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After a traumatic past, Clay finds his way in alcohol and cigarettes. The severely addicted boy goes to school, but starts slipping away more and more into the world of addictions. Most people, but his parents, know he's addicted. However, he hides one thing which is the fact he's addicted to the worst drugs just to forget his pain and past traumas. George doesn't want anything to do with alcohol nor does he want to speak to the alcohol addicted bully who seems to look worse each day. George leaves it all up to Clay's best friend, Sapnap, but when he finds the suicidal and drunk Clay on the middle of the road, he has to make a choice. He either has to let himself get reminded of his hidden pain or leave the boy alone...TW's:-Alcohol/drugs/smoking addiction (usage)-Death of a family member (flashback)-Sexual assault/rape (flashbacks)-Suicidal thoughts (overdose)-Self harm/blood-Panic attack-BullyingREWROTE THIS TO A PLATONIC FANFIC…

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After being the only one to stick up for Reggie after physical abuse and severe bullying, Clay and Reggie become inseparable. However, while they are closer than anyone, they are polar opposites at the same time.While Reggie camps with several addictions, including substance abuse and sexual addiction, Clay doesn't want anything to with those things after sexual trauma due to his father cheating on his mother each night.But when Reggie and Clay separate after a blooming romance between the two, the bullying takes a turn for the worse and Reggie slowly loses himself into a world of self hatred, while Clay takes the road of Reggie's past life with substance abuse...Warnings:-Severe bullying (physical abuse + attempted murder)-Homophobia (usage F-slur on multiple occasions)-Physical + emotional (child) abuse-Sexual addiction (only mentioned)-Substance abuse…

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Clay has autism and finds comfort in simple things, the illuminated a fireplace on a winter's night, fish swimming and stuffed animals. However, this was all soon to change after a tragic accident. Clay finds himself alone, seeing his happiness slip away from one simple mistake.George doesn't have an easy home life, after noticing signs of possibly a muscle disease, his only wish is to get help for it, however his parents deny every word that is brought up about it. Yet, it gets worse by the day as George quickly looses any hope left. When Clay is left traumatised by his past, he thinks nothing will bring back the same happiness he once felt, but when George moves into the farm he often visits, that same joy that was extinguished with the fire, sparks again...TW's:-Bullying-(Child)abuse-Panic attacks-Homophobia -Fire/death (past)-Flashbacks/nightmaresNot really a TW, I think, but: -Muscle disease…

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Dream doesn't expect anything weird after one strange text while he's editing his video. He sees it as a funny joke and ignores it, continuing with his daily life as he realises this is way more serious than it seemed...One text turns into daily calling, being followed while going to the supermarket, destruction of important things and eventually to death threats...When it goes further and further, Dream doesn't feel safe anymore and he definitely doesn't know who he can still trust. He realises that this isn't just a joke from his friends, but that he's being stalked by a real psychopath...Warnings:-Stalking-Burglary -Panic attacks-Death threats-Car accident (blood)…

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Clay has a secret, unable to be shared with anyone. Only his brother, Elliot, knows about the situation he goes through at home. Daily abuse drives Clay as well as Elliot insane, but he continues to act tough at school, a rebellious personality becoming his own.Elliot, the witness of the abuse, is slowly becoming a person he never wished to be. Daily nightmares, flashbacks, panic attacks and hopelessness begin to break him apart more and more the longer he has to stay quiet about what's going on. On top of that, he starts struggling with his sexuality as well and begins to lose a sense of reality...Will the two ever get out of the pain they have to go through?Warnings:-Severe physical + emotional (child) abuse (getting stabbed + knife violence)-Toxic and abusive relationship-Homophobia (usage F-slur)-Suicide attempt + self harm -Substance abuse-Panic attacks-Psychosis Mentioned, but not written:-Sexual abuse -Obsessive sexual behaviour (sexual addiction)-Eating disorder behaviour (limited mentions)-Death (no main character)…

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After George accidentally outs himself in front of the popular and homophobic guys of the school everything seems fine at first. However, that soon changes when he receives weird and hurtful messages online, this soon escalates from just one message to something much more serious. Meanwhile, Clay is closeted yet he has known he likes boys for a while now after falling for George. However, he can never seem to find the time to talk to anyone about this as he has to constantly help his sick mum and sister. With the cyber bullying all becoming too much, George becomes extremely overwhelmed, while Clay finds himself taking more and more medication to calm himself every day. This soon escalated from a small issue into something unimaginably worse.TW's:-Usage too much medication -Homophobia (usage f-slur)-Suicide attempt/thoughts -Mentions heart disease -Burnout/depression-(Cyber) bullying-Mental abuse-Overdose-Abuse…

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George loved Clay, it wasn't some dumb high school love, it was real love. Yet George had to keep it locked away deep inside his so very fragile heart, reason being that Clay was homophobic. Clay wasn't who you thought he was, he may seem like just another popular boy who went through liking girls, but Clay was in fact gay, only no one knew this and even Clay himself pushed it away at every thought about it. He got a girlfriend to push away the fact he was gay however he doesn't seem like her.The only way surely for George to forget about his love for Clay was to move on, find someone else, someone to fill the endless void in his heart, after making a profile on a dating website he thinks it will be easy to move on, turns out it's a lot harder than it seems.TW's:-(Internalised) homophobia (usage F-slur)-Abuse (blood)-Cheating…

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Clay is part of the school's most popular group, a group of people who are all known to be alcohol addicts and always ready to party. However, at the same time as Clay begins to discover some weird symptoms, symptoms a healthy body shouldn't show, he realises a lot of his friends are way different than he expected them to be. The guy who is always ready to party, Max, seems to drink to forget, only to try to survive. The quiet, yet sweet boy, Gerry, appears to carry a dark secret around and Chase, the funny and confident boy suddenly doesn't seem to be as confident in his masculinity as everyone thought. The faster Clay's health declines, the more the group of friends starts to break, revealing secrets that should never have been brought to light...Warnings:-Underaged usage alcohol/being drunk (not often)-Eating disorder behaviour (only in the end)-Cancer/chemotherapy (chemo in the end)-Trans/homophobia (usage F-slur)-Severe (child) abuse -Gender dysphoria Only mentioned/a few time warnings:-Self harm (once, only scars mentioned next to that)-Bullying (only a few times)-Mentions rape (no scenes)-Sexual addiction…

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When your whole world is falling apart what are you supposed to do? Fall into panic, or act like everything is okay on the outside when deep inside it really wasn't. Clay decided to do just that, when his dad dies he is completely crushed, only then to find his best friends both lay dead on the blood filled hardwood floors.He decides the best way to get over all of this was to push it aside, act like nothing happens and shut everyone out. He can't trust anyone. However that unexpectedly changes when George finds him lay mourning in the rain on the afternoon of his dad's birthday.-Suicide (in the beginning)/suicide attempt -Panic attacks/anxiety attacks-Separation anxiety disorder -Mentions deaths/suicide -Self harm/bloodREWROTE THIS TO A PLATONIC STORY…

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George is cancer free after a long battle full of chemotherapy and surgeries at his fourteenth. He starts living his life again, goes back to school and hangs out with his friends and family to appreciate all the small things in life as his leg starts hurting again...Clay is grieving because his mother passed away from lymphoma, a cancer type that's running in his family. With barely anyone around him who can comfort him while grieving, he also needs to deal with his severe anxiety coming from emetophobia, his extreme fear of throwing up. But then the worst thing happens... just as Clay gets diagnosed with blood cancer, George gets diagnosed for the second time with bone cancer. Clay's fear is so big that he doesn't know how to go on and George doesn't know if he can fight this battle a second time...Warnings:-Cancer (bone cancer (relapse)/blood cancer)-Suicidal thoughts/suicide attempt (short)-Bullying (only once in the end)-Throwing up (skippable)-Chemotherapy -Amputation⚠️ Clay has emetophobia in this story and for all the people with this same phobia, I added a trigger for mentions/talk about throwing up/nausea, a trigger for nausea and one for throwing up. They are all skippable!!…

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George has been raped in the past, causing him a big trauma. Five years later he still keeps it a secret, due to people not believing him.But when this happens again, George's YouTube channel starts to suffer under his major depression, his PTSD and anxiety. He cuts off all contact causing Dream to fly out to his house after he has to go to hospital. But to make everything worse, George stops talking because of his trauma. He appears to be completely muted suddenly...TW's:-Pregnancy because of rape+abandonment kid-Sexual assault (rape (not only mentions))-Trauma (PTSD)/nightmares/psychoses -Slight homophobia-Suicide attempts-Slight abuse-Self harmREWROTE THIS TO A PLATONIC FANFIC :)…

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George is 17 and in his last year of high school when he gets terrible news. After having weird nosebleeds, strange bruises and a lot of dizziness, the doctors find out George has leukaemia. George's best friend, Clay, is there the whole day for George and as George fights his battle against leukaemia, Clay supports him in every way possible. He shaves his head too and is there with George in all of his chemos. He buys George his favourite beanies and even let someone make one for him.But doctors start to lose hope of George ever getting better and since there is no match for a stem cell transplantation, there is only one person left to help him. Only the chances of that working are even smaller.TW's:-Leukaemia (blood cancer)-Chemotherapy -Tube feeding -Throwing up…

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George loved dresses, they loved how they flowed so elegantly in the slightest of breezes, how beautiful dresses looked when George stood admiring them in front of a mirror for hours, looking at every stitch and every sequin. Clay on the other hand, despite having two dads was homophobic, he despised his dads and how they held one another in each other's arms. But that was all a mask only he didn't dare to admit it. After all the rough times he had gone through, he was not longer the one who was bullied. He was the bully. It was for sure that George wasn't going to be able to keep wearing dresses in secret forever, it was only a matter of time until people found out, but how would everyone respond? More importantly, how would Clay their best friend respond?TW's:-Homo(trans)phobia (F-slur)-Panic attack (just one)-Bullying-Abuse…

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George and Clay had formed a close friendship since they met in a Minecraft server and knew they lived close to one another in real life. Yet little did George know, that the person he knew as Dream online was actually his bully in real life.After a rough time at school from all the bullying, Dream was always there to comfort him even though he was the one doing the damage. Clay was the one who was poisoning George with his words full of nothing but his own pain. There's a camp coming up and both of them are looking forward to it, until they find out who they are in a room with. The days creep closer and George tries to find every way out of it, but there doesn't seem that there is one...TW's:-Abuse-Bullying-Self harm-Panic attacks-Suicidal thoughts-Mentions homophobia…

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Clay lives a perfect life and enjoys living with his father, who is his best friend at the same time. Everything seems fine until some people start bullying him for "looking gay" and being a virgin.Clay doesn't give in to the bullies and ignores all their mean comments until they go so far that Clay gets drugged at a party just be sexually abused after that...Clay tries to hide this from anyone, but when he gets the news that he's becoming a father and needs to take care of the kid alone, he panics and decides to go to his own father, who has always taught him about safety very well, in the hope he can help him ease the pain...Warnings:-Sexist/trans/homophobic comments -Rape/sexual assault (being drugged)-Suicidal thoughts/implied attempt-Panic attacks/derealisation -Pregnancy because of rape -Self harm-Abuse…

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Clay and Sydney make a pact and refuse to ever leave each other's side. That is, until Sydney is diagnosed with lymphoma, a blood cancer, at the age of eight and his mental health turns upside down. Their inseparable bond stays and turns into a romantic one, until the two are roughly separated by Sydney's homophobic father. Both of them are heartbroken, but four years later, Clay has still kept his promise to his childhood boyfriend.However, Sydney lost himself in a deep depression and stops believing in ever meeting his soulmate again. He loses himself in a world full of substances, sex and rebellion. That is until, he gets expelled, sent to a boarding school and suddenly stands eye to eye with the love of his life...Warnings:-Underaged substance abuse (alcohol) + getting drunk -Suicide attempts (overdose + poisoning)-Obsessive sexual behaviour (addiction)-Physical + emotional abuse -Cancer + treatment-Panic attacks -Self harm -Cheating…

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George hasn't had an easy life after being diagnosed with autism. Going to a public school as an autistic, highly intelligent boy, he clearly notices the differences between his classmates and himself, giving him a lot of insecurity and shame about his own behaviour.As his escape, he goes to a bakery for hours a day to calm his mind, but things change when a new boy who moved is hired. Unexpectedly, and for the first time, George decides to open himself up to the new boy, Clay, while at the same time, Clay slowly starts falling for his new best friend, George.Mostly fluff with some angst every now and then!⚠️ I wrote this book from my own experience and my own mindset, as someone with diagnosed autism, highly intelligent and ADHD. I DON'T think people with autism are childish or cute, I'm not projecting a stereotype. This is from my own struggles with autism at a public school without special needs.…

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Clay isn't accepted as homosexual by his parents and seeks support from his best friends, Cooper and Selena, who always help him no matter what. However, their acceptance can't fill the empty void coming from hate of his parents, the sly comments tearing Clay apart.In the hope to fill the emptiness, he joins a soccer club and meets the great friends, people who feel like family to him. His coach seems a father figure to him after losing the person who was supposed to be his dad. Unfortunately, not everyone is as kind as Clay thinks, some even take advantage of his fragile mindset.Sapnap, on the other hand, is falsely accused of rape, being locked in a reintegration centre for youth. After hopeless attempts to get out and see his child, George starts doubting his girlfriend's story, believing Sapnap more and more...Warnings:-Sexual assault/implied rape (scene not written)-Emotional/physical (child) abuse-Death of a close family member -Homophobia-Seizures One time warnings/only mentioned:-Underaged drinking (twice)-False accusations rape-Tic attacks (FND)-Panic attacks…

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Sapnap and Clay, two opposites of each other, but exactly the same for those around them. The twins appear to be enemies, however, Sapnap never leaves his brother's side, although he is always left in the shadow.Clay, the popular one of the two, the one who is addicted to any substances possible and the one who is lost in the world of sex, is the polar opposite of Sapnap, who is quiet and shy, doesn't break any rules and always looks out for others. However, what nobody knows is that their two attitudes are not real, but originate from hidden traumas that are shown in two different ways. Clay is trapped in a dark world while Sapnap has more and more problems due to him...Warnings:-Substance abuse (using drugs, cigarettes, alcohol)-Obsessive sexual behavior (sexual addiction)-Emotional, physical (child) abuse -Suicide attempt-Self harm-Bullying…

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Clay and Sapnap, two of the popular guys who can only think about girls, alcohol and drugs... However, the life of the popular Clay is a little bit different than expected. Daily torture, pain and a deep secret are the things that are breaking him more and more.George has a disease called "osteogenesis imperfecta" which causes his bones to break very easily. After tenths of bone breaks, multiple surgeries and even bullies who purposely break George's bones, he starts getting more and more hopeless...The two meet in an unexpected way, everything seems to get better. Right? Until the torture escalates more and more and there doesn't seem to be a way out anymore...Warnings:-Usage alcohol/cigarettes and drugs (underaged)-Bullying (physical abuse leads to bone breaks)-Torture (burning/pinching/severe abuse)-Suicide attempt (overdose/drowning)-Homo/transphobia/sexism (F-slur)…