"Bezmialem Hatun, Safiye Sultan has called for you on a lunch with her. Her daughter Humasah Sultana will also be there so you better quickly dress up and hurry there," Meleki Hatun said to me after I woke up.

"Do I really have to go?" I asked her since I didn't feel the best. I was happy about being pregnant but my fears for the future of that baby were big. I knew that I will lose Iskender whatever I do and I was sorry for my unborn baby and was afraid in front of Safiye after Dilruba threatened me.

"You are pregnant with Sultan Iskender's first child and of course you must go. Don't you disobey Valide Sultana because she could get in a fight with you very easily," Meleki said helping me to get up and prepare to go there.

I was the one carrying future heir or sultana of this empire and I had to act normal like nothing has happened, but I couldn't since I was afraid of Dilruba and I felt guilty for everything that happened, even though I haven't done anything wrong nor I will because I love Iskender.

"Sultanas," I entered Valide Sultan's chambers and bowed to Safiye and her daughter Humasah which I have never seen in my life only thing I knew was that she is wife of Zulfikar Pasha.

"Bezmialem, come here sit with us," Safiye said with a smile on her face and she seemed really happy that she will get yet another grandson and Humasah Sultan seemed really happy even though I haven't even known her.

"Congradulations. I heard my brother is madly in love with you and now you will give birth to a heir of this dynasty. I want you to take care of yourself and what you drink and eat," Humasah said.

"Don't worry Sultanim, I will be aware of everything and take care of baby the best possible way," I said waiting for Safiye Sultan to start eating and only when she began to eat all of us could after her.

"But the fact you are really loved by Iskender doesn't mean he won't have other concubines. You are pregnant now and for the sake of Dynasty he must have another concubine to also have a child because that is what is most important and the real reason of Harem," Safiye said seriously and she exactly knew what words would hurt me the most even though I knew the rules way before I came here.

"Everything is clear to me, Valide Sultan. I know Sultan must have another concubines and more heirs and there is nothing I can do with that," I said and faked a soft smile on my face even though those words hurted my heart so much.

"You are well mannered, Bezmialem. And also well raised up, Sadiye Hanim really made good job with you and I am glad a concubine like you is in my brother's harem," Humasah said with a smile once again and mention of Sadiye only reminded me of Davut Pasha and Dilruba and I felt so bad when I remembered this.

Their words came to my head all the times and I would just sometimes find myself feeling so bad because of them and they were giving me a lot of stress and I wish I would tell all of this to Iskender and end my sufferings.

"And remember not to show jealousity here in Harem when Iskender starts getting new consorts. You were treated the best possible way and I don't want any scene when a new girl sleeps in his bed," Safiye said coldly to me but even that was better than her mentioning again Sadiye or Davut or Dilruba.

I knew Safiye has already chosen new maids for Iskender and I was really sad because of that because those two months he gave to me. He has spent those two months only with me and he haven't been with another maid which made me love him even more.

Only a thought of another woman laying into his bed or him kissing or touching her made me feel angry like a crazy. But I knew I couldn't fight against Safiye or the rules when my bigger threat was Dilruba who's one word could destroy mine and my children's life.

If Dilruba would only find out I am pregnant I know she would do whatever is needed to get rid of that child and I couldn't afford it. I promised to myself to protect my child no matter what because child was most important to me together with Iskender.

I was returning back from the lunch with Safiye and Humasah back to my chambers together with Meleki and one more maid Iskender gave to me when I heard maids in Harem talking about me.

"We got luck that Bezmialem is pregnant so she won't go anymore to Iskender. Now one of us will get the chance," a maid said to others while they gathered around talking about me.

"What has he saw in her? She is nothing special and I don't know why he doesn't take one of us others."

"She must have done some magic spells on our Sultan because there is no other way he could call for her always," I heard a familiar voice and recognised angry Sureyya immediately.

"Sureyya I don't understand why didn't you fight with her, you should have turned Sultan against her because this way he has forgotten about you," another maid said.

"She is right, you are totally abandoned Sureyya. On your place, I would destroy Bezmialem the moment she came," one more was making sure to make Sureyya angry so she could do something bad.

"You would have done it on her place, but Sureyya haven't," I said as I entered in Harem and they didn't know I heard everything they said. Some of them seemed scared, but Sureyya just raised her head proudly and looked at me with anger.

"I am not a witch, but just like you others, I didn't put any magic spell on our Sultan," I said trying to talk normally with them because in this harem no one liked me and it made me feel horrible sometimes.

All of these women were at least in okay relationship one with another. Sureyya was close to so many girls here and I was good with no one. Only person that was with me always from the girls was Meleki to who that was ordered from Iskender and I trusted it is hard for her to be next to me when I am with a man she loves.

"If you aren't a witch, then you must have a good connection with someone powerful who threw you here to be their person of trust, because otherwise you wouldn't be able to get so much attention from Sultan," one of the maids said and my heart started beating so fast from fear because her words were the actual truth and at first moment I was afraid that she might know something, but she didn't know about it.

I saw Miran Kalfa behind them and her look froze me right at the moment because she seemed so angry about me.

"It is not my fault that I had luck and was chosen to be sent to the Sultan, I didn't chose it but Efsun Kalfa chosed it," I said.

"When you give birth to a daughter, everyone in this palace will forget about you Bezmialem, I swear to you," Sureyya said as she came in front of my face and she was so angry, reason of that was because girls were forcing her to do something and they made her feel awkward.

"What does it mean if it's a girl when you won't give birth even to a girl?" I asked and left the Harem leaving Sureyya standing there ashamed in front all of the girls.