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age for this chapter: 13.

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so before i start this chapter, this chapter does mention the word self harm and suicide. if you don't feel comfortable with this please skip this chapter. thank you.

start of this chapter-

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you've recently lost your best friend. they took their own life because they were bullied for who they were. your bestfriend never told you about then being bullied. you always thought you both wouldn't keep secrets from each other.

your heart hurts thinking that it was your fault why they died. it was your fault. you didn't help them in time. how could you not see the fake smile they put everyday. the flinch whenever you make skin contact with them.

it was so obvious but you turned a blind eye to it. how bad of a friend you are.

you were completely zoned out ignoring what your brothers were saying around you. you then felt sick so you excused yourself from the dinner table.

what you didn't notice was 7 pair of eyes staring at you with worry.

once you locked the door in your room, you immediately burst into tears. the tears wouldn't stop. it just kept coming.

you slowly made your way to your bathroom door. you locked the bathroom door to prevent anyone to come in.

you look in the mirror and felt disgusted at what you saw.

it's all your fault that's she's gone.

that's all you could think of.

your fault. you didn't protect them in time. you are such a horrible friend that's why you can't make anymore friends.

more tears rolled down your cheeks.

it should of been you that died not them!

everything was going so fast. your head started to spin. you grabbed you hair to try and make the pain stop. it would stop so you grabbed the razor you hid in the cabinet. you wanted the pain to stop but it kept coming. your smooth [your skin colour] skin is now soaked by the crimson red blood that's leaking out the fresh cuts you made.

meanwhile downstairs...

the 7 boys were discussing how you weren't the same as before your best friend died. they were worried for your health. you would barely speak to them about anything nowadays.

they were wondering what happened to the happy y/n. the one that would laugh at silly things and cry at stupid things. they wanted the old y/n back and that's what they are going to do.

jin goes upstairs along with yoongi to check on you and maybe start small talk while the younger's stayed downstairs.

from the bathroom you could hear two soft knocks on your bedroom door.

"y/n?" jin said knocking softly, "please open the door".

yoongi grumbled something which you couldn't really pick up and you heard the door click open and you assumed they opened the door with the key that was kept somewhere for emergencies.

"y/n?" jin whispered.

you knew they were going to find that you were in the bathroom so you scrambled to get the bandages from the first aid kit under the sink. you accidentally dropped the box causing a loud CRASH to be heard.

fuck, me and my clumsy ass.

jin and yoongi's head turned the source of the noise. they slowly made their way to your bathroom door only to find out that it was locked.

"y/n, please come out." yoongi said, "we just want to know if your okay".

you stayed silence hoping they get that you don't want to talk to anyone.

"please" yoongi added.

it hurt you. ignoring your brothers. you didn't want this to happen, but you also didn't want them to find out about your cuts so you shut them out your life.

you could hear more footsteps entering your room along with a few murmurs but couldn't quite pick up on what they were saying.

while they were still talking you quickly bandaged up your arm and slid your hoodie back on.

*click*

the bathroom door opened revealing your 7 brothers at the doorway with scared looks in their eyes.

jin sighed in relief that you were fine for now anyways. just a few dry tears on your cheeks.

jimin gave you a small smile and held his arm out for you to take it while jungkook gave you his famous bunny smile.

you took jimins hand and they lead you to your bed. they all made themselves comfy while hoseok made you sit on his laps with his arms around you protectively.

"y/n, we just wanted to say how the death of ... isn't your fault. it was never your fault. please don't shut us out of your life because of this. we are always here for you no matter what happens, we are family. we look out for each other, okay?" namjoon stated.

you didn't notice you were crying until taehyung wiped the tears that were falling down your face.

your arm all of a sudden started to sting, you gasped in pain and clutched onto your arm.

jin shared a look with yoongi.

"y/n.." jin eyes started to water.

you didn't want them to think that you self harm.

"haha i'm fine.."you said quickly covering up the pain from your arm. you plastered a smile on your face.

yoongi wasent having the bullshit you were saying and gently took your arm and rolled your sleeves up to reveal bandages that were soaked in your blood.

you heard a few gasps from your brothers.

nononono.

you jumped out of hoseok's grasp and ran into the bathroom and locking the door behind you.

"y/n!" they all shouted in unison and scrambled to your bathroom door crushing each other on the way.

you all stood there in silence. no one made a noise. your brothers gave you some time to relax before speaking to you.

"y/n... it's okay." jin whispered through the door.

"please come out. we're not angry at you. we were never angry at you." namjoon said.

you hesitated. the blood leaked so it was now visible on your hoodie sleeves. you didn't care much about it anyways.

the door clicked open revealing you.

taehyung who was the nearest to you, pulled you into a hug but also avoiding your arm so he doesn't injure it more.

"it's okay, we are all here for you no matter what." taehyung whispered in your ear and gave you a small kiss on the head.

you then burst into tears and apologised many many times for being so stupid and shutting them back just like that.

in the end, they all promised you that your not alone and you won't ever be alone EVER because no one should of gone through this at such a young age.

a/n:
i don't know if i should like discontinue this book or not. do y'all like this book ?