This wasn't for Jax, standing around a bunch of dance moms oogling over their daughters dancing and Jax. All of the moms kept whispering to eachother about how hot or sexy Jax was or what they would do to bed him. Jax knew that Harlow made him take Piper to dance out of spite. After kissing Harlow the other night she pushed him away and made him sleep on the couch, he couldn't figure out if she was just playing games with him or if she was just clueless on what she wanted. Jax was willing to wait for as long as he needed to but something was off about Harlow. She had gotten up this morning and told Jax she was going to run errands and he had the kids until she got back, but she didn't return until a few minutes before Piper needed to be at the dance studio and telling him he needed to bring her so she could get things done around the house. He needed to get the bottom of this and why she was acting weird

Jax had asked his mother to take the kids for the night so he could figure out what was going on with Harlow but Jax was shocked when Gemma had told him that she always had the kids on Thursday nights. After Jax got back to the house Harlow's suv wasnt home and the house was dark. Walking into the house Jax walked into the bedroom and started snooping through Harlow's drawers, giving up after not finding anything.

Jax drove down main street towards the clubhouse since he made several attempts to call Harlow and she wasn't picking up. Noticing her blue trailblazer parked infront of a small fancy diner Jax pulled around the side of the building and walked towards the front, what Jax witnessed was something he didnt want to see. Harlow was sitting with a man around the same age as Jax, they were laughing and drinking wine. Harlow glanced toward the window and locked eyes with Jax fear covering her face as she didn't want Jax to find her.

Jax walked into the diner and over to the table that Harlow was sitting at and sat down next to the brown haired man

"What are you doing here?" Harlow asked as she sipped her wine

"I should be asking you the same question" Jax said looking at the guy

"I am having dinner with a friend" Harlow said "Peter this is Jax, Jax this is Peter"

"Hi Jax nice to meet you" Peter said putting his hand out to shake Jax's hand, when Jax noticed a wedding ring on his finger similar to the one Harlow wore

"A friend huh?" Jax scoffed

"Pete I'm sorry, I've gotta go same time next week?" Harlow asked standing up and yanking Jax out of his seat as Peter nodded

Once they were outside Harlow pulled Jax to the alley

"What the actual fuck Jax?" Harlow said pushing Jax toward the brick wall

"What do you mean what the fuck you are the one fucking some prick" Jax yelled

"He is my fucking sponsor Jax!" Harlow yelled

"What the fuck you need a sponsor for?" Jax asked

Harlow put her hair up and looked at Jax "I am in recovery"

"Excuse me?" Jax asked as he pulled his head back

"I am a recovering drug addict Jax. I nearly killed myself I'm surprised your mother didn't rat me out" Harlow scoffed, really suprised that Gemma didn't say anything to Jax about it

"What are you talking about? You weren't before" Jax said

"Exactly I wasn't before Jax. But you fucked me up, fucked me up so bad I turned to pills. lots of them. your mother found me almost dead in the bathroom when I didn't pick Piper up from dance after Abel was born" Harlow said

"Babe" Jax said reaching his hand out

"No. I am not and will not put myself through this again, you broke me Jax, you remember when you promised you were breaking my wall down? Well congratulations Jackson you did it. You fucking broke me. Broke me to the point I turned into a fucking junkie"Harlow said walking away

"Harlow" Jax said

"Leave me alone Jax, I think you have done enough damage" Harlow said turning around and punching Jax in the face

Jax stood in the alley stunned at what just happened, kinda of mad that his mom didn't feel it was important to tell him that Harlow nearly died. As Jax rode home he knew that this was all his fault, it was his fault that Harlow started taking pills to forget, forget him

Harlow stood at the kitchen sink and gripped the granite counter as she heard Jax's bike pull into the driveway. Jax walked over to Harlow and wrapped his arms tightly around her as she tried to fight him off but he squeezed tighter

"I am sorry" Jax said as he heard her muffled cries and her body relax against his

"I didn't have anyone, my mom is gone. My dad was in jail and the one person I let in let me down" Harlow cried

"I am so sorry babe I didn't mean to cause all of this. I was stupid so fucking stupid to hurt you like that" Jax said

"I didn't want to live anymore Jax, I swore to myself when I left Stan that i wouldn't let anyone else in. And when you came into my life it was like the calm before the storm" Harlow cried

Jax released his grip around Harlow taking her hand and bringing her back to the bedroom

"I am sorry Harlow and I don't know what I can do to make you see that, what you told me hurt me, and I don't hurt easy, knowing that you nearly ended your life because of my stupidity. I would of never forgave myself if something happened to you" Jax said as Harlow sat on the bed taking off her heels

"My life spiraled out of control, I couldn't deal with it anymore. The constant whispering at the club, anywhere I went i was always Jax Teller's ex old lady." Harlow said

Jax looked down at the carpet it was then it hit him like a ton of bricks, Gemma didn't tell him because she knew that Jax would of held it over her head

"I still have your letter I never opened it" Harlow said pulling out the letter out of the nightstand that was meant for her

"I think you should read it" Jax said sitting on the bed

Harlow opened the envelope slowly

To the love of my life,

When I first met you I knew how I felt instantly, I knew that I fell head over heels in love with you over small talk at the bar. When I found out that you were Happy's kid it wasn't going to stop me from making you mine, and now you are. I asked you to marry me six months ago but i have a little secret to tell you. We cant get married not yet. I want to so bad but there is a few things stopping me and i know your going to be mad at me but I promise to fix this. Tara and I are married, we have been since we turned eighteen. I thought i had signed the divorce papers but they got lost somewhere but i promise you they are on their way to the jail for me to sign, second I still want to marry you the second I get released if you'll still have me babe, Harley Lowman I've never loved anyone as much as I love you, you light up my darkest days, you make me want to be a better man in my life and that's all because of you. The way I feel about you is absolutely indescribable. You make me feel things I've never felt before in my whole life. I want to be with you more then anything in the entire world. You hold every power over me. You are my queen Harlow I will bow down to you and only you for the rest of my life

Love your old man. Jax

Harlow's jaw was wide open as she dropped the letter to the ground

Readers!!! I don't normally post a fourth update but the amount of comments i got on chapter twenty-one was amazing!!! You readers are making me want to write more and i have so much brewing in my head for ideas for Harlow and Jax if you are in this for the long run then so am i!!!!!!!!!!

Besides i couldn't let you think that Harlow was just going to give into Jax like that could I?