Okay guys so this is my first song fic so please bare with me if it sucks. I'm sorry! I hope it's cute and you guys understand what I'm picturing as I write this. Okay... so... please read and buen provecho! (Enjoy) :)

I'm not a child now
I can take care of myself
I mustn't let them down now
I must not let them see me cry
I'm fine, I'm fine

I exhaled, watching the blood pool out of me, warming my skin. The bright red contrasting against my pale skin. My parents loud hurtful voices echoed through the empty house.

"Our son is nothing more than a confused child!" My mother screamed. "What if its part of him Emily?" My Dad rebuttals.

I bite my lip as another wave of pain washed over me, the blade almost going deeper. Tears streamed down my face. Coming out wasn't ideal but I couldn't lie to people. Especially not them. I liked other guys. I found them attractive and my family, the people I loved, needed to know...

My parents hadn't taken things well. My mom was some big perfectionist and father hadn't been around much due being an airlines pilot but after so many years of thinking I was mistaken I've accepted who I am and I've told them. They've been fighting for 6 months already...

Wiping the blood away I poured some cold water from the sink on it and then promptly pulled down my sleeve. I wiped my tear stained face and patted my cheeks.

I forced a smile onto my face and exited the bathroom. I walked downstairs and followed the bickering voices. "We need to fix this Ron!"

"This isn't something you fix!" I walked in and their eyes turned to me. "I'm going to go study at jesses, I'll be back for dinner! Love you guys!" I gave a bigger smile before waving and jogging off to my best friends house.

I sigh. This is fine. I'm learning to cope with it. I knew things would changed when I came out as gay. I knew so.. I'm fine. I wasn't some child who needed their parents to coddle them.

I'm too tired to listen
I'm too old to believe
All these childish stories
There is no such thing as faith
And trust and pixie dust

"Really Jesse I'm fine. I told you it's nothing more than a little accident with the potato peeler!" I yank my sleeves down over my arms and bite my inner lip.

Jesse gave me that look. "Perfectly lined on your wrist? Issac I thought we'd talked about this? It's not exactly safe or healthy to be doing that!"

I looked around. "Seriously I'm fine." I give a small chuckle and pick up my book. "I'm gonna go get a different book. This one isn't helping me with my history project."

I smile widely and walk off into the maze of book shelves the library in town had to offer.

I love Jesse. He is my best friend after all but he could really get on my nerves talking to me about cutting.

Sighing I place the book in its spot and tap my bottom lip as I search for the right one. Teachers will be teachers and projects will be projects.

But why did I get stuck with monetary policy and it's history. Yuck!

Oh! That one looks helpful! I lean up on my tiptoes and reach up, trying my best to grab it however the temperature around me shifts and a hand comes up and grabs it before I can.

I whip around and stare up at a rather handsome guy. He looks like a normal hot teenager.

"Ah, I..." he looked down at me and smiled. "Here, I thought maybe you needed help reaching it."

I could already feel the blush rushing to stain my cheeks. I cast my eyes downward. "Yeah.... it for a school project..."

"Oh nice, must be fun. I actually know a thing or two on monetary policy if you'd like I could help out."

I blushed harder and looked up, snatching the book away from him. If I stay here any longer I'll be head over heels for him and I just know it'll end up in heart break.

Please, a good lookin guy like him talking to me and even offering his help? It's a total scam!

"I'm Hayden by the way, what's your name?" He asked, smiling at me.

I look off to the side. "Isaac..."

"Well Issac maybe I'll see you around at school." With that he walks off, whistling some kind of tune I was slightly familiar with.

I blush but smile. It wouldn't hurt to play along right???

I try but its so hard to believe
I try but I can't see what you see
I try, I try, I try...

"You like him!!" Jesse taunted. I blushed, whacking his arm. "No! It's just a small little gathering at his house..." Jesse smirks. "With only you two??"

I blush more but can't stop the smile that plants itself on my face. "Well... he's nice and maybe he's good looking. Is it so wrong to try?" Jesse laughed and shook his head. "You've met him what? Twice? Once in the library where he dazzled you with his charm at reaching books on tall shelves and another time in the English class where you two sit next to each other."

"When you say it like that it sounds stupid! But yes. And besides in class he made me an origami swan and then promptly threw in the air to see if it flies and got in trouble just to make me laugh!"

Jesse smiled, putting his hands in his pocket. "That's sweet, really. I'm glad he's making you happy."

I blushed and bit into my grape before sneaking a glance at the devil himself only to see him looking at me. I blushed and looked away. "He's looking at me Jesse!" I whisper. Jesse laughs. "Say hi when we walk past his table to dump our trays!"

Without any more time Jesse gets up, forcing me to compulsively get up as well since we always dump our trays together to avoid the stares.

It's high school. People stare even more so now that I've come out recently.

We begin to approach Hayden's table. I tighten my grip on my tray and gulp down my nerves. Hayden smiles, watching me walk up to his table. "Hey," He greets.

Oh shit his smile makes my heart pump so hard!!!! I've never felt this way! And boy does his cheeks curve deliciously when he smiles like that too! And those small dimples-! Oh wait!!

"Hi..." I mutter quickly before speeding up and dumping my tray.

Shoot! I blew it!

Jesse comes over, laughing at me. "It's so obvious how much you like him!!!" I whack his arm once more before catching a pair of familiar amber eyes staring at us. I blush and grab jesses arms. "Let's go!" I say before tugging Jesse along.

Lord! Why was Hayden still staring at me???? Ahhhhhh!!!

My whole world is changing
I don't know where to turn
I can't leave you waiting
But I can't stay and watch the city burn
Watch it burn

"Hayden!" I smile and wave slightly as I open the door wider. He smiled back. "Wow! You look amazing!" I blush and rub my foot against my other foot as I bite my lip.

"My parents are excited to meet you!" He smiles. "Great! I'm excited too!"

I was so nervous after spending a few months with Hayden and getting to know him I found myself wanting to be with more and liking him and liking who I was with him.

He made me feel empowered and free and loved yet there was that fraction of me that was still so scared. Scared he wasn't staying here long. That he didn't love me all the way like I loved him...

I stepped aside and let Hayden inside.

However despite that horrible creeping feeling we did start dating a few weeks ago and have even decided he could meet my chaotic and crazy parents.

Well I guess it's just my mother whose psychotic...

Walking into the dinning room my dad looks up from placing the plates and smiles. "Aw! Hello, you must be Hayden. Our son has become quite the little talker about you!"

I blush and tighten my hold on Hayden's hand. "Ha Dad you didn't have to say that..."

Hayden smiles and looks down at me. "No, I think it's nice." I blush but smile slightly. Hayden is so loving!

Taking our seats my mother brings in the food. "Oh, seafood!" Hayden comments. My mother stops and looks over at him. "You don't like it?"

Hayden smiles. "No, it's fine! I love seafood!"

I squeeze his hand and give him a quick smile before letting go and dishing myself up some food.

And thus the interrogation starts...

What if this drives him away? What if this is too much for him and he can't handle my mother? I don't want... I really don't want to lose him...

'Cause I try but its so hard to believe
I try but I can't see what you see
I try, I try, I try
And I try to understand the distance in between
The love I feel
The things I fear
And every single dream

"Thanks Hayden, really. You handled that dinner so well!" Hayden laughs and leaned in, kissing me. I'm responding back, liking the feel of his lips on mine.

"Oh sorry for interrupting I thought Hayden would want some leftovers... I'll just sit inside then...." my mother quickly closed the front door again and I groaned.

"She's not like this... she wasn't t least.. things really change huh.."

Hayden grabs my hands pulling me in close to him. "Yeah but sometimes change is good. You're always welcomed at my place if you need to get away."

I sigh, leaning in and letting my forehead fall onto his shoulder. "I wish... thanks but I better get to bed before she thinks we're having sex or something..." I laugh and pull away.

I was scared... but this night went really well...

"I love you, I'll text you when I'm home, lay?" I nod and smile, leaning up on my tippy toes to kiss him. He leans down and meets me, wrapping his hands around my waist.

"Mm!" I pull away and laugh. "Goodnight Hayden..." he smiles back. "Good night Issac, sweet dreams." I smile and peck him on the cheek before opening the door to find my mom trying to listen in on us through it.

I sigh annoyedly and run upstairs.

I was scared to love him. I was hesitant after my first boyfriend loved me and left me but... Hayden seems different...

I can finally see it
Now I have to believe
All those precious stories
All the world is made of faith
And trust and pixie dust

"Mm, so," I kiss Hayden a few times. "You're sure no ones home??" I kiss a few more times, my arms wrapping themselves around his neck.

He laughed, kissing me back. "Yes, I promise." I giggle and pull away, dashing up the stairs and running to his room. I jump onto his bed and make myself comfy as I hear Hayden following me.

He finally enters my room, taking in the sight as I sit on his bed, propped up on my elbows.

"Good!" I say before getting up and walking over to him.

My arms find their places around his neck once more as I lean up and kiss him.

We begin to kiss heavily, his tongue eventually finding mine and battling with it. Hayden wins but this only fuels me with more desire.

My hands slide down and grab the sides of his shirt, yanking it up. Hayden gets the hint rather quickly as he pulls back just enough to get his shirt off.

He leans back in, grabbing the back of my neck to kiss me once more. I grab at his waist, pulling him forward as I step backwards until finally my legs hit the bed and we fall down on to it.

I pull back from the kiss, laughing. God I felt so happy in this moment. Like I was on cloud nine. 6 months of dating. Finally we were getting closer. I was so happy! I didn't want this moment to ever end!

So I'll try
'Cause I finally believe
I'll try
'Cause I can see what you see
I'll try, I'll try, I will try
I'll try

The lights were dimmed and the multicolored lights decorated the walls and floor as a nice modern tune played out of the speakers.

I smiled, setting my cup of punch down. "Dance with me Hayden!" I pull at his arm slightly. He laughs, standing up. "As you wish my fair maiden." I giggle and pull him on to the dance floor.

I wrap my hands around his neck as his find my waist. The song was slow and gentle and so full of emotion.

I smiled, closing my eyes.

Our bodies began to sway and the crowd of people in the school gym began to fade as the song took us away. I opened my eyes, smiling much bigger at Hayden. I'm so glad I met Hayden. I'm so glad I've fallen in love with him.

Hayden smiles and leans down. "You're absolutely stunning Issac." I blush and lean in more. "Why thank you my handsome date!" He chuckled before uniting our lips in magical kiss that sent me flying.

I love you Hayden. Thank you. I pull away. "Thanks Hayden, for letting me fly.." he gave me a quirked eye brow but nonetheless smiled and pecked my cheek. "I'd do anything for you Issac, I love you." "I love you too, Hayden."

To fly

So yeah this is one of my favorite Disney songs because Peter Pan was like my number one choice of movie when I was little. I was so obsessed. I hope this was cute or at least some what enjoyable for you guys. I didn't really know how to write a good song fic but I hoped you guys liked it as this was my very first one! Anyways... until next time my lovelies! <3