*Liv’s POV*

“I’m gona let you get some rest ; I’ll come back in the morning. Think you might be able to come home.” Evie smiled, stroking my hair.

“Okay Evie.” I reply

“We’ll come see you in the morning...okay .”

“Thanks Luke.” I smile turning towards them

I watched them leave before crying to myself...I’d lost my baby. What kind of person doesn’t realise that they’ve missed their period?

How could I be so stupid as not to follow my calendar? Then again me and Dan never use protection when we were 'together', knowing I'm not on the pill or contraception either. I was just asking to get pregnant. 

I still couldn't believe this was happening, I know I said wanted to be pregnant so that Dan would show me attention not Amy and that I could give him a child not her. I got my wish, but without knowing it Amy took that from me too. My boyfriend and my baby. 

I heard the door open and I pretended to be asleep, I wasn't in the mood to talk with the nurse about what would happen next or my feelings. They were my feelings, private feelings and I didn't fancy sharing them with a stranger. 

But as soon as the door opened, I could sense it wasn't the nurse...it was Dan. I didn't want to speak to him either. He was pottering around for a minute or two, then I smelt fresh lilies. He brought me flowers, he always knew I liked them...least I hope he did? I wanted to question everything now, did he actually know me at all? I was still so mad at him for all of this, why didn't he just believe me when I told him that she was lying...that she wasn't pregnant...I was! I was pregnant! I think that that’s what is making it ten times harder for me to even consider forgiving him. Because of last night, because of what happened, we lost our baby. 

Dan began humming along to the radio that was quietly playing in my room to stop me going crazy in the silence of my thoughts. I loved this song, definitely my favourite song from Boyzone. But the lyrics made me think of me and Dan. He sat down on the bed and began singing them to me...fuck me...He was singing. In all the twenty years I'd known him, I'd never heard him sing...not even in the shower…karaoke was different though. No one ever sang properly on karaoke. 

His voice was beautiful, angelic even. He softy sang to me the wonderful words of this song and I had to hold in my tears so bad. I didn't want him to know I was awake. 

As the song finished, I heard him sniff. I guess he'd gotten emotional as well. I felt him gently move some of my hair behind my ear as he whispered. “I’m so sorry baby girl.”

His thumb stroking my cheek continuously as he spoke.

“Why didn’t I just trust my instinct...that you were telling me the truth. I think I always knew it deep down that she was lying…but the thought of becoming a dad excited me the more I thought about it. I know I said I wasn’t ready, especially when we had our scare but I guess I am. So hopefully, you can find it in your gorgeous heart to forgive me and one day we can be excited about our own baby news....I honestly don’t know what I’ll do without you by my side. You are my best friend Tink...you know everything about me. But not only that you are my soul mate and I gave you that ring as a promise to never hurt you but I guess I’ve broken that. Tink believe me...I never meant to hurt you. When I saw you fall down those stairs and the blood on my hand from the cut on your head. I thought I’d lost you, that you’d been taken away from me. That nearly killed me , the thought of not seeing you every day. I just hope when you come home...we can talk and try and work things out. I’ll love you forever , never forget that.”

I felt his soft lips, press against the side of my head, placing a delicate kiss. It had been a while since I'd felt him kiss me and the last time I'd probably feel his lips against my skin again, or ever. The door closed and I opened my eyes and tears streamed down my face that I had locked up whilst he was here. 

I took in a deep breath before sitting up; I saw a huge bouquet of flowers in the vase by my bed. There was a mixture of different flowers in there but I could see and smell the lilies a mile off.  They were beautiful. I saw the tub of green grapes next to them and smiled, how very cliché of him to buy me grapes. I opened them up and began munching away on them, along with some orange Lucozade Luke had picked up from the shop. Then I noticed a card on the side that hadn't been opened.

I nervously picked it up and opened it. Hope your better soon was written on the front...I opened the card and began to cry again.

'Tink, first of all I hope you're okay. The time you were unconscious has been the scariest couple of hours of my life. I know everything is okay now on the outside but I need to know your okay on the inside. 

Okay here goes... I'm ever so sorry for these past couple of weeks. For not trusting you completely even though I said I did. A small part of me wanted Amy to be telling the truth because if I'm being honest...I was excited about becoming a father. But none of it would have mattered without you. Without you in my life, I'm nothing. I know I haven't 'lost' the baby because she wasn't pregnant with it in the first place but I was gutted when she admitted it to me. 

I know I'm blabbering on but I've got a lot to say and I don't think I have the courage to say it to you.  I truly hope that we can sort us out and be together, I don't know if we are or aren't together right now but I'm praying that we are. That when you said we were over was in the heat of the moment like last time. Because I just don't work without you Tink, that I have come to 

realise. My heart only beats for you. I know you are my soul mate and one day in the future but hopefully soon we will unite. When I gave you that promise ring I meant every single word, and I still do. I know we've had our troubles...what couple doesn't but my promise will last for eternity.

I know what we have is special and unique; it feels like we're in our own Disney fairytale. I know you will be with me forever...we WILL have the big white wedding and we WILL have our own family. Just you and me. I love you too much for words, I can't physically write down how much I love you, but I hope you know how much...see how much I love you. 

I can't wait to see that sparkle come back in your gorgeous green eyes, to see the smile that radiates off your face, it makes my day a hell of a lot better by just seeing it for one second. Come back to me please. I love you. I don't think I can put it in much simpler terms. Love you forever and a day, your Romeo, Dan xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx   

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*Dan’s POV*

As I entered into the house, Evie was walking down the stairs.

Where have you been? You left ages before us.” she inquired coming towards me

“I went to get some fresh air and had a chat with a gentleman called Ron, gave me some advice.” I reply slumping down on the sofa.

“Dan you want a brew?” Luke called from the kitchen

“Na thanks mate.”

“Hot chocci then?” he laughed

“Ahhh thanks” I reply smiling, just want i fancied

“So who’s this Ron character then?’” Evie asked plonking herself down on the sofa next to me, cuddling a cushion just like Liv did.

“I duno, but when I left the hospital I went and sat on the bench round the corner and he came over and we had a chat. I told him my situation and he helped me out, he was so nice.”

“Aww bless him.” She smiled at me, the same smile Liv had. God, I was comparing them both now, looking for details in Evie that would remind me of her.

“I went to see her after I spoke to him.” I mumble

“Really?”

“Yea, I was about to come home but I saw you and Luke leave so I thought it would be my opportunity to speak to her alone. I picked up some flowers and that before going to see her.”

“What did she say? She was very emotional when we left her.”

“She was asleep.” I sighed “So I just spoke to her.”

“Dan she was wide awake when we left...you sure she was asleep?”

“Yea, she didn’t move a muscle when I was in there. If she was awake I’m sure she would have asked me to leave if she didnt want me there.”

“I guess so.” Evie replied before picking her mug of tea up off the coffee table 

“Ahh cheers Luke.” I smile as he passes me my drink

“She’s coming home tomorrow.” Evie informed me as I placed my drink on the table

“Oh good.” I smile

“You’s need to have a talk.” Evie says to me, looking rather serious

“I know, I need to get her to forgive me.”

“No Dan...this is serious. You need to get her to open up to you.”

“What are you going on about?”

“Just speak to her Dan, she needs you now more than ever.”

“ you’re not making sense.” I say completely confused.

“Just do it will you.” She snapped getting up off the sofa and walking quickly up the stairs.

I turn to Luke who looked just as confused as me, “You got any idea what she’s going on about?” I ask him

“Na, not a clue. But Evie has been quiet ever since she came out Liv’s room this afternoon. Something must have happened.”

I finished off my drink before going up to my room, quickly showering before sorting out the mess that was my room. There was still some glass by my doorway from the glass Liv had smashed the other night. I still can’t believe everything that has happened these past few days, it seems like a dream, no...a nightmare and I just wanted to wake up.

*Liv’s POV*

“You packed everything ?” Evie asks as I place Dan’s card he gave me into my hand bag.

"Yea" I replied looking around the room. "Can I just come home now?"

"Yes, I'm looking after you when we get back as well."

"You don't need to, I'm fine." I reply and she turns her head at me with a face that basically tells me to fuck off and leave her be.

I sigh deeply and follow her out of my room before checking myself out. I followed Evie over to where her car was parked and got inside, buckling up. 

I pulled out Dan's card from my handbag and re-read his words. I must have read them about a hundred times the past twelve hours or so. I knew he was sorry, I could tell that he was sorry but there was still something inside me that just couldn’t forgive him just yet.

"What you reading?" Evie asks me as we pull up at some red lights.

"Just a card, nothing special." I reply

"I know it’s from Dan, so don't lie to me." 

I look at her with tears glistening in my eyes. "I just can't seem to be able to forgive him."

"Liv it’s only been two days. Just give yourself time. Plus you need to tell him about your baby, you can comfort each other."

"Evie...I can't tell him."

"Why not? Liv as much as you don't like him right now, he was still that baby's father, and he's your best friend. He has the right to know that you no longer have a baby."

“Evie I can’t. I can’t do that to him.” I whisper feeling the tears slip down my cheeks

“ I don’t understand, can’t do what to him?” she replies taking hold of my hand.

“He’s gutted about losing Amy’s ‘baby’, he told me so himself.”

“When? You’ve not spoken to him...” she began “So you were awake when he came to see you yesterday.”

“Yea I was...he told me how excited he was about becoming a dad...Evie how can I tell him he’s lost another baby. Our baby.” I cry as she pulls up onto our drive.

I felt her arms pull me towards her into a hug “You need to tell him. As much as it’s going to hurt. Him finding out later on is going to hurt him much more.”

“I can’t do it.” I reply getting out the car and putting Dan’s card back into my bag.

“Liv...”

“Evie don’t, just don’t.” I reply grabbing my bag from boot and walking into the house.

Evie shut the front door behind me and I made my way up to my room. I dumped my bag on the floor and began unpacking, putting all my dirty clothes into the laundry basket and placing my personal stuff away.

“Liv you want a drink ?” I heard Evie shout up

“Please, I’m coming down now.” I reply

“You need to rest, get into bed.”

“I’m fine.” I reply walking onto the landing.

I glance up to Dan and Luke’s floor, to where all the drama began. It was like a movie reel before my eyes, playing out everything to me again which still resulted in my falling down the stairs. If only that hadn’t happened...then I’d still have my baby.

I blinked back my tears, only to be met by Dan staring down at me. His chocolate brown eyes, melting me instantly. He didnt say anything, I could see all the pain and regret in his eyes but just being here, reliving everything just made me angry. 

Why didn’t he just trust me.

“...” Dan began walking towards me,

“No Dan, don’t.” I reply turning on my heels and walking into my room, and collapsing onto my bed in tears. This was too hard.

I could sense him standing in my doorway, he didn’t move. Then I heard him sigh deeply before walking down the stairs.

I woke up the next morning feeling completely exhausted. Mascara tear stains down my cheeks and my eyes still puffy. I scraped my hair back into a ponytail before wincing in pain.

“Owch, fuck.” I shout dropping my hair, placing my hand at the back of my head

“It’s because your head had to be glued back together.” I heard him speak

I turned towards the door and he was stood there in his grey joggers...just his grey joggers. My heart beating so fast looking at him, feeling light headed at the reaction my body had to him.

“Oh right thanks.” I mumble looking back at the mirror

“I brought you up a cup of tea.” He replied placing it in front of me on my vanity unit

“Cheers.” I reply bluntly before gently placing my hair up in a high scruffy bun.

“So are we going to talk?” I heard him mumble

I turned around on my wheelie chair to look at him, his eyes sunken and sad. He looked as tired as i did.

“I have nothing to say.” I reply walking over to my wardrobe picking out my outfit

“I’m not having us end like this Tink.”

“Don’t call me Tink.” I snap pulling out a pair of skinny jeans and white and blue stripy vest top.

“Why not? I’ve called you that since we were six.”

“Yea well, since as we’re no longer together...or friends of that matter. I don’t see why you should.”

“Liv...please.” he whispered, I could hear the begging in his tone. I knew if I looked into his eyes I’d burst into tears and crumble at his feet. But I just couldnt forgive him, because of him I didn’t have my baby.

“Can you go please Dan, I want to get changed.” I reply bluntly without turning around.

I felt him come right up behind me, his body not touching mine but almost. “I’ll always love you Tink. That is never going to change. I still mean the promise I gave you.” He whispered clutching onto my right hand momentarily before walking out my room, causing me to collapse onto the floor in tears once again.