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An early update my dearies. Chapter dedicated to BhaviniPc. sneha__mantri snehanandu. Shiaamy. prasannakumari70907 sujith28. Tae_rm2004.

The most awaited POV is here. Siya will be pouring all her emotions in this chapter.

Let's begin with the chapter now.

Siya's POV

I made my way to the living room and saw Sid sitting there.

Listening to my footsteps, he turned his head to me.

I didn't know what to do or how to react so I did something that I thought was best to do.

Ignore.

Although I admired Sid a lot, not only for his intelligence and capability but also how he had saved my best friend from being molested.

He stood by her when she needed someone to comfort her and I am glad they're together after realizing their feelings for each other.

I was glad to know that they're going strong as ever and I really wish both of them best wishes, from the bottom of my heart.

They truly love each other and deserve to be with each other but I don't know why, I was disappointed with even him.

Everyone here disappointed me.

I still remember the bond that me and Sid shared. We could relate to each other because we were more or less from similar family background and our significant others are from well to do family.

I remember the conversation that we had the day after when Kriti was molested and we were both alone.

"Thank you so much for being with her, Sid" I said.

"She's my life, I'll always be there for her" he said.

"Are you sure you would be able to convince her family?" I asked him after few minutes of contemplation.

"I don't know what our future holds, Siya but I know for a fact that I can't let her go, not after what my stupidity caused both of us" he said.

"I really want both of you to end up together" I said.

"You think we will?" he asked me skeptically.

"When there's love involved, there's no place of doubt. Just trust yourself, Kriti and your relationship. I am not saying that it would be easy but you need to believe in yourself and her. Just don't give up on her and this relationship" I said.

"Thank you, Siya" he said, giving me smile.

"You don't have to say thank you to me. Just take care of her, that's what I want" I said, returning the smile.

"I'll" he said.

"Do you want to have something? I am going to make something for all of us" he asked me, bringing me back from my memory lane.

I shook my head and sat down on the single seater couch.

I wanted to ask him when did he start cooking? I remember Kriti scolding him for lying about cooking back when we were in office but I restrained myself from asking him anything.

"Are you...are you fine?" he asked me.

I looked at him and didn't say anything.

Looking at him, I saw him already staring at me.

"Don't you want to talk to me?" he asked me.

Did I want to talk to him?

I don't know.

So I just ignored him and looked forward.

I then heard footsteps fading away indicating that he had walked away.

I then saw Akash coming and sitting on the couch which was earlier occupied by Sid.

"You...aren't you hungry?" he asked.

I nodded my head and then I saw Kriti coming and sitting beside him.

I looked at her and saw her red puffy eyes.

I knew I hurt her back when we were in Akash's room which I never wanted to do but I didn't say anything that I didn't mean.

They've all disappointed me, left me.

Though even Akash left me and may be I feel like I need him, that doesn't mean I am not disappointed in him but only he could make me feel something to survive.

He was my hope and still is. He's the reason I kept going and counting my days.

I waited for him and somewhere I wanted him to take me away from my home, with him which I am glad he did.

That's why I didn't object him when he asked me if I wanted to come with him to New York or not because I really wanted to.

Somewhere, I wanted to get away from that place and be with him, alone.

"What would you like to have?" he asked me.

"Anything" I said now looking at the TV channel which was playing.

The channels here were different from Indian TV channels.

When he saw me looking at the TV, he said "do you want to watch something?"

I looked at him and nodded my head.

"What would you like to see?" he asked.

Something just hit me, then.

He was asking me about each and everything now. This wasn't something which he did earlier.

"Why are you asking me everything now?" I asked.

"I...I just wanted to make sure that you're not stripped off your choice" he said.

I stared at him for a few seconds, then said "I wish you would've thought the same when you left me."

Though it was unintentional but I really wanted to say it to him.

I know this must've hurt him, a lot, but what I said is true.

"Siya, I...I just did what I thought was right" he said.

"But it wasn't" I said, still looking at him.

"I...I am sorry. I...I don't know what do I say or what should I do" he said.

"What's done is done Akash. No one can change it. I just wanted to let you know that...I am not angry or mad at you. I am just disappointed, not with you but with me. I am disappointed in myself for expecting something from you. If only I hadn't expected anything from you, it would've hurt me less" I said.

"Siya, please, don't say that" he said with unshed tears.

"I don't want you to cry Akash. Don't worry. You know, it hurts only when you expect something from someone and it doesn't get fulfilled. Looking at my past experience, I don't expect anything from anyone. That would hurt me less right? No expectations, no hurt" I said and stood up from the couch.

Going near him, I wiped his tears and said "don't ever think that I am trying to belittle you, Akash. Believe me, I am very much thankful to you for bringing me here but now, I've learnt my lesson well. Expectations have always hurt me and I just want to protect myself from being hurt again."

"Siya, please don't say that" I heard Kriti say with heavy voice.

"Kriti, you don't have to worry about me, you don't have to cry for me. I am fine, just not the same you left me" I said.

"Please, Siya. I know I was wrong to leave you alone and I am sorry" she said.

I went to her and wiping her tears, said "you don't have to be sorry about anything. In fact thank you so much for teaching me a lifelong lesson, do you know what?"

She shook her head.

"You've taught me that no matter what happens, life is unpredictable and someday or the other the people who cherish you would also leave. Though I never had any hard feelings against you when you left me but wouldn't you've expected me to stay with you if you were in my shoes" I asked her.

She nodded.

"Yet, you left me" I said and she looked down.

"You remember I told you that you're my queen" Akash asked and I looked at him.

"Yet you left your queen" I said.

"Siya, I...I" he was saying but I cut him off.

"I am hungry. Can I get something to eat?" I said and walked to sit on the single seater couch again and picked up the remote of TV.

Akash's POV

What she said just blew my mind but what she said was absolutely true.

I had indeed left her.

"Bhaiya" I heard Kriti's voice and when I looked at her, she was crying.

"You need to be patient with her" I said and wiped her tears.

"Don't forget she's hurt. She'll try to push you away by saying something that might hurt you but you need to be strong. You need to make it up to her. Remember, she will not do anything intentionally to hurt you. Her hurtful words will only be a defense mechanism for her so that she wouldn't trust anybody but you need to earn her trust, again" I said.

"I understand that bhaiya. It's just that I haven't seen her this cold and distant to me, ever" she said.

"You should get used to it and you need to be strong" I said.

"But I don't understand why is she so cold to me" she asked.

Should I tell about it to her?

May be, I should.

"Kriti, do you remember when me and Sid were about to set up an office here and you and Siya were very upset about it?" I asked.

(Readers who don't remember, please refer chapter 99-Come with me, where Siya had agreed not to go with Akash for Kriti)

"Yes" she asked slowly.

"That day, me and Siya had decided to fly together to New York. Although we had to talk to her parents and I didn't know if they would agree with us or not but I know for a fact that she wanted to come with me and when I suggested her this idea, she had instantly agreed" I said.

"What?" she asked with widened eyes.

"Yes but then when you denied to come with Sid, and said that you both would wait for us in India, she backed out because she didn't want to upset you" I said.

"What're you saying?" she asked with widened eyes.

"Yes, she chose to be with you rather than coming with me" I said.

"Probably, she wanted you to be with her or expected you to be with her" I said.

"I can't believe it" she whispered and looked at Siya whose gaze was still fixed at the TV, trying to figure out what to see.

"We've wronged her at so many levels. I don't even know where do we start to get things normal for her" she said.

"I don't know where to start. I just had a word with Deepak uncle and he asked me to send reports so that he can prepare for her sessions but that might take some time as he's in London right now" I said.

"So, you'll take he to London?" she asked.

"Probably, yes. Anyways we had to open a branch there and Deepak uncle would be there as well" I said.

"Will she be ready to take sessions?" she asked.

"I don't know but as of now uncle hasn't asked me to do anything or even tell Siya about it. He asked me to just follow what he says" I said.

"But bhaiya, if she doesn't talk to anyone here, it'll just make the matter worse. She isn't ready to talk to me. She'll only talk to you but not to the content of her heart because somewhere she thinks that even you left her. We need someone who she trusts" she said.

Kriti did have a point.

But she didn't have any friend apart from Kriti unless she trusts someone else.

Suddenly, something clicked me.

"Rashmi" I said.

"Rashmi?" she asked.

"Yes, she was the only one who helped her take sabbatical leave" I said.

"She might not be close to her but might be she would trust her because she's the only one who helped her in her tough times to get her out of humiliation" I said.

"May be you're right" she said.

"You think, I should talk to her?" I asked.

"There's no harm in trying" she said.

Taking a deep breath, I made my way to the couch again and sat on it.

"Siya" I said.

She looked at me.

"You remember Rashmi?" I asked her.

"Yes. She's the only one who helped me when I needed someone" she said, looking at me blankly.

Her statement made me gulp my saliva.

"Do you...do you want to talk to her?" she asked.

She stared at me for a few seconds then asked "can I?"

"Of course you can. Do you want to talk to her now?" I asked, taking my phone out, ready to dial her number.

She looked at the clock and then at me.

"What time is it in India?" she asked me.

"Around 6:30 PM" I said, frowning.

"Let's wait for some more time. She must be busy in office. I don't have any work to do but unlike me, she is a working professional and I don't want her to get disturbed because of me" she said.

I closed my eyes.

"Don't think that you don't have any work to do, Siya. You're just on a break" I said.

I don't want her to feel like a worthless shit when in reality, she's far from that.

"Akash, you and me both know very well that I am nothing but a burden. First to my parents, then you" she said and a lone tear escaped her eyes.

I immediately took her in my arms and sat on the couch with her in my lap.

She was crying her eyes out now with her face burried in my neck.

"Shhh...shhh, please baby, please don't cry" I said, patting her back.

My eyes went to Kriti who was just staring at Siya with tears brimming her eyes.

Sid came out of the kitchen meanwhile and was trying to coax Kriti.

"You can never be a burden to me, Siya. Did I ever make you feel like that, please tell me" I said, caressing her back.

She shook her head.

"If I would've ever thought that you're a burden to me, I would've never gone to India to just get a glimpse of you. You're my solace, Siya, my home. How could you ever be a burden on me?" I asked her.

"If I wouldn't have been a burden to you, you would've taken me with you, instead you left me to get married to some other guy. How could you do this to me and why?" she asked me, whispering.

I knew this question was about to come but I never knew I would've to face it so soon. I didn't have any answer to her question.

"Tell me, why?" she asked me again.

"It was a mistake, Siya. Please, I am sorry" I said with tears welled up in my eyes.

"Couldn't you've tried a little harder to convince my parents?" she asked me, again.

"Would they've changed their mind?" I asked her and she became silent.

"Marrying me would've broken all ties with your parents. May be with time they would've forgiven us but if not, you wouldn't even see them all your life. Were you ready for it?" I asked her.

She said nothing, just stared at me.

"Even if we would've gotten married, do you think in the long run you wouldn't want your parents to be with you? Would you've been happy?" I asked her.

"Admit it Siya, somewhere even you weren't sure what to do and believe me, if I would've known the repercussions of my stupid decision, I would've never left you with them. You don't know how bad I want to go back in time and change my decision but I can't, Siya, I can't" I said.

"Everybody is your culprit, Siya. Me, Kriti, Sid, Mohit, Samaira your parents and I know you're disappointed with everyone of us but everybody is regretting their actions. Isn't repenting for your mistakes a punishment for all of us?" I asked.

She just looked away.

"You're my queen, Siya. Believe me or not but you're. You're my only love and I'll do anything and everything in my power so that you could forgive me" I said.

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