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Illusion

Illusion

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I'm not afraid of being alone, I'm only afraid of being without him.I can't remember the exact moment that I lost myself, but I do remember that it was a conscious choice. I made a conscious choice to slip into a type of unconsciousness. I wouldn't admit it at the time... I thought I was "in control", but looking back I was definitely becoming illogical. I hate to use past tense phrases like "was" because A) I don't want this to be over, and B) its definitely still present tense for me. I'm STILL being illogical. I'm STILL trying to deny the truth. And I STILL love him.He says we've been falling apart for months now...But were things ever together? Were we ever together? Is it possible that as we drew closer together, we were falling apart the whole time? And was it our relationship that was falling apart? Or was it ourselves? Was I crumbling with every "I love you"? Did he know that deep down, it could never last?…

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