A D D I S O N P A R K E R

I knew the moment I stormed up to my room after Colton's ridiculous comment, it wouldn't be long until he comes storming into to say his peace again.

"Why do you always walk away all the time? It really fucking gets on my nerves." He complains walking into my room and shutting the door.

"Why do you always barge in to my room all the time? It really fucking gets on my nerves?" I mock.

He just rolls his eyes at me, taking my hand so I'm forced to sit down next to him on the bed. "Why are you even in here anyway?" I roll my eyes.

He scoffs. "Stop rolling those damn eyes. And we need to talk." He states matter of factly.

"About?"

"This." He gestures in between the two of us. "Why are you coming onto me all of a sudden?"

That statement makes me recoil in disgust almost, I know the shock in my face is as clear as day. He really has the audacity to sit there and yap on about the fact I'm coming on to him.

I scoff at him. "I'm coming onto you. Let's not forget how you went all apeshit about finding Clayton in my room. Then proceeded to nearly kiss me, but not before asking me about why I even like him over you." I spit.

I take a deep breath then proceed to carry on. "After that you convinced me to 'loosen up'." I quote. "And make me go skinny dipping, where you then kissed me!" At this point I'm shouting

"And have from then on continued to be affectionate towards me constantly. Don't fucking flip this shit on me, because your to proud to admit that you probably have feelings for you best friends little sister."

The words are now spitting out of my mouth like venom. It was such a simple statement, but it has me beyond wound up, and fed up with his constant need to blame me.

Colton laugh, he literally laughs an almost sinister laugh. "You think I probably have feelings for you. Please. Your just something to entertain me. Just like Nora." A smug look is plastered on his face.

He knew that one would hit hard. And it did. Me chest tightens. Making me feel sick to my stomach at the comment

I gasp at his harsh words. "Your such a piece of shit." Who knew one simple comment on the plane would lead to this?

"Is that the best you got Adds? It's kind of cute actually." He laughs, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. I jerk away from him.

"What the hell are you doing? You basically just told me I'm like a toy to you, and now your trying to seduce me or whatever the fuck you do to the hundreds of girls you get with?" My face is laced with pure disgust at his actions.

There's that laugh again, his hand moves to my jaw this time stroking it softly as he slowly moves his body closer to me.

Part of me wants to push his body away from mine and scream at him until my face turns blue. The other part wants to see what he'll do from here.

I haven't decided which part I want to follow through with yet.

He leans his face in closer to mine, brushing his lips against mine. I close my eyes letting out a soft breath. "Stop." I wanted it to be louder but the word only comes out as mere whisper.

I open my eyes. "W-we can't. I can't." I shake my head almost like I'm snapping myself out of a trance of some sort.

"Actually no you can't. You can't just go around saying those things to me a-and then try and get me to kiss you. I won't let you."

He raises his eyebrow at my statement as to question it, I'm questioning it myself. 

He leans in again so his lips brush my ear this time instead of my mouth, "are you sure?" He whispers, his hot breath sends chills down my spin causing goosebumps rise on my skin.

Colton smirks at my bodies reaction to him, as his hands makes his way to my thigh, rubbing my thigh slowly.

Now I regret not shaving the moment I got home.

I mentally curse at myself for allowing me to react to him so easily. I know now that his ego has been boosted there's no going back for me now.

I nod my head, a little to fast. "Yes, yeah absolutely positive." His heads now nuzzled into my neck, he chuckles placing a soft kiss on it.

"Hm, I don't think you are." He whispers.

This time I don't say anything, he takes my silence as an answer to continue, he carries on placing kisses on my neck and jaw.

I don't know why I am letting him do this, he just insulted me and blamed me for making a move on him less than two minutes ago.

He hums into my neck. "I love seeing you so wound up. It's the cutest thing ever. I love how red your face becomes every time something makes you become so infuriated. I always try to get you as mad as possible with the comments I make, even if they aren't true."  He admits.

I'm so tempted to pull away from him with comment he just made. He gets me mad on fucking purpose just for his own pure entertainment. It makes me more infuriated than before.

Maybe that's why I'm so tempted by him?

I'm just so mad that I need to kiss him, you know to get rid of my anger? Right?

Oh god.

I cup his face with my hands, not wasting a second my crash his soft lips into mine, is tongue is quick to make his way into my mouth, lapping with mine.

Now I know I'm at the point of no return.

His body slowly pushes our bodies  onto the bed, his hands rest at my waist as he continues to kiss me, slowly pushing my T-shirt up inch by inch.

He rests his body in between my legs, he puts a lot of pressure on my hips, to keep himself steady, it almost hurts because of how heavy he is but I ignore it.

I quickly become frustrated. I break the kiss between us, to remove the shirt from my body. The action obviously surprised him as I watched his eyes widen a little.

His eyes rake over my chest, slowly taking in what's in front of him, I shuffle my body a little slowly becoming uncomfortable at how long he's been staring at me for.

He notices how uncomfortable I'm becoming as he places his hand on my cheek, reconnecting our lips again.

Only to remove them as he places kisses down my jaw, over my neck travelling to my chest. He places kisses over the flesh above my boob.

"I-I'm still a virgin." I blurt out. He's a shocked look on his face, I know he already knows I'm a virgin I don't know why I felt the need to remind him. I just completely ruin the moment.

Way to go, Addison.

He shakes his head removing himself from in between my legs. "I-I wasn't going to, I wasn't planning on. Fuck!" He shouts. "I just got caught in the moment I'm not going take your virginity, that'd be wrong of me. We were fighting not long ago. Wouldn't you want it to be special?" He asks.

I shrug my shoulders. "I guess."

I appreciate that he cares so much about how I lose my virginity. But I can't help but feel slightly embarrassed by the quick rejection.

I stand up from the bed, "I'm going to go take a shower."

Colton grabs my arm, turning my body around to look at him." Don't get upset okay? I want to, fuck, I really do. But I could never do it after I said all those horrible things to you for my pure entertainment." He admits.

I don't bother to listen to his excuse, it won't change how embarrassed I feel for my sudden need to remind him of my innocence. "I'm not, okay? The mood was ruined there was no point in us trying sit there and make pointless awkward conversation, plus I need a shower anyways."

Colton nods his head, offering me a small smile, which I don't return.

"Oh, before you go to shower. Ryan texted me telling me that we should go to school tomorrow." I nod my head.

Honestly school maybe shit. But it will definitely distract me from my even shitter week.

I quickly hop in the shower getting the water to a temperature just right for me. When I step in I feel all my muscles relax it feels so nice, to just be alone for once.

My shower last a long time, I quickly hop out wrapping one towel around my body and one in my hair, as my feet pad across the tiled floor into my bedroom.

I don't hide my shock when I see Colton still sitting in my bedroom, "why are you still here?" I ask. My tone came out harsh but the wasn't my intention.

He clears his throat, as he looks me up and down before getting to speaking, "I just wanted to make sure that your still okay after what happened before?" My insides turn at how sweet he's being.

But obviously what I was thinking and what came out of my mouth were total opposites. "I'm fine Colton, just fuck off." I growl.

He scoffs, as anger now takes over his face. "I know I was a dick to you before and maybe embarrassed you after turning you down. But I'm here apologising to you after being a dick which is something I hardly ever do and yet here you are being a bitch about it!" He shouts.

I let out a little laugh. "You think I'm embarrassed about the fact that you turned me down when I thought you wanted to have sex!" I shout.

The another laugh comes out, trying make it seem like he's being ridiculous.

At this point the words are coming out and I can't stop them. "No, what would be embarrassing is sleeping with you, seeing as your dicks been half the population of the world because your such a fucking manwhore!"

The moment that leaves my lips my hand slaps over my mouth, to stop more hateful words coming out. My anger was speaking for me. That was god awful what I said.

I watch him wince as if the words physically hurt him, "Colton I am so so sorry, I didn't mean it. It came out I was just so mad." I say feeling extremely guilty.

He nods his head, "no it's okay I get it. It's what everyone thinks of me." His face looks so hurt and betrayed by my words.

I shake my head, I feel hot tears fall down my face, I don't know why I'm crying, but I feel a little overwhelmed. "Colton don't listen to me I didn't mean it. Your right I was embarrassed that you were so quick to reject me, I felt kind of hurt. And you kept apologising and it felt like you were throwing it in my face. And I said that horrible thing. I'm so sorry." I sob.

He just nods his head and walks out of my room. With a sob I collapse on my bed, not really caring that I'm still in a towel.

I feel beyond guilty for what I said, I'm such a horrible person.