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As i leaned on the white stone wall, my hands in my pocket, my gaze fixed on her i thought of all the things i could do to her.

Bella wore a short brown leather skirt leaving her long tanned legs on show, she paired it with a white turtleneck and black boots. Her golden waves ran down her back, a plain white headband pushing her hair back, two big strands left hanging at the front.

She looked so pretty.

An angel sent from heaven.

It even put me in a good mood, looking at her.

I hated fucking humans, the thought of a person even breathing in my direction made me want to set myself on fire. I had many endless reasons on why people are the most irritating things ever.

But fuck, this annoying girl. She was everything that i didn't want but yet everything i needed.

She was so fucking pretty.

So much so that i couldn't even fuck another girl without imagining it was her underneath me, it had made me regret ever going to that beach house. Ever since we have came back my mind was constantly replaying her annoying face, fuck i couldn't even sleep.

It pissed me off. I hated her.

What pissed me off even more was that instead of being behind her counter, serving me. She was serving some blonde spoiled boy at a table.

She leaned over the table the blonde rat sat at, her ass almost out as she spoke with him. He trailed his eyes along her body, a smirk on his face as they lowly spoke to each other. Bella was so interested in this guy she hasn't even realised i had walked into the cafe.

I watched her listen to what he had to say, her lips stretched into a smile as she nodded. I've been watching this encounter for ten whole minutes.

She been speaking to this blonde rat for ten minutes.

Didn't she have a job to fucking do?

Where the fuck was my hot chocolate?

I decided i was sick of waiting for my hot chocolate when he proceeded to touch her waist. Kicking of the wall i marched over, finally grabbing her attention.

"Oh! Hey Axel!" She smiled, her eyes glowing as she stood up straight. I bent down and pulled her skirt down, before turning to the blonde rat sitting down. He stared at me, startled by my sudden appearance he cleared his throat and sat up straight.

"Am i interrupting something?" I asked, a sharp tone in my voice.

Bella frowned, shaking her head.

"Not at all" She said looking back at the guy next to us as she smiled.

"Good" I nodded "Cause I've been waiting to get my hot chocolate for the past 10 minutes. "

Bella frowned before turning to the counter, where her even more annoying friend stood taking peoples orders.

"Lucy's serving, go get in the line." She said, practically brushing me off and turning her attention back to the blonde rat without sparing me another glance.

What the fuck?

I eyed them both and poked my tongue on the inside of my cheek as I rubbed my jaw. I dropped my hand roughly before stomping away and into the stupid line.

I watched him laugh at something she had said, she grinned at him and i could tell she felt proud at the fact she made him laugh.

The line grew shorter as their flirting grew longer. They might as well eat each others faces off at this point for fuck sake.

Forcing my gaze of them I turned my attention to the line, a little girl who barely reached my knees stood in front of me, her mother paid no attention to her.

She looked up at me, her arms behind her back as she leaned her body forward and back. Her brown hair was put into a tiny bun at the top of her head and her yellow dress flowed with every move she made.

She smiled at me. I ignored her and moved my gaze back to what was in front of me. Her mother's fat head.

Tapping my fingers against my thigh, I began to grow inpatient. How slow can this fucking line go?

Suddenly, I felt my middle finger being tugged and when I looked down the same girls little fingers wrapped around mine.

She smiled again at me hoping for something in return, but when I snatched my hand back I continued ignoring her.

Has her mother taught her anything about personal space?

I pinched the bridge of my nose in frustration. I hated kids, they were annoying shits.

The little girl frowned beside me before her tiny body began to shake and her face turned bright red. She began to sob.

Her annoying screaming almost burst my eardrums and made them bleed, I groaned out loud and looked down at her.

Her mother hasn't even tried to shut her up, she stayed standing and glued to her phone. Groaning, I turned to the witch.

"Shut up" I demanded, she paused her screaming and crying to look up at me, her tears streamed down her face and her thin lips stayed trembling.

"You're mean." She said, rubbing her eyes and scowling at me.

"And you're annoying." I said back, unfazed.

"Well you look like a monster." She spat, crossing her arms and flaring her nostrils. I couldn't help but chuckle at her.

"You look like a witch." I fired back, I didn't even bother to look down at her for her reaction.

Her mother didn't even hear what was going on she was too attached to her phone, or maybe she just simply didn't give a shit.

But fuck I was about to tell her mother to get her animal of a daughter under control when the she bit me in the arm.

I snatched my arm away from her and looked down at the bite mark that was beginning to form.

"You ugly little shit." I gritted at her, I was about to give her a piece of my fucking mind but a voice I knew all too well stopped me.

"Axel Brown!" My blondie stood behind me, she was furious as she cocked her eyebrow. Her arms were crossed over her chest as she stood perfectly straight.

"What is wrong with you?" She hissed pushing me out the way and crouching down in front of the animal, not failing to send me a nasty glare.

"Are you okay?" She cooed, grabbing the witches shoulders. The little shit shook her head and began to cry.

You have got to be fucking kidding me.

"He-he was b-being so mean." She said between sobs. Bella frowned at her and shook her head.

"He's just a mean old man, don't listen to him."

A mean old man?

I wasn't a mean old man.

I rolled my eyes when the little shit hugged her and told her everything I've said, but of course she exaggerated it with her unnecessary sobs.

Bella apologized to her before standing back up, she scowled at me once more from the corner of her eye before turning on her heel and walking away.

I turned to the child, who was already looking at me. It smirked at me before looping it's arms through its mother's.

If I didn't hate children before, I definitely did now.

I followed Bella who has marched away into the back, her arms where angrily at her sides as she took long strides whilst i lazily followed her. To be quite frank I didn't really care, but Bella was angry. So I did a little.

I watched her begin to lift cardboard boxes and then take them through into another room, repeating the whole process right after but she grew more furious the more she did.

"Bella." I spoke up, standing in the middle of the room as she fumed. She ignored me.

After repeating her name a few times, I began to grow impatient.

"Bella!" I raised my voice finally grabbing her attention, she paused in her tracks and turned to me, a box in her arms.

"What!" She yelled. I huffed and rolled my eyes, I really wasn't in the mood.

"What's your problem?" My shoulders raised, she shook her head in disappointment.

"How could you be so mean? She's just a child!" She yelled again, I followed her when she flounced to another room and put the the box down, she brushed passed me and left the room too which I continued following her.

Dramatic.

"I wasn't being that mean." I defended myself, Bella picked up another box and brushed passed me again, I followed her.

"You called her a witch!" She dropped the box, brushed passed me again. I followed her.

"She called me a monster." I replied, unbothered.

"You called her ugly!" She turned to me, pausing her task.

"She bit me." I defended myself again, stretched my arm out to show her. She looked down at the proof, her cold fingers grabbed my arm and pulled it to herself to take a better look.

I cant fucking believe that things slobbered mouth and probably unbrushed teeth have been on my arm.

"Well that was certainly rude of her, but she's just a child." Her tone was now softer and calmer as she examined the bite mark. I admired how fast she managed to calm down, she was much better than me.

"She's being dramatic." I narrowed my eyes, she didn't respond and instead turned her head sideways to look at me. I looked at her face. Pretty eyes, forest green and addicting.

"You should know better, you're much older." Was I really getting lectured right now?

Bella picked up a box again and left the room, i groaned and followed her.

"I don't care, she pissed me off."

"You're being childish."

The second she dropped another box, I grabbed her wrist and pulled her to me. Her chest brushed on mine as my hands landed to her hips. Adrenaline struck through my body and straight to my chest at the feeling of her so close to me

She breathed, her eyes dancing around my face as she suddenly has grown speechless.

"And you're pissing me off" I whispered, my nose almost brushing against hers.

"Then go home." She whispered back, her eyes focused on my face as she cocked her head.

I shook my head, bringing up my pointer finger to brush the long strand of hair off her face.

"I still want my hot chocolate."

"Then get in line and order one, I'm trying to work." She smirked, pulling away from me, I didn't allow her to get anywhere far before pulling her back against my chest, gripping onto her waist.

I grabbed her chin and tilted it up "Stop smirking, you look stupid." I lied, she didn't.

Fuck she was so beautiful.

I brushed my thumb over her rosy thick lips, pulling them down until they were too far down to pull any further, i moved my thumb to run down her chin and to her jaw.  She allowed my hand to travel down to her neck, keeping a gentle hold.

She shivered against me, her cheeks rosy and her eyes heavy. After a beat her hand came up to mine that held her neck, she intertwined her fingers over the top of mine and pulled my hand down.

"I'm still mad at you." She said, and dropped my hand leaving behind a cold touch.

I kept her tight against me, holding a grip on her waist.

Fuck I didn't want to let her go.

"I don't care." Was my response, she nodded a grin appearing on her face like she expected it to be my response.

Her breath fanned my chin as she proceeded to roll her eyes. I trailed the bridge of her nose with my eyes, and the outline of her lips before admiring her long eyelashes.

"I need to get back to work."

I wondered if she wanted to leave so much just to see that blonde rat, it only made me grip onto her tighter.

"Axel." She whined, clawing at my hands to let go. I pulled my hands away, a groan threatening to come through.

I stood stuck to my spot as she turned smiling at me.

"Isabella!" What seemed like a male voice called for her. Her head whipped to the side, the sound of footsteps grew louder.

A man's head appeared through the door, he paused in his tracks when he saw me.

He looked in his 40s, mostly bald, dressed in a sweater with his belly popping out. He sighed and turned back to Bella.

"You know you're not supposed to have people back here." He said, his eyes narrowing at her.

She sent him a apologetic smile. "Sorry boss, won't happen again."

Her boss turned to me, he took in my appearance and he cocked his head to the door gesturing for me to get out. I shoved my hands in my pockets, and without another glance or word I left the room.

Thankfully, the blonde rat and the witch were nowhere to be seen, the line had grew shorter and Lucy was still serving.

I ordered my hot chocolate, waited for it to be giving to me and watched Bella carry boxes from one room to another.

Once I had my hot chocolate, I drove back home. It was a relief to find that nobody was in my house when I got home.

Ronan seemed to spend half his time in my house, forgetting he owned one himself.

I headed for my stairs straight away, walking into my room I pulled out what I had been craving all day.

It was a daily routine, I did whatever I could to get high and I didn't give a fuck how much I took or how i got it as long as it got rid of the void. The painful fucking void.

The drugs at least never lied. They never lied. Neither did the drinks. They never let me down, not once. They wouldn't hold me up but they never let me down.

I felt the needle of the syringe under my skin and through the vein as i injected it into my arm, my hands trembled as i pushed it down, the feeling of heroin flowing into my bloodstream and veins already filled the void.

I pulled it out, dropped the syringe onto the table and fell back into a seat. I waited desperately for it to kick in.

And it didn't take long for it too feel like I was floating, the weight off my shoulders were lifted and I felt like I could relax all over again. I felt the painful void close up all over again.

Then, everything just stops, your lungs, your brain and finally your heart. Everything I wanted to forget sinked away, everything I wanted gone vanished.

And then overtime It was all I wanted, those few seconds of feeling nothing. It was what I grew to live for, and it was all needed to survive.

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This one is sorta a short one buttt

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