KAYDON

"Fuck, my foot!" Blake instantly grabs his foot and that loses his balances and he goes from standing perfectly fine to now covered in sand in a fetal position.

Ty is trying to catch his breath and I sit on the side taking huge amounts of water. We look at the girls across from us and they're just standing and talking with little to no sweat from our first match.

No surprise who won. We got beat, 3-25.

"Don't you guys play football?" Cameron laughs and they came over from under the net, staring at us all. She went over to Blake to check out his foot.

Ty narrows his eyes at them. "We do. It's not fun having actual volleyball players smack the ball nearly at your face every second they get." he huffs and Parker helps him up.

"All it takes is practice," she winks and they both went to grab towels and snacks for our break.

Sierra sits down next to me with a smile and steals the water from me and drinking it herself. "Seems like you guys won't be up for another round?" she asks.

I snort, "We got beat so bad, it's bruising my ego."

"Your ego does need a bit of a bruising." she admits and I just stare at her with an unamused look. She smacks my arm and rolls her eyes.

"I'm joking."

"I know," I say with a playful grin. I witness Cameron trying to pull Blake up but failing miserably. He just keeps on putting his weight down and she tumbles down on top of him.

Sierra sighs and stands up. "I should help her." I laugh and she runs over grabbing on to Cameron, lifting her up. I feel someone sitting next to me and I see the familiar big feet.

"You're staring." he says and hands me a Hershey Kiss. I take it and pop it in my mouth.

I look away and I see Parker and Ty look at me with knowing looks. I shake my head vigorously. "I'm also looking at Blake and Cam." I reply and they raise an eyebrow.

"Sure, okay." Parker says, sitting criss cross on the ground. "You are so thinking about your feelings right now with her."

Ty starts laughing and drank some gatorade. I smack him and he glares at me while it drips down his chin and on to his shorts.

"I'm not!" I argue and Parker pats me on the arm and gives me an exaggerated sigh.

"I know, buddy. Don't deny it. We all see it." she whispers. I instantly shoot my gaze to her and she shrugs.

"What? We can see how much you care about her." she nudges Ty. "Tell him!"

He nods along looking back at me. Fuck. I look over at Cameron and Sierra and they're both laughing at Blake who can't seem to get the sand out of his hair. That smile does something to me I can't explain but it sure does give me a smile too.

"He's smiling," Ty whispers not so quietly at all to Parker. I take a stick and whacked him with it. My phone started to ring so I put down the stick and checked who was calling me.

Harry. Fucking hell, it's not even school.

"Gotta take this," I mumble, and started walking away. I see Ty giving me a knowing glance but Parker shrugs and started opening her empanadas.

I hesitate on picking up but I tap on the green button away, holding the phone up to my ear.

"What do you want Harry?" I say and he gives me a chuckle.

"Not even a hello, wow." he answers and I roll my eyes. I'm starting to wonder what this conversation will be about, oh totally not about football. Totally not.

Fuck me.

"Just fucking talk, Harry." I say quietly.

"Look, son I know you're upset but I just wanted to ask you how your time has been so far. Anything new happening with sports?" I can hear the uncertainty in his voice about the topic.

"Nothing too much. The girls have their championships soon. Practice is hard on them." I look over at the group and they're all snacking on Parker's snacks she brought. Sierra waves and the rest turns around and waves as well. I give them a smile but focused back on Harry and my conversation.

"You know what you're getting into right?" he suddenly asks and he doesn't sound like a business guy anymore. He sounds like Blake's father.

Blake never really called his dad dad.

"What?" I furrow my eyebrows and I hear him let out a sigh.

"You guys are getting attached. I told you, only a couple more weeks and then you're back here."

I suppress the groan that was about to come out from frustration and I fidget with a random pebble I picked up from the sand. "What if the guys and I want to stay?" I say and it became silent.

"Harry?"

He clears his throat and thoughts race through my head from the odd silence he gives me. Is he letting us stay? Is he rethinking his choice?

"Blake and Ty aren't leaving," he finally says and everything stops. My breathing literally stops.

The phone almost drops to the ground and I try to say words but he keeps on going.

"I just need you back here, Kaydon. You have a bigger image, a bigger picture than those two. You can set up Elwood nicely. Plus, their are scouts waiting for you!" he reasons and I stay silent.

Just me. My best friends get to stay? No, I'm not jealous. I'm glad. I'm glad that they can have what they've been longing of. I'm glad that they can stay and be with the girls again, with their family.

"Kaydon, I'm telling you. You have a short time, make it worth while. You don't have much left." then he hangs up. I just shove my phone in my pocket and just rested my elbows on my knees and looked down.

Short time, not much left? Is he fucking serious? I love football, I love it more than most things but I can't just give up my family here. Ty, Blake, the girls.

Sierra.

I finally, finally got the chance to just explain to her and just have her again in my reach but now it's like I'm being ripped away from her grasp. Yet, she doesn't even know. I throw the small pebble in my hand to the ocean and I see the sun setting in the distance.

I don't even know how much I have left here and I need to tell her. There's just this feeling in me where I can't. I need her to focus on volleyball and her life, she can't be worrying about losing me.

I can't have her feel that same pain again.

"Kaydon, you good man?" I feel Ty's hand on my shoulder and I see Blake's feet. I look up and they both have worried expressions on their faces.

"The girls walked back to their car to wait for us. We gotta leave." Ty says and Blake just looks at me with concern in his eyes. I don't even realize it but I see Blake looking down at my cheeks and I realize that a tear was dripping down.

I don't cry.

I don't say anything but they both just hug me. We usually rarely give hugs to each other nowadays but they seemed to feel that I needed it.

They pulled away and sat beside me. "How was the phone call?" Ty asks and I shake my head, wiping the excess tears on my face.

"I don't have much time left. Harry could he coming here any day now." I say bitterly. They both give me odd looks but I continue.

"I could be packing and on the road back to Elwood any day now. I could be getting yelled at by Sierra again for leaving and not telling her any day now." my voice is becoming hoarse and Blake puts a hand on my shoulder.

"I could be losing everything any day now." I whisper and I just look down at the grains of sand. Every rock and seashell I pay attention to. One was sharp, one was smooth. Just like how my day was going smoothly until everything stopped sharply and decided to stab me in the heart.

"What do you mean by I?" Ty asks and I chuckle with no humor.

"I'm going to be leaving." I say and they both stand up right away.

"What?"

"Are you joking?"

I shake my head and they both stand speechless. I'm sure their happy and I should be happy for them, which I am. I just can't get the thought if losing everything again when I just got it all back.

"We can't stay here without you!" Blake shouts, Ty shushes him and looks at me.

"You call Harry right now and tell him that we're leaving too." he demands but I shake my head again.

"No, you guys are going to stay. I'll just go." I say and Blake lets out a breath of frustration.

"Then what are you going to do now?" he asks. I shrug.

I don't know what I'm gonna do now. Wait? Just lay around and wait till my uber comes and picks me up to drive me all the way back to torture?

"All I gotta do now is wait." and that's what I chose to do. All I gotta do now is wait.

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a/n

VERY UNEDITED IM SO SORRY.

major important moment! these boys don't show emotion a lot in this book and well, now they do!

my heart aches for them :(

I HOPE YOU ALL ENJOY YOUR LOVELY DAY/EVENING!!