My name is Nadia Tofolpogova, a daughter of Russian merchant which moved with his daughter in Istanbul when his wife died. I stayed without a mother at very young age, and I thought that is going to be the worst thing that happened to me.

Young Nadia would never knew that during her whole life she would have suffer so much, losing people she loves one by one.

Young innocent Nadia would never think she was able to kill someone. She would never do anything bad to anyone. Nadia maybe had known how to fight good and was good with words, but Nadia would never spill anyone's blood.

When my father died, Nadia also died. I became Aslihan. On the first, Aslihan was the same as Nadia. They were innocent and pure. Only thing they wanted was to take care of their loved ones and fight for the truth.

During my life in Kutahya, as Aslihan I had to have constant fights because of my beloved husband's actions. Jealousy took all over me when I would hear that he spends night together with any other woman that isn't me.

During my life there, I had to fight constantly with my beloved husband's bipolarity and very often mood swings. From him calling me his angel, to him ignoring me and taking enough care of me.

Maybe all of the bad things started happening to me when I met Bayezid? I lost my brothers. I gained more and more enemies. But most importantly, I losed my innocence.

Even though there were a lot of my enemies, I was the one who won the whole game. Rana, Hurrem, Nurbanu, Selim, Rustem, Şah, Ismihan, Gevherhan. I got rid of all of them. I was the winner, but at what cost?

It all costed me with precious lifes of my sons Mustafa and Ibrahim. My enemies did much bad things to me, but one thing I could never do is to kill children.

God blessed me to feel how it is to be a mother, and gifted me with my precious children. Four sons and three daughters. Unfornatley, my two sons now sleep with angels.

Nothing in those twelve years in Ottoman Dynasty has ever hurted me that much. They tried to kill me, kidnap me, tried to make me fight with Bayezid, tried to separate me from my children. But they could never do something of that.

I was always stronger than them. I outlived everything of that. And now, I didn't have any ability or chance to help my sons who were dying in front of my eyes.

I knew I would never forgive myself that. I will always blame myself for that. I am main reason why they aren't here with us anymore.

But because of that, I will protect my other children. I will protect them no matter what it takes. I would give my life just for them to be fine.

From Russian merchant Nadia Tofolpogova, I had my journey to Ottoman Palace and now I am here as Haseki Aslihan Sultan, wife of future Sultan Bayezid.

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- What kind of mess is this? How you dare to put my son on the throne while I am still alive? - Bayezid, who was all beaten up, yelled at all the army that was standing on the main square. He came together with Lala.

Bayezid came on the main square already dressed in Sultan's outfit, and I knew what this all would mean.

I took Suleyman's hand into mine and moved to the another side so Bayezid could do what was important.

He came into the right moment, because if he would have not, only God knows what would happen. All the soldiers were so angry that they didn't know what are they doing.

- Şehzade, excuse us. They told us you are dead same as your father. - Head od Janissaries said to Bayezid.

- Well you should took care of that, you knew he locked me in dungeon. Instead of you helping me, an only heir to the throne. You chosed my son, which isn't even the eldest, to put him on the throne! - Bayezid yelled angrily on all the soldiers which were standing there. I saw Suleyman is really scared of Bayezid, especially when he mentions him.

All of the soldiers stood there silent. They all had their head bowed down. No one dared to tell anything anymore when Bayezid was standing in front of them.

Bayezid sat on his throne, and his Lala came to stand next to him. He started presenting him all of his viziers, which all bowed to him.

- From today, my people, I will rule this country as Sultan Bayezid Khan. I will do whatever is important to rule this country on the most magnificent way. - Bayezid said to all off them. I looked at him proudly because I couldn't believe it is finally time for my husband to become Sultan.

- Long live Sultan Bayezid! Long live Ottoman Empire! - soldiers started yelling all in the same tone. I was standing on the side looking happily how they all appericate my husband.

Lala signalised me I should leave the main square together with Suleyman, as I did, because no woman should have been there.

I was standing behind the doors which led to the main square, and through the window I looked at what was happening outside.

- Aslihan, is my father mad on me? I am really scared. - Suleyman said to me while he was crying. My heart was breaking to see him so sad.

- Suleyman, angel, he is not. Your father can't be angry on you, trust me. - I went down on my knees so I could be as same height as him, and kissed his forehead.

- Where is my mother? - he asked me with his eyes covered in tears. I didn't know how could I explain to young boy that his mother was killed.

- She is not here anymore, so you will be with me now. I will look at you as my son, I promise you. - I said to him which made him smile at least a bit.

- I love you, Aslihan. - he said as he hugged me happily and finally stopped crying.