December 17th, 2015
Axel,
I've decided to join the Coast Guard.
I can't seem to find a job and my family is driving me insane. The decision makes my dad happy and that's the one thing I've been chasing after my whole life. Maybe that's why I turned out gay. I don't know, really, but I leave next week. I guess I'll talk to you when I get my phone back after training. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year... for some reason I thought I'd be able to spend it with you.

2016

January 4th, 2016
Orion,
I got all of your letters. I didn't want to answer them, though, because I didn't want to make you upset. I'm glad you didn't spend money on a laptop because you probably wouldn't want it after you hear this... right after you left for California, I started seeing my ex again. You know, the one from Prom. I guess we just had chemistry that I couldn't push aside. I know you probably won't get this because It's going to your house and you're in the Coast Guard now, but if you ever do read this: I'm sorry. I've never been so sorry about anything in my life. I actually did love you and I'm so stupid for leading you on like I did. Anyway, I won't tell you how my holidays were because of.. well.. you know. I don't want to make you upset. If you do want to talk and maybe be friends, I promise I'll be right here.
Axel

July 6th, 2016
I'm glad you're happy.
I don't even know what else to say.
I didn't even write your name at the top because I figured you could care less about any of that, kind of like how you could have cared less about me.
Anyway, I met a boy during training and he's treating me the right way. I've learned a lot about myself.

But still, he's not you, Axel.
I'm still convinced you're my soul mate.

July 29th, 2016
Orion, I'm sorry. Now I'm wishing we could talk face to face because it would be so much better to explain these things to you and for you to do the same to me. It wouldn't be dragged out over months and months... it's been over a year. I have some sad news and some happy news I want to share with you. Sad first:
1. My little brother is diagnosed with cancer
2. Generally, things here are sad.

Happy:
1. I broke up with the person I was with. Enough said.
2. I think I found out who I truly am.
3. I have a full time job and I'm starting college next fall.
4. I love you.

August 5th, 2016
I love you. I'm coming home.
- Orion

September 24th, 2016
You're not home yet. I saw there was a plane crash somewhere in Kansas last month but I refuse to believe you were on that plane. I refuse. Your house went up for auction last month as well and I think they're just going to bulldoze it. I know you left some of your stuff there so I'm letting you know it's probably gonna be gone by the time you get here. I love you.
Axel

October 20th, 2016
You never came home. I miss you. I know this sounds creepy but you left a hoodie here and I wear it when I feel lonely or upset. Anyway, I hope you're just away for the coast guard and not able to answer my letters.
Axel.

December 24th, 2016
It's Christmas Eve. I was planning on actually spending it with you this year. I hope you're safe and happy wherever you are and I hope some day you get these letters. I'm physically hurting because you're not here and I just want to see your face and hear your voice and your laugh one more time. I want it to be us one more time. Merry Christmas. I still love you.

January 4th, 2017
I didn't want to believe that was the plane you were on but everyone, including the sheriffs who conducted your house auction, said that the previous owners were deceased. I watched the auction and saw them taking things out of your house but I guess you saw that too from up there in heaven or wherever.
It doesn't feel real.
I guess you've heard how many times I've told you I loved you in the past two years.

I love you, always.
Axel

The End

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