"Bezmialem Hatun, Sultan Iskender ordered us to move you away from here. Those aren't your chambers anymore," Meleki said as she came into my chambers with few other maids who started taking my things away. I just woke up and was lost why would he do this do me.

"Why? Where am I going?" I asked as I was worried if he is going to send me to dungeon because almost two weeks passed since he hasn't saw me, and maybe he didn't want me here anymore.

"I can't tell you anything, but you won't live here anymore, we are moving you to another place," Meleki said seriously and I didn't want to start to panic, but I was on the verge of. I woke up in the morning feeling morning sickness since I didn't feel fine and my pregnancy was going on. I was afraid where would Iskender send me to dungeon or somewhere far away from here do he doesn't have to look me.

I followed Meleki and the maids and we started walking to the other side of harem. I had to pass through the harem where all the girls gathered and started talking about me, but I didn't even look at them as they were the least ones important to me in this moment. However they were jealous on Iskender's love towards me, I was jealous now on them because they didn't feel like a prisoner in this palace and worried for the death each of their day.

Meleki opened the doors of the chambers which were far bigger than mines. I wasn't sure why she was bringing me here as I found it not necessary to have bigger chambers especially since he was angry on me and didn't want to look at me. Meleki walked and opened doors of the terrace.

"Why did I get those chambers?" I asked as I stepped on the terrace together with her. It was far smaller than Iskender's but it had a beuatiful view which obviously would make it more beautiful for me to stay here.

"Sultan wanted you to feel better since you are pregnant, and since you are locked in your chambers he thought terrace would do you good to have fresh air," Meleki said and at that moment I looked at my right side and little upper there was Iskender's terrace and I saw him there standing and looking at me.

"So he gave me those chambers he could see what I am doing while he is ignoring me," I said to Meleki as I didn't even want to look at Iskender since this hurt me a lot. Only thing I wanted was him close to me and I knew I couldn't return those times anytime again, but if he would behave like this to me why would he place me here where he would see me all the time.

"Because Sultan always asks for you and wants to know what are you doing. It is really hard for him too and you have no reason to be angry on him now," Meleki said as she was amazed by my chambers and I knew she dreamed she would be here while having his children, but it was me and I wasn't even in a condition where I would be happy about it because I needed him, his love and attention.

"Do you need anything else from me?" Meleki asked me after I didn't even respond to her since everything made me feel even worse. My life was now basically just crying on my fate and missing man I love most in this world who was behaving bipolar.

"No," I said before she left my chambers leaving me again all alone on myself.

"Validam, why don't we send another maid to Iskender while he is this sad? He must get over that sadness, and if he doesn't want to forgive Bezmialem, we have to find the one who will make him forget about her," Humasah Sultan, Iskender's sister said to her mother as she arrived in the palace. She was very worried for her brother and didn't want him to be depressive because this whole situation.

"I tried before this fight, but he didn't accept, I don't think he would do it now," Safiye said as she worried that if she sent another woman she would only make Iskender angry and she didn't want to lose her son because of that.

"Meleki is in love with him for so long time, why don't we send her? She is not Kosem's ally anymore, and she would do everything for Iskender," Humasah said. She was actually disappointed in Bezmialem and she didn't want to defend her, because she thought Bezmialem could have said that earlier and save herself from Iskender's anger.

"He looks at Meleki as a child, he appointed her to guard Bezmialem," Safiye said as she didn't want to admit to Humasah that she didn't want to send another maid for her son because she knew he wouldn't accept any other, and she liked Bezmialem enough for her son.

"Don't defend Bezmialem because she has guilty into this. She did this now, she kept silent, and who knows what could happen later? We should send someone at least to try," Humasah tried to reassure her mother who was really stubborn.

"You send whoever you want, but I am sure he won't accept her," Safiye said as she knew Humasah would do her way or no way. Humasah went quickly into searching a woman she would send to her brother on havlet.

"Bezmialem Hatun, Safiye Sultan asked if you need anything special in your chambers that you wish for? Are you satisfied here?" Miran Kalfa asked me as she entered my chambers. It was weird for me to see her since in the last time only person I would see was Meleki.

"Everything is fine, where is Meleki?" I asked her as I really felt lonely and I wanted to talk to someone, and only person who I actually trusted her was Meleki because I knew how innocent she was and that she would never do me any harm, and I didn't want to tell things that bothered me or hurt me to another people beside her.

"She has some job in harem," Miran Kalfa said as she seemed extremely anxious to tell me those things, and I knew something bad was to happen.

"What job?" I asked her.

"Humasah Sutan sent some maid to Sultan Iskender and Meleki is helping them to prepare the maid, I am sorry," Miran said as she really felt sorry for telling me those things, but I knew this day would come when Iskender would accept another girl into havlet since he obviously removed me from his heart.

I sat on my terrace while it was already cold, but I couldn't help myself not to look if Iskender would be at the terrace with another woman. I prayed that he would refuse the woman whoever she was because I couldn't hurt this pain of sharing him with someone else. Right now I lost him and I didn't know if I would ever be able to get him back, but I knew I have to take care of my child.

I was already sleepy and decided to get back to inside of the chamber when at the terrace I saw Iskender standing next to a blond woman. My heart started beating like crazy and I felt like I would lose air anytime. Woman turned and I saw Meleki and I couldn't believe how both Iskender and her could do this. I knew she loved him her whole life, but I couldn't believe Iskender who always refused her would do something like this. And he probably on purpose gave me those chambers to look at him with another women, and who knows how many times in those two weeks another has been in his bed.

Everything in front of me became dizzy and I couldn't stand the fact that he would sleep with another while I was here not being able to sleep peacefully and thinking always with him. I started to feel worse and worse, until I collapsed.

Throwback

"Hunkarim," Meleki said as she bowed to Iskender hoping there would be the havlet. She prepared herself so beautifully and she had been waiting for this day her whole life.

"Meleki, I'm glad you came. I needed someone to talk with about, because I can't stand this pain anymore," Iskender said not even realising Meleki was dressed for havlet as he didn't even look at her this way anytime. Meleki just sighed as she knew this would be a disappointment for her, but any moment she spent with him was precious to her.

"Bezmialem, isn't it?" She asked and he nodded with his head. They sat in his chambers and Meleki couldn't stop looking at man she loves crying over another woman.

"I gave her those chambers just that I could see her, but whenever she is there she doesn't even want to look at me," Iskender said trying to be strong, but he couldn't be strong anymore. He knew Meleki most of his life and he knew she is person he can tell all of his problems to.

"Bezmialem Hatun is also very sad, she is really hurt. I feel so sorry while looking at her, and I am afraid she would become depressed if it continues like this," Meleki said as she actually was sorry for Bezmialem no matter she was the one who taken Iskender away from her once forever.

"I forgave her, but I don't have strength to say it. Whenever I look at her sad, my heart breaks into million pieces and it makes me feel even worse," Iskender confessed his emotions.

"She is also probably there at her terrace hoping she would see you, she was there whole day today. I mean I am no one to interfere, but both of you are sad one over another and you shouldn't do this because it hurts both of you," Meleki said.

"You think I should end this punishment for both of us?" Iskender asked.

"Yes, it will be more easy for both of you," Meleki said and Iskender sighed and walked to his terrace to see if Bezmialem is on her terrace. He only wanted to see her as much as possible. Meleki followed him when they came to the terrace.

"She looks at you now, as she does always, but she doesn't want you to know that, she wants to act cold, same way you do," Meleki said and Iskender couldn't stop looking at Bezmialem. Soon he saw her walking away, but at one moment just collapsing.

"Bezmialem! Call the doctors!" Iskender yelled as he was so afraid what has happened to her and ran as fast as he could to her chambers.