I wish I knew how to describe how I feel at this very moment. I'm so mixed emotional to the point where I feel numb. I don't know whether to be angry , sad or just hurt.

This new chapter of my life wasn't suppose to start off like this. I thought I was going to be having the time of my life, but every since school has started things have just been going downhill.

First the whole Keenan and Alexis thing, Keenan ignoring me and acting like our friendship didn't matter to him. The whole accident, Alexis's death. Keenan going into this depression. Now Korey.

Korey was the last person I expected this from. Both him and Keenan have just been hurting me nonstop and it's crazy because the two of them always claim how much they love and care about me. They talk about how they'll never hurt me and yet, they're the ones who've been hurting me the most.

And it's not like I can just get rid of them, that's a lot easier said than done. I love the both of them with every thing in me but I cannot take this anymore.

I still wanna go to school at Howard. That's my dream school that's where I want to be. But at the same time I don't know how I'll be able to avoid Keenan or stay away from him since we're in the same friend group.

I don't know my mind is just wondering right now.

As I was driving through the city of Detroit I was just taking in the buildings and the lights that lit up the city.

Normally when situations happen like this and I wanna runaway, I go to Keenan, but I don't want to be around him right now. All the girls are back home in their home towns and Skylar is in D.C. I literally have no one to go to.

My phone kept vibrating, I parked my car in the McDonald's parking lot and grabbed my phone to look through it.

I had messages from Keenan, Korey, my mom, dad, miss Nikita and Tay'Vian.

The only person I clicked on was Tay'Vian.

littlesister💜: where are you? I'm coming to meet you!
I was gonna reply but she texted me again.
littlesister💜: oh never mind I have your location. Stay there! I'm on my way!

I replied to her message and just sat here in the parking lot waiting for Tay'Vian to arrive.

I also read everyone else's messages not caring that my read receipts were on. I clicked on my moms first.

Madre💞: I know how you get when things like this happen. Please be safe and keep me updated with wherever you go. I love you Tiara my sweet baby and I'm so sorry these things keep happening to you. But just always remember that God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. You will get through this my love. Oh and btw your dad almost beat the shït out of Korey. But of course his parents stopped him. His father was actually gonna let it happen but his moms wasn't with it.

I replied back to my mothers message telling her that I love and appreciate her. Then mentioned where I was and told her that Tay'Vian is on her way to come and meet me.

Next I read Miss Nikita's message.

MommaKita❤️ : my darling, I'm so sorry these boys keep putting you through this. You're a strong girl so I know for a fact that you will get through this pain that they keep causing. I'm so disappointed in the both of them. I've always loved you like you were my own Tiara and I will continue to do so. Be safe and let us know when you get home.

I teared up at her message because she is like a second mom to me and I'm just so happy that I have two strong women in my life because without their encouraging words and how they both carry themselves. I would be so lost in life.

I then read my dads message

Padre💞: yeahhhh I almost beat the shït out of him but his mom stopped me. I was so ready too princess. I'm sorry about everything baby girl. You don't deserve to keep going through this. Just know that you have us here at home that love and care about you deeply and will never switch up on you like that. Stay safe and get home soon, don't want you out too late out here in these skreets.. yeah I'm hip to the lingo. Tay'Vians on her way to you.

My dads message made me giggle because I read it in his voice. Him and I joke around so much I never knew how much I missed him until now.

Keenan's message was next.

Bestie🖤: Ti, I know for the last couple of months I've been doing nothing but fücking up, but please believe me when I tell you that as soon as I found out I wanted to tell you!! But it simply just wasn't my place. I didn't keep it from you to hurt you. I love you so much .. more than you will ever know and the last thing I would ever do is hurt you intentionally. You gotta believe me Ti. I'm sorry.

Keenan has been hurting me for months now so I don't even know if I can really believe this message like I want to.

At last, we have Korey's message.

My Love💙: Ti... I wish I knew what to say but I'm honestly speechless myself. I never and I mean never wanted to hurt you. None of this was planned. Everything just kinda happened. I'm gonna be honest, I did want to abort the baby but Bre is against those and I didn't wanna go against her wishes but we will be having this baby together. I just want you to know that I love you so much Ti, and I don't want to lose someone like you. It was suppose to be us having a family together but I guess God had other plans. Maybe things with you and Keenan can finally kick off since I won't be in the picture anymore. I understand if you never want to talk to me again. But no matter how much you may hate me. Just know you'll always hold a special place in my heart and I will always love you with every bone in my body. Goodbye Ti.

Korey's message was my breaking point. I sat my phone down and a few seconds later the tears came falling. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't scream, I couldn't kick and fight.

My breathing started to get very heavy. All of a sudden I was gasping for air.

I heard my car door open and I looked and saw that it was Tay'Vian.

My vision blurred as I looked at her. She brought me into a tight hug and I just cried. I held onto her and cried my eyes out.

"How could he do this to me?" I felt like my lungs were just collapsing, I seriously couldn't breathe.

"Breathe Ti ... please" Tay'Vian said. "I think you're having a panic attack right now. Please breathe" I could hear Tay'Vian voice cracking.

"I hate seeing you like this Ti, I'm so use to seeing you as this vibrant person who always has a smile on her face. I've never seen you this broken before." She said.

I finally lifted up from her arms. She handed me tissues and I wiped my eyes with it. I took a few deep breaths. Inhaling and then exhaling.

"I hate being like this. I swear it just sucks when you get hurt by the people you never expected to hurt you. Like Tay... Korey got another girl pregnant. Me and him have had multiple phone conversations where he made it seem like everything was perfectly fine. He waited two months to tell me. And then on thanksgiving in front of everyone ! How fücked up is that! And then Keenan. Keenan has been putting me through so much. Earlier in the school year when Alexis came back he pushed me away like I was nothing. He acted as if I didn't exist and that hurt like hell. I was so messed up." I cried to her.

"I just can't take this anymore" I added.

"So what are you going to do?" She asked me "I wish I knew". I really did.

"Well you know mom isn't gonna let you drop out" she brought up "I was never going too. If anything school will be an amazing distraction. Sticking to myself and my studies is all I can do" I explained to her.

She grabbed my hand "I've missed you and I'm really sorry you have to go through this. I had no idea all those things happened to you. I was so hurt when you were barely talking to me Tiara I thought I lost my sister" now Tay'Vian started to tear up.

I wiped her tears "you're never going to lose me. You're literally stuck with me" I chuckled and she joined me. "It's hard to get use to not seeing your best friend everyday and being able to come into your room and tell you all the tea" she said "I miss those days also, I miss them and you so much and I promise I'll work on talking to you more, I do sometimes forget that I have my sister back home, I forget that I'm not alone" I told her.

"I love you" she said. "I love you too" I said back to her. "Let's head back home now" I added. "Wait! I got something for us!" She said. She reached into her jacket pocket and pulled out a blunt.

"My mother fücking sister!!!" Tay'Vian attaches the blunt to her lips and lit it with the lighter.

"I knew you were gonna need it" she said and passed it over to me. I inhaled the weed into my system and continued to pull and pull some more.

"I'm pretty sure Keenan is gonna be home waiting for you" she brought up.

"I know he is" I said back to her. "What are you gonna do about him?" She asked me.

"I wish I knew"

I really wish I knew.

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Just wanted to give Tiara and Tay'Vian some sister time. Tiara definitely deserves better and soon she will get better *wink wink* ! But thank you guys soooo much for reading.

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