KILLING ME

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Third Person POV

"It's killing me, once again...

Your traces still remain in my room and they torture me.

It's killing me when I remember about us.

I turned around like you're a stranger
But why am I so lonely?.

I thought I'd be indifferent about breaking up with you.

But there's one habit of yours that I have..

'Not being able to throw things away'.

Foolishly, these feelings remain something that feels like regret.

Opposite from you who is doing great right now.

Baby, I'm half dead right now..

I didn't know the weight of this break up will be..

I was selfish and I ignored your tears.

Freedom and new relationships are what people think after break-ups.

But behind that is actually will be an empty heart, without love...

On this dark night, I'm alone again.. no warmth that I can get from you anymore..

This isn't right.

Your existence is such a big part of my world.

I try to get you out of my head but I can't take you out of there.

Once I did take her off and I broke down.

But I can't tell myself to be ready to die, leaving this world..

So it's killing me now..

Why did I meet her? Why did I choose this break up?.

I loved her to death, but I chose to leave her..

The fire that she extinguished is burning up again.

Is it because of this painful longing? Or is it my selfish loneliness?.

Baby, I regret everything...

This is my last farewell for you, I'll try to forget you in future. But, I have no future.. without you... I have no future, baby.

I regret everything that I've done to you.

Big regret,

Big love, Y/N"

Jennie let her tears streaming down her cheeks as she read the letter.

She looked down at Y/N's name that written on the tombstone.

"You could've just say this to me... it's killing me too.. It kills me from inside.. you chose to leave me forever and ever.." Jennie said as she broke down onto the ground.

"Not allowing me to meet you again... now how am I going to survive? I'm dying without you.." Jennie sobbed.

Jennie looked straight to Y/N's tombstone.

"Wait for me... my name will be written next to you... and I promise... I'll be right beside you..." Jennie swore.

"I love you to death"

"Always"

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Yo, I'm back

With angst...