still crying.

"I'm sorry too, I pushed you to this. I insisted myself on you" she added. I knelt down in front of her and reached for her right hand.

"No. let's forget this, let's start again and I promise you that I won't hide anything from you, please" I will tell her everything that she wanted to know if she will forgive me this time.

"Things would have changed if you told me earlier, I could have accepted everything" she replied.

"I thought keeping you this would be for the best, I know I am being selfish but I need you, please don't leave me, I am moving on please help me to move on" She didn't respond.

"I love you" I said as my tears started to fall again. She released a heavy sigh while looking at me intently.

"You're telling me that because you see Cassy on me" she said after a moment.

"No, I love you" I insisted.

"I don't want to see you cry, I don't want to see you hurt" I added, I frowned when she covered my eyes. 

"Say it" she said. I closed my eyes and removed her hand afterwards.

"Say what?" I asked frowning.

"Say that you love me" I opened my eyes immediately and repeated what I said.

"I love you" I said while looking at her intently but she covered my eyes again.

"Say it while your eyes are closed" she said gently. I removed her hand again.

"I already said I love you, what else I could do to make you believe me?!" I exclaimed in frustration while staring at her.

"I said say it while your eyes are closed!" I immediately obliged when she raised her voice again.

"Say it" She commanded. I opened my mouth to say something but no words came out, I can't bring myself to say I love you without looking at her face.

"Salt" I mumbled but she didn't respond. I don't know how long my eyes are closed but I opened it when I heard her sob. Her hand is covering her mouth to keep me hearing the sound of her cry.

"Salt" I leaned closer to wipe her tears but she shoved it away.

"You can't even bring yourself to say that you love me without looking to my face, to Cassy's face" she said before standing up.

"I should've chose Missy over you" she said before walking out of the door.

I should've chose Missy over you...

I should've chose Missy over you...

The words she said broke my heart, she's gazing at me coldly when she said it. It's like all her love for me suddenly disappeared. 

I leaned on the couch while sitting on the floor. My chest is started to pound so hard as my tears falling freely down my face. It's more painful to lose someone who's still alive than to lose someone that's dead. I know where she's going right now and I already know what will happen next.

I should've chose Missy over you...

I should've chose Missy over you...

I know that I will never have her back because I wasted the only chance that I have.

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