*This chapter contains 'Me Before You' Spoilers.*

Even though I was now getting out of bed I wasn't making it far. 

The farthest I've gone was going out for a drive with River three days ago. 

I know I should just get over it already. I want to so bad. 

Desiree said it's ok to be heartbroken over him. I just don't feel like it anymore. 

He cheated on me. So why am I wasting tears over him?

I decide to do the one thing I know will take my mind off of it. 

Watch romantic comedies. 

They're all the same which is the best part. You always know what's going to happen, how its going to end. 

It also makes me feel better when I am on my period. Which is what I happen to be on right now. 

No one is home so I decide to watch the movies on the tv in the living room. 

I am currently in sweatpants and a long sleeve black shirt. My hair is in a bun, that's how I have been dressed for the past week and a half. 

Going into the kitchen I grab the gallon size container of mint chocolate chip ice cream, and a spoon. 

Then I sit down on the couch and turn on the tv. 

I decide to start with 'Clueless' for Paul Rudd obviously. 

Half way through the movie and carton of ice cream I hear the front door open. 

I don't take my eyes off the screen as I hear it shut. 

"Well look who is out of bed." Kai says and my eyes snap over to him. 

He's alone which is weird. 

"Why are you here?" I ask as he comes to sit down beside me. 

"Dez asked me to come over and check up on you." He says and I roll my eyes. 

He quirks an eyebrow, "Who taught you to roll your eyes."

I ignore him as I try to watch my movie. 

Sighing he turns to look at the screen, "So what are we watching?"

"I am watching Clueless." 

He hums grabbing the spoon out of my hand and eating the ice-cream off of it. 

"Hey thats mine." I say and he hands me the spoon back, "Sharing is caring."

We watch the movie and eat ice cream. 

When the movie is done I start another one. 

Eventually we run out of ice cream is Kai runs to the store to get more. 

Now we were eating cookies and cream, watching 'Me Before You.'

I don't know why I put this one on cause now both me and Kai are crying. 

"Why didn't you tell her you prick." Kai says to Will. I hand him a tissue and he blows his nose. 

I wipe under my eyes. 

The front door opens and I see Ash, Dez, River, and Spencer walk in.

When they see the two of us they stop in their tracks. 

"Ava what the hell did you do to Kai?" Spencer asks and I narrow my eyes at him. 

Ash looks over at the tv screen, "You haven't even gotten to his death yet." 

Kai's eyes widen, "He actually dies?"

Great. 

"You're crying because of a fictional character?" Dez asks him. 

Spencer starts laughing before pulling out his phone to take a picture. 

Kai groans, "This is a safe space assholes."

I pause the movie as I watch Kai shovel more ice cream into his mouth. 

"You guys went through three containers of ice cream?" Ash asks grabbing the two empty containers. 

"To be fair Ava practically ate the first one all by herself." Kai says and I smack his arm, "You ate most of the second one."

"How did this even happen? Kai, I told you just to come check on her, not stay and have a crying session." Desiree says. 

"I don't need anyone to check on me I'm fine." I say and Ash throws the blanket off of me. 

"Sweetie you're sitting on a couch in sweats watching sad movies and eating ice cream on a Wednesday afternoon." Ash says sitting down beside me. 

"They weren't all sad." I point out. 

My phone buzzes on the coffee table. Ash gave it back to me a few days ago. Austin hasn't tried to call me since I've gotten it back and I think she might have had something to do with that. 

I asked her though and she claimed she had no idea why he wasn't calling me.

Picking up my phone I see that it's him. 

Well I I guess I jinxed it. 

"It's my mom." I lie, as I stand up and head to my room. 

The moment the door shuts I answer. 

"Hello?" I ask sitting down on my bed. 

I hear his breath hitch, "Ava?" 

"What do you want?" I ask and I hear him sigh, "I wanted to just say that I was sorry. Your friend was right I shouldn't have done what I did. I know you might not ever forgive me but I needed you to know that I never meant to hurt you."

"How long?" I ask trying to keep my voice steady. 

He hesitates so I ask again, "How long?"

"Eight months." He says and I feel like someone just stabbed me in the gut. 

That was way before I even moved here. 

"Since January?" 

"Christmas Eve." He says making the knife twist deeper. 

We celebrated Christmas together the next day. 

"Why?" I ask, needing to know. This past week and a half no one has been able to give me an answer to that question. 

He releases a breath, "I want you to know that I love you Ava."

"But?"

"Juliet and I met in physics last year. We were lab partners and I swear it all started as innocent little touches and flirting. On Christmas Eve her car wasn't starting and she called me to jump start it for her. We shared a kiss and things escalated from there-

-I didn't want to hurt you and I wasn't sure what I was feeling for her. At graduation she told me I had to choose between the two of you. I was going to admit everything to you but then you moved and I told her we broke it off-

-When I came to visit I planned to tell you again but then I saw how happy you were. You were never that happy in Georgia. I know it was a cowardly move but I just couldn't tell you. I never wanted you to find out this way."

I am full on sobbing at this point. The past eight months of our relationship was a lie. While I was sitting here thinking about him, he was with another girl. 

"I'm so, so sorry sugar. If I could go back and change things I would."

I laugh dryly, "I can't believe thats your excuse, that you just couldn't find the perfect time to tell me. You had five and a half months to tell me before I moved Austin."

"I know. You have every right to hate me Ava." He says softly. 

I sigh, "You know I don't hold grudges. I can't say I am ready to forgive you yet but I don't hate you. And we are over, for good. I also thinks its best if you don't go to my families house anymore." I say. 

"I understand, and I really do wish I had done things differently."

"Me too." I say and hang up. 

Then I block his contact. 

Surprisingly I feel a whole lot better. No not better, lighter. 

I wipe my face before leaving my room. 

Everyone is sitting in the room, it's a little too quiet.

"How was the talk with your mom?" Ash asks raising an eyebrow. 

I sit down beside her, "I lied."

"We figured." Dez says from the chair beside me. 

Ash puts some of my hair behind my ear, "So?" She asks her voice softer than usual. 

"Eight months." I say, my throat feels sore. 

No one says anything or asks me to elaborate. I don't need to, they understand. 

"I think we should all go to Andi's." Dez says and everyone agrees. 

I go to change and the six of us head out.