"Your Majesty," I said as I bowed to Iskender when I met him at the Gardens. He invited me to come and spend some time with him outside and if I could I wish to spend every moment with him.

"I wanted to spend more time with you Bezmialem. You light up my every day and I can't imagine spending a day without seeing you," Iskender said as he placed a kiss on my forehead.

I could see other maids which were outside looked at me with so much of jealousy because I have been always with Iskender. Even since I arrived to Harem two months ago, since that Iskender hasn't asked for any other concubine which made them hate me and turn against me. None of them got their opportunity to even see him because he has always been asking only for me.

"I know that others don't like the fact that I am always with you and no one in Harem can't stand me because of that," I said showing a bit of sadness to Iskender as it wasn't easy for me to handle with all of them. Iskender gifted me with so many things and I couldn't even be in harem for few minutes because all of them would just start gossiping about me and attacking me because they think I have stolen their chances.

"I don't want them to sadden you, because when you are sad I also feel sadness. It is not your mistake that I feel in love with you at the first moment because you catched me not with your looks, but with your personality," Iskender said kissing my cheeks once again which made all of them stand there still and look at me while I am with him.

"I can't be sad while I am next to you for the whole time," I said and smiled to him as I didn't want my words to make him worried even a bit because in those two months I started loving this man so much.

"Have you ever been riding?" Iskender asked me as our hands meet together when we were walking to the place where he kept all of his horses.

"I have never, I never had ability to do something like this, but I would like to learn" I said as we came in front of beautiful white horse and I gently touched him.

"This is your horse then if you like it so much. I will make sure to learn you to ride when my love wants that," Iskender said as he hugged me from behind and I was overwhelmed when he decided to gift me this horse.

I didn't know why he was gifting me with so many things. Never in my life I had those things and now he gifts me with everything even though I have never asked him from any of these. I knew because of that none of the maids loved me and I knew his mother wouldn't allow him to have only me as a concubine as he didn't want the one to have so much power.

"Your Majesty! Grand Vizier called for urgent Divan meeting, you should go there because he says it's very serious," Bulbul Agha said and came to inform Iskender who quickly kissed me once again before he running went to Divan. I knew something bad has happened when he went so urgently there but I didn't want to mix much into those things even though Dilruba wanted me to.

"Bezmialem Hatun, right moment just to see you," I heard a voice talking from behind and I turned to see Dilruba Sultan. She stood there seriously and this was the worst moment to see her.

"Sultanim, I didn't know you were here," I said as I bowed to her and I was terrified to see her now because I knew she will want me to do something bad and I really didn't want to do it.

"I came, because I have very important duty. You got Iskender's trust and now you don't need to play around here anymore. You will get rid of him. You have one week exactly to do it, use poison or use dagger, do whatever you want. But when I return in a week it will be because my brother Mustafa must ascend the throne," Dilruba said and raised her head. She seemed so serious about this and I was really afraid of her. I gained so much emotions towards Iskender that I knew I'm not ready to do this. I couldn't kill a man I love and even a day without him makes me feel sad, not that I could be able to kill him.

"I don't want you to tell about this to anyone. If you don't kill him, I will tell everyone you are a spy and you will be banished. It's up to you, on both ways you will stay without Iskender," Dilruba said when she walked away and left me alone with my pain in heart.

I slowly returned to Harem and I couldn't handle her threats to me. She was right that both what happened from those two options would lead me away from Iskender, and I didn't want it. I didn't know what should I do. I couldn't kill him. I would rather to them tell that I am a spy because I have done nothing as a spy, I have never said to them anything Iskender has said to me or any secrets.

I came inside the Palace and I looked horrible to everyone else because I was devastated in my mind and couldn't get to myself what should I do. I would rather kill myself than kill Iskender who I loved so much.

"Bezmialem Hatun, are you fine?" Efsun Kalfa asked me and at that moment everything became dizzy to me.

"I am, I will just go to my chambers," I said to her as I continued to walk but I felt so dizzy and everything seemed like it's blurry to me, until I fainted.

"Bezmialem," I heard Iskender's voice when I opened my eyes. I was in my chambers and I looked at him so confused. Last thing I remember was what Dilruba said to me and those things made me stress so much.

"What happened to me?" I asked him as I saw many nurses are around me, but he had a smile on his face when he approached me.

"We will get a blessing," Iskender said as he placed his hand on my belly.