ARNAV

"Why? What happened, Arnav? Why did you call me to the hospital at midnight? And why are you crying? Fuck, man, what happened? You're scaring me." Ishaan asked.

Unable to take breath, I sat on the floor and held my face in my palms. My chest hurts as I cry in agony. What have I done? I-I didn't mean to.....

"Arnav." Ishaan screamed, pulling my hand to stand up. "What's wrong?"

"I-I had a call from the hospital. Disha was pregnant. She was pregnant with my child, Ishaan." I stammered, unable to stop my tears.

Ishaan's face grew tensed but he didn't say anything. He just nodded his head and patted my shoulder.

How am I going to tell him? How?

Clenching my fist, I stared at the vacant space and her smiling face appeared in the back of my head.

Anaya.

The girl who came into my life like a storm, taking away my everything yet giving me something I've always craved for.

My hands started shaking as it became impossible for me to breathe. I banged my head against the wall several times before Ishaan pulled me away. He took me outside in open and sighed. "Breathe, Arnav. Just fucking breathe. You need to stay sane."

"I can't. I can't stay sane. I made a big mistake, Ishaan. I did something for which I won't ever be able to forgive myself. I never wanted to do this, I never...." I trailed off, wiping my tears as blood rolled down my forehead.

"What have you done? Anaya? Where is she? Don't tell me-" He looked at me in disbelief.

"When I heard that Disha was pregnant, I forgot everything. Nothing else mattered. I swear I didn't plan this accident to happen. I just wanted her to feel the near-death situation but I never planned any harm to her."

Ishaan stared at my face, his eyes reflecting worry but he waited for me to say more.

"I-I made her sit in the car and controlled the car. I-I increased the speed..." But before I could finish my sentence, he punched me right across the face.

"You fucking psychopath, tell me she's alright. Just fucking tell me that she's alright or else I'll make sure you rot behind the bars for the rest of your life." He hissed, grabbing my collar and shoving me to the wall.

"She's in surgery, Ishaan. Doctor told me that they'll try their best but they're not sure if she'll survive or not." I let out the most dreading thing out of mouth to which, he punched me again.

"Ishaan, I don't want anything to happen to her. I won't be able to survive her loss. I can't live without her." I whispered.

I don't want anything else in this world except her. I never believed in God but if he's there, then please, save her. I don't want to lose her. I'll repay for what I did even if it takes giving up on my life but please don't let anything happen to her.

"Why? Why can't you live without her? You should've thought about this before you did this to her, you bastard." He spat.

"I-I love her. I fucking love her, man." I yelled, punching my fist on the wall.

I love her more than I'll ever be able to love anyone. Now seeing her struggle for her life because of me, I want nothing more than to hurt myself till my body bleeds and I feel strong pain physically because this emotional pain is killing me. I can't bear it. In my rage I did the gravest mistake of my life. I put in danger to the person whom I love insanely.

I shouldn't be the one to love her. She doesn't deserve a fucked up person like me. It wasn't her intention to kill Disha but even though I didn't want her to die, I intentionally put her into danger.

"You love her? Wake up, dude. This is not love, you don't harm the person you love." He laughed in a hollow tone.

You don't know Ishaan. You don't know a thing.

Closing my eyes, I remembered all the moments I spend with her. I always thought of telling her that how much I love her but didn't get enough get to tell her my confession. I thought she'll go away from me if I tell her that.

I wish. I wish I never get to know that Disha was pregnant. I wish I never hurt Anaya, I wish it was all different.

I don't know what I'm going to do if something happens to her. I'll fucking kill myself.

"I should have told you earlier and I should have never lied to Anaya so that she come back to you. You don't deserve her. This is all my fault." He said to himself and ran to this car only to return with a letter and phone in his hand.

What he's talking about?