I S A B E L L A
Axel. Axel. Axel.
You could never tell what's going through that man's mind, trust me i've tried to see.
He was a closed off book. He was unreachable.
I watched him shove his belongings into his bag, whilst i sat on my neatly made bed with my bag already packed next to me.
It was dark in the room, the sun should rise soon so the clouds were a dark shade of blue which slightly brightened up the room, allowing me to just barley see Axel.
I could tell he was thinking hard about something and from the way he roughly shoved everything into his bag made it seem like he was rushing.
There was no rush, we had plenty of time, Ronan hadn't even gotten out of bed yet probably.
"What's the rush?" I spoke up, saying my thoughts. His attention switched to me, away from his bag as one of his trembling hands came up to rub his neck.
He quickly hid his hands away once he noticed i was staring at them.
"There's no rush." He replied, getting back to what he was doing. His deep tone was plain and boring, like he had no interest in speaking to me. I pushed myself up from the bed, then approached his tall figure.
"You seem in a rush." I shrugged behind him, continuing the conversation.
"Well, i'm not." He cleared his throat, i could see his toned back much better now as im up close and he's faced away from me.
The man was a mountain of roiling muscle. His outsize arms hung like menacing weapons from his sloping shoulders. His back muscles rolled as he moved creating a line down his back whenever they flexed.
Who knew a back could be that attractive.
Axel moved to close his suitcase, but his hands shaked so much he couldn't even pick up the zipper. I watched as he tried a few times, and the more he tried the more frustrated he grew with himself.
God, what was going on with him?
I bent down next to him, before softly placing my hand over his cold one, causing his trembling to slow down under my hands. He snatched his hands away, like he hated my touch.
Pinching the zipper with two fingers, i closed the bag for him. The silence was loud, as i trailed my eyes to Axel who remained in the same position.
He looked down at my hand that had just held his, before moving his gaze to mine.
We both were crouching down, our eyes finding each others.
"Can i ask you something?" I said with slight worry and then sat down on the floor in front of him, crossing my legs. Axel simply nodded.
"What's wrong?" The words spilled out my mouth the minute he nodded. Axel pulled his eyebrows together, his lips in a straight line, his eyes looking at me like that's the most stupid question i've ever asked.
Because what would possibly ever be wrong with Axel?
Axel is fine.
That's what he believed, that's what everyone else believed. But not me.
It seemed that's whatever everyone expected from Axel, too feel fine, too not care.
"It's just-" I paused, sighing. Now i felt stupid.
"You've always been on edge, but this week- i don't know. You've just seem more on edge than usual this week and i'm worr-"
"Why do you even care?" He cut me off, running his tongue over his teeth.
Maybe it wasn't any of my business, we don't know that much about each other. In fact, this week is the most we've ever spoke.
"Because i care about you." I breathe, looking at him.
"We barley know anything about each-other." Axel argues, as he gets up from the floor i do the same. I follow him onto the couch as he pulls out a cigarette for his daily routine.
"We are friends." I argue back, looking at him intensely whilst he pays no attention to me and stares out the window.
Axel let's a loud scoff, a toxic stick between his lips as he lights it with a small lighter. He lifts his hips to adjust himself before dropping them down, in a lazy position.
And here we are again, on this stupid couch, one last time.
"Okay then-" I start, turning my body to face him completely. Axel looks at me through the corner of his eyes, eyebrows raised.
"Tell me something about you."
"Why?"
"So i can get to know you more." I smile, pulling my knees up to rest my chin on them.
He turns his full face to look at me with an amused expression. I nod my head, encouraging him to go on.
He shakes his head, like he knows i won't leave him alone. "Fine, I am twenty years old." He dryly replied.
I frown. "Something i don't already know."
"Fuck sake." He mumbles, slumping.
Axel rolls his eyes, blowing out some smoke. He stays silent for a moment as he thinks, long and hard.
I liked that he wasn't pushing me away, i liked that he was willing to tell me something about him.
I just liked hearing him talk, i liked seeing him think and i loved it when he looked at me.
Which he was doing right now. His blue eyes merged into my green ones, i feel like the wind has been knocked out of me. I was going to melt in the spot if he kept looking at me like that.
"My favourite colour is green." Was all he gave me, i smiled and nodded.
"My favourite colour is blue! It's super pretty." I said, my lips stretched into a grin.
"Yeah?" Axel mumbled through the cigarette that was back in between his lips with a slight smirk.
"Mhm." I replied cocking my head, a strand of hair falling in front of my face as i did.
He continues looking at me, his eyes heavy and intense when he reaches to tuck the hair behind my ear.
I also liked it when he touched me.
"Tell me something else." I say, pushing for more. It probably wasn't a good idea, Axel was not one to have a long conversation with someone but it was worth a try.
"Was that not enough?" He questions, his eyes pulling away from mine and moving to look out the window again.
"That was barley anything, so tell me more." I urge.
His fingers brush his nose and his tongue wets his lips quickly before he tits his head back to look up at the ceiling.
"My mom is dead and i haven't got a fucking clue where my dad is." He mutters, like it wasn't a big deal. He stares at the boring blank ceiling, releasing more smoke from his mouth.
All of a sudden i feel a lump form in my throat, i try to get rid of it but it hurts to swallow.
"I'm sorry." I feel horrible now, like i pushed to far.
His adam's apple rolled in his throat as he swallowed.
"Tell me something about you then." He ignored what i said before as he asked. Although, it didn't seem like he wanted to know, it seemed more like he wanted to change the subject. To take the attention of him.
"I wish to be a nurse in the future." I said as i looked down, when i looked up he was already looking at me again but his neck remained thrown back.
He hummed "Why?"
I found myself biting my bottom lip uncontrollably and gripping onto my legs.
"My mother was a nurse, i'd like to be like her one day." I admitted, Axel nodded in understanding.
"Is that why you're always so focused on school He asks, scanning my face. His hand reaches up again, i feel him pull my lip out from between my teeth and pull it down before letting go.
"Sort of, i just want a good future for myself. One where i don't have to worry about money as much." I explained, trying to keep my voice steady as my belly exploded with butterflies.
"You struggle with money?" He asks, sitting up slightly.
Yes, but i was embarrassed to tell that to him now. Axel had money, so much of it.
"No. Not really." I lied, looking off into the distance through the window.
"You're a shit liar." He replied, pressing the cigarettes down into the flesh on his large hand, a burn left behind when he throws it into the bin near him.
"Well, i'm definitely not rich but there are people out there that have it much worse than me." I say.
It was true, i didn't like complaining about money much. I knew there was people who don't even have a roof over their heads, i am lucky and so grateful for what i do have.
Axel remains silent, as i explained. He listened and took in every word i said, i noticed that quite a lot. He always listened to what i had to say, he cared to know.
It warmed my heart, it made me feel important.
A loud knock echos through the room, Axel ignores it as he continues gazing at the sky.
"Come in!" I shout, to which the door immediately flies open. Five heads come barging in, causing a low groan to escape from Axel's lips.
"Good morning!" Ronan marches in first, full of energy.
"Morning!" I reply welcoming everyone. Ronan jumps onto Axel's bed, closest to the couch.
Lucy makes her way towards me, as she sits on the end of the couch a smile spread across her face.
Ethan and Noah sit on the end of the bed where Ronan is, not long after Kai sits in between them.
"How are you doing, bro?" Ronan asked Axel, everyone's gaze moves to the grumpy man next to me who hasn't even spared a look to any of them since they came in.
"Much better before i saw you." Was his plain response, as he ignored his presence and continued looking away. Ethan and Lucy laughed. Ronan scowled at Lucy.
"Im sick of this disrespectful behaviour towards me everyday, it's not good for my emotional well-being." Ronan's hands flew about in the air as he dramatically explained.
Axel ignored him.
"-Isabella is the only one who is nice to me." Ronan rambled on as everyone watched him with a smile, laughs threatening to break through.
"How could you say that Ronan? We all love you!" Ethan interrupted with a sarcastic tone, stretching his arms out for a hug.
Ronan looked away from Ethan and slumped in his seat, crossing his arm across his chest. Ethan shook his head with a low chuckle and turned back to face the way he was sitting originally.
• • •
Ronan drove the car in silence, tapping his fingers on the steering wheel to the beat of the song. Ethan who sat next to him, seemed like he was asleep, his head was resting on the palm of his hand for a while now.
I wondered when the next time i would see everyone again, i've grown fond of being around them. Before this holiday, i didn't even know who Ethan and Noah were. I only saw Axel in the cafe, but even then we barley spoke.
I hadn't really got the opportunity to say goodbye to Axel, he rushed off into the car before i could and took Noah with him.
For the most part i was patient with Axel, i knew he was tuff to crack. Half the time he didn't even want to speak to me, so i wasn't hurt that he didn't say anything.
But i cared for him, more than i wanted to. For some odd reason, he was the only person i wanted to see sometimes.
"What are you thinking about?" Kai's voiced chimed in, interrupting my thoughts.
Dragging my eyes away from the road ahead of me, i turned my head to the brunette sat next to me. His big doe eyes searched my face for my thoughts, his lips in a broad grin whilst he ran a hand through his curly locks.
"Nothing." I replied, with a tight smile.
"You seem like you're in deep thought." He chuckled, spreading his legs out into a man spread. I don't think he realised i had barley any space here.
Lucy stirred in her sleep, her head resting on my shoulder as she rubbed her cheek into it. I brushed her hair out her face before replying to Kai.
"I'm just bored, it's a long drive back." I mumbled, keeping my voice down for the two sleepy heads in the car.
"Where did Axel go, he didn't leave with us." I added after a beat, curiosity taking the best of me.
"Probably home. Who knows, he doesn't tell us anything these days." Kai sighed, gazing out into the fields full of grass.
I nodded. "You know-" Kai began, turning his attention to me, i stared at him as i waited for him to speak.
"He only every really talks to you."
I scoff, a giggle escaping shortly after. "Barley."
"Compared to us? A lot. You've got him under you're spell." Kai says, as he continued looking at me with a cocked head.
"Under my spell?" I giggle at his words, examining the seamless white leather on the car seats of Ronan's car.
"You know what i mean..." Kai said, i felt his eyes on the side of my face as i shrugged my shoulders in denial.
"You're always the first thing he looks at when he walks into a room." He continues, i trail my eyes to look at him through the corner of my eyes.
I deny, shaking my head as i run my hands through Lucy's thick dark hair, her cheek pushed up against my shoulder as she snores lightly.
Kai only shook his head, a sly smirk painted on his face before he looked back out the window. The car tuned back to silent as the conversation died down. However, Kai's words didn't leave my mind.
You're always the first thing he looks at when he walks into the room.
It was odd, because he was always the first thing i searched for when i walked into a room.
After what felt like an eternity, we finally drove past the fields and trees and into a busy road full of cars. A rather big town could be seen not far from here, it's tall building sticking out over the trees close to us.
The music in the car remained on a low volume, Ronan was quiet as he drove, zoned out into his chaotic mind I'm sure. It felt odd for it to be this silent, but in a way it was a rest from the loud week.
Not long after, we drove into the town. Ronan pulled up at an empty petrol station. Kai and Lucy climbed out the car and went to the bathroom as Ronan filled up the tank.
I watched Ethan jog back to the car, food piled up in his arms. The door opened allowing dry hot air to rush into the car. Ethan dropped down back into his seat and slammed the door shut.
He turned to me, a tired smile on his face.
"Hot dog?" He asked.
~~~
Thank you so so much for 50k reads!? I cannot thank you enough! ❤️
What do we think of this chapter? The writers block this week was challenging so i'm sorry if it sucked.
Also! Me and one of my closest friend decided to do a little cross over, we thought it would be fun. So, if you want to see Axel make sure to read the book "Daisy Mae" By tpwkharryP for a sneak peak of him.
Who knows we may even have a character of hers to pop up here?;)
Her book is amazing and i highly recommend to read it because i love it.
Thank you for reading lovelies <33
You are reading the story above: TeenFic.Net