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I was on the phone with my mother finally explaining everything to her.

"So all of this is because of the stress that you've been under?" She asked me.

"Yeah, and I really don't know what I want to do anymore. I love Keenan but I don't wanna put the blame on him, it was multiple things that I was going through."

My friends keep telling me that this was really all of Keenan's fault but I disagree and I'm not blinded by love either.

Keenan's actions did play a big part of me becoming stressed out , but it was also school some days and then thanksgiving happened.

I feel like that's when my heart couldn't take it the most, the love my life literally pulled my heart out of my chest.

"I don't believe it was all Keenan either and your friends are wrong for trying to put all of the blame on him... did anyone care to call out what Korey did?" She asked.

"I think everyone's try to avoid bringing  that up too be honest, and it's like when I saw him ma .. all those emotions from that day came back, he tried talking to me but I wouldn't listen to him. I didn't wanna be near him, I didn't wanna hear anything he had to say."

"I think you should talk to Korey"

"For what?"

"Just listen to him, Tiara you have a problem with holding onto things which I believe is why your heart can't take it anymore. When Alexis came all you did was talk about the things she did in high school and yes I know high school wasn't that long ago but what about just letting that shït go. You're with Keenan now and all the things he did fall semester still bother you. This is why you're so hurt. Talk things out with Korey, I'm not saying you have to become buddy buddy with him but I think you should try to forgive him.. let those things go and move on"

My mother isn't even here at college with me and she can still read me like a book. I will admit that I do have a holding on problem, it's not that easy for me to just let things go because it's like why did it even happen? What did I do to deserve it?

"You may be right" I sighed "no.. I am right" she spoke.

"Have you been taking the medicine?" She asked me "only when I feel myself about to panic."

"Good, I really don't want you getting addicted to those, does Keenan still take his medicine from the accident?" She asked me.

"I um.. I actually don't know, I mean I don't see why he would, he's fine" I mean I believe he is fine.

"You need to also go speak with him and it doesn't need to turn into an argument, that's not what communicating is" she said.

I swear my mother is always right. "Get things with Korey straight first and then go talk to Keenan .. remember what I said, I love you baby you got this"

"I love you to ma" I said and then we hung up.

Lani wasn't in the room so I can talk to Korey without anyone being here.

I took a few deep breaths preparing myself for this conversation.

I clicked on his name and the phone started dialing. He picked up right away.

"Hey Ti?" He answered "did you mean to call me?" He asked.

"Yeah I did" my voice was shaky "what's up is everything good?" He asked. "Yeah, I just wanted to talk to you really quickly ... are you alone?" I asked him.

I heard him move around a bit in the background "I am now, what's going on?"

"Well I had a conversation with my mom and she was just telling me that in order for me to be okay again, I have to move on from certain situations and just let it go, so I'm calling you to allow you to finally speak your peace , I'll speak mine and that'll be it between us" I explained to him.

My anxiety was going crazy right now.

I heard him sniffle "Tiara, I swear I didn't mean to hurt you like this or keep it away from you for so long. I didn't know how to tell you, I just knew that you were going to hate me and that's the last thing I wanted. You were my first everything. The first person I fell in love with, my first real kiss, and the first person I ever made love too.. me getting Bre pregnant was an honest drunken mistake, and me lying to you for all that time made things even worse. I'm so sorry I do understand if you never want to hear from me again or see me again but I just wanted you to know that I didn't do this on purpose" Korey explained.

Him talking brought tears to my eyes, and I could tell that he was crying also because of how shaky his voice was.

I have to be strong. I have to be strong.

"I appreciate your apology Korey , everything happens for a reason and maybe all of this was meant to happen even if you getting her pregnant was a mistake, but I've decided that I'm not gonna let it hurt me any longer and to just let you go all together" I froze mid sentence and busted out crying.

I never thought I would ever be having this conversation with Korey "it hurts like hell because even if we didn't end up together we was still suppose to be in each other's lives Korey. I love you and you was my person, but you hurt me so bad that I have no choice but to let you go" having this conversation hurts like hell but I know it had to happen.

"I love you Ti, I always will and I understand why you have to let me go, I didn't mean to hurt you like this and your heart. When I heard that shit broke me , you could've died because of me .. I-.. I'm sorry."

Korey and I were crying to each other right now both hurt and both upset.

"I'm letting you go now Korey..." I said.

I heard him go silent and take a couple breaths. "Okay" he cleared his throat after getting himself together.

"I wish you nothing but the best and I pray that Bre has a safe and healthy birth, and that your baby is healthy" I told him lastly.

"I appreciate that."

"Goodbye Korey.."

"Goodbye Tiara.."

We both hung up the phone, I let a few more painful tears out.

Few minutes later I got myself together to head to Keenan's room.

*Korey's POV*

"I'm letting you go now Korey..." she said.

Her saying those words broke my heart, I literally felt it shatter. I don't want to lose her.

I cleared my throat "okay." That was the last thing I wanted to say.

She still wished us the best, her heart is so pure and yet I almost killed her.

"Goodbye Korey.." more and more tears came.

"Goodbye Tiara..." I said back and then we both hung up.

I stayed in my room for a few more minutes and just let the tears fall.

Tiara was the love of my life and I just let her slip away because of a drunken mistake. I feel so stupid.

I never wanted to hurt her.

There was a knock at my door "Korey?" It was Bre.

I wiped my face "yeah?" I said back "can I come in?" She asked.

I got up and opened the door for her. "I heard the whole thing" she said.

"Im sorry" she said, "you have nothing to be sorry for, it takes two this wasn't all you, it was mainly me" I said.

"I know that I'll never be like her and I know I'm probably not the one you wanted this to happen with, so if you really don't want to be with me .. I understand" Bre spoke.

"No, it's not like that. Of course I want to be with you, I fell for you Bre, I was just being selfish .. I did what I wanted to do not taking into consideration what it may do to others, Tiara will forever have a special place in my heart because she was the love my life, but now it's just time for a new chapter. We let each other go. Yes .. it hurts like hell, but it was meant to happen" I explained to her.

"I'm with you now, and I'm here to stay for you and our baby. Like I told you we're going to make this work, you don't have to question whether or not if I want to stay because I'm not going anywhere. I promise" I kissed her hands.

"Well I'm happy we're on the same page" she smiled.

That really was the end for Tiara and Korey. Now it's time for Korey and Bre. "Yes we are" I smiled back.

*Tiara's POV*

I made my way to Keenan's room, I knocked on the door and he answered it right away.

"Can we continue our conversation please?" I asked him. "Yeah" he said and moved to the side so I could come in.

"Ti, I'm sorry for exploding like that I should've just listened to you and not went off. I understand why you didn't tell me earlier , and I'm just sorry" Keenan said to me.

"Thank you for apologizing, I really hate when we fight. It takes so much out of me, all I wanna do is kiss and cuddle with you" I said to him.

He smiled and nodded his head "me too" he brought me into a hug and just held onto me tight.

I missed the feeling of being in his arms.

"But there was something else I wanted to talk to you about" I said and sat us down on his bed.

"What's up?"

"So , when I was in the hospital the doctor told me that I was having heart problems without even noticing it and he told me it was due to me being under so much stress all at once, you know last semester it was pretty hectic and it took a huge toll on my heart to the point where it almost gave out .. which is why he prescribed me with Xanax to keep me calm" I summarized it up for him.

He just sat there quiet taking in everything I just told him.

"Keenan?" I called out to him , "it's my fault you almost died?" He asked me.

This is what I wanted to avoid. "No it's not your fault" I told him right away.

"It is Tiara, don't try to tell me it's not. What I did to you last semester was not okay, I broke you"

I could tell that he was beginning to get lost for words.

"Keenan I promise it wasn't you. It was multiple things , us going through what we went through did play a role yes but I didn't even know all of that was happening to me. I just want you to know that it is not all your fault which is why it took me so long to tell you because I didn't want you thinking it was baby"

I really don't want Keenan believing all of this is his fault, when its really not I don't care what my friends said.

Yes him doing what he did was mad wrong but it wasn't all him.

"It was though Tiara, if I never would have left you like I did .. we could've avoided all of this happening to you, I was being stupid and selfish I wasn't thinking about how much that would affect you. I mean I wanted to hurt you like you did me, which I know was petty and childish"

"Hurt me ? Like I hurt you? Keenan when did I ever hurt you like that?" I asked him , now I was confused.

"When you chose Korey and then chose Anthony"

"Okay but when I chose them you were still apart of my life. I didn't drop you like you were nothing? I understand I hurt you but you didn't have to do me like that, when I was with Korey I still made sure I balanced the both of you out. You were my best friend I wasn't just going to forget all about you and act like you meant nothing" I explained to him.

"I know , it was a dumb mistake and I'm sorry Ti, I just feel like all of this is my fault"

I honestly feel like what happened last semester shouldn't even be relevant anymore.

"I'm over it, everything that happened last semester I don't want talk about it anymore , I don't want to think about it anymore. It happened. We're moving on, I have my medicine I'm going to be okay , we're going to be okay, I love you"

I wrapped my arms around his torso and just looked up at him "I had a conversation with my mother earlier about letting things go, and that's what we're going to start working on. Just letting shit go, I'm so tired of always being so sad and upset. I miss the happy us"

Keenan wrapped his arms around me "I feel the same way, let's just finish this semester off strong and be happy" he bent down and kissed me.

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Finally Tiara and Keenan are putting things in the past. I didn't want to break them up because they literally just got together and young couples need to learn how to work things out and not be so quick to end everything.

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Also! Do you guys want me to start doing chapters from other peoples Point of views like Kendall's , Keenan's, Lani's , Korey , Cassie & Anthony's ? And want to keep up with their lives & love lives also? Or just focus on Tiara only ?

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