(Y/N) has been important to me for a while now, I can't just let her go, and I've began to notice that. The servants are even talking about our separation and multiple times have asked me if I was alright.

       The bloody servants that can't do a job right without making a mess, are asking me if I'm alright because of a silly break-up! 

      I have lost people close to me to death before, and I just lost (Y/N) to a mistake. She is still alive, I can still see her out in town sometimes. So how come when those other people left for good, I was able to keep together yet this petty thing even worries the servants about me? 

     It would make me feel better if they only asked due to the current circumstances, however I know it's because of my behavior, and I hate myself for it. I'm being broken by a mere girl that I lost yet is still here. It's pathetic. 

    But it's true I miss her, and the only way to solve this is to have her back. It would be the best thing to do. 

   I had cleared my schedule to talk to (Y/N) today. I wasn't going to do it like before and just leave once denied; I will stay until I get what I went there for. 

   Reluctantly, the maid allowed me into the house and took me up to (Y/N)'s study. I was happy to finally be able to get the solution to my problem, soon enough I would be back to normal and can do my work properly without any condolences from the cleaning service. 

    "What's he doing here?" (Y/N) asked her maid as she gazed up from her paperwork. In all honesty seeing her now relived me, I missed seeing her (H/C) hair and (E/C) eyes. 

    "(Y/N), I came here to talk to you. I will not leave until I do. You can trust Sebastian and I to keep finding ways into your manor until you listen." I stated boldly. 

   (Y/N) seemed to know that my statement was true as she frowned; but nonetheless, "Continue..." 

   "I know what I did was inexcusable, so I won't make an excuse for it; however I love you, and I won't let go of you so easily." I stated. 

    "If you loved me then how come it took you this long to come back with something other than 'let me in'?" She asked. 

   "It took me a while to realize how much you meant to me. My work began getting delayed as I worked later in the day. The servants even began to worry. I began to realize why I was like that. You are my solution. I miss you." I explained. 

    (Y/N) looked in disbelief as her eyes seemed to tear up. 

   "You just don't get it do you?" She asked quietly. 

   "Hm?" I was slightly lost. 

     "You're not asking me back because you care about me...you want me back so that you stop being lazy and can do your work accurately. You don't care if you have me as myself or not, you just know that I'm the reason you're upset and you want to get back to work." She paused, as I stood in shock.

       "If you truly cared it wouldn't have took this long... Be honest...it didn't take you this long to confront me about it because you didn't realize how much I meant to you...It took you this long because you thought you would be okay with me gone, but then you figured out that no other remedy worked, to get you back to pace..." She began to lower her head onto her desk, "That was a lie..." Her voice seemed to be wavering before she said two words in a horrid tone, "Get out."

    "I didn't mean it like that, and I'm not leaving!" I seemed to find a way beyond my shock to speak firmly.

  "Fine," She stated, her voice back to normal, "Then I will." With those few words she ducked her head down as she stood up from her seat and left the door; I didn't even see her face. 

    I could follow her, but from the corner of my eye it looked like a few servants were going to be preventing that. I could easily have stayed and got Sebastian to move them out of the way, but that would only make her hate me more.