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LUNAS POV

This is a double update so make sure you read chapter 44 before this

TW/ violence, drugs, mental health/self harm, mentions and comments about sexual assault (not in detail)

Know that you are valid and no matter who you are or what you are going through I am proud of you and I love you✨🤍

Harry's fucking dead, thats it. That's all I can think about. Liam hasn't come into the room nor has Harry.

I don't know how long it's been since the gun went off, I can't have been long but it feels like hours.

As I lay on the floor tears taking over my body, clinging onto my ribs, I can feel how bruised they are, he has steel toe boots on.

I look over to him and see him dressing his wound, god I wish he'd bleed out and die, where the fuck is everyone else, surely my dad or jack heard the gun shot.

"Chris, please" I have no idea what I'm pleading for at this point.

"Shut the fuck up, god what does Harry even see in you. Probably nothing and just uses you as some sort of cum slut." I swallow hard, feeling horrid.

"Oh he does doesn't he, I fucking knew it. He doesn't love you, not like I did"

I lean up to look at him, is he fucking joking.

"Chris you abused me"

" I did no such thing, you just don't know when to behave, you also use to hang out with that faggot" he spat out the last word.

"Fuck you" I hate when he calls Z that, makes my whole body fill with rage.

"Touched a nerve did I?, I knew you preferred him over me, the way he looks at you always bothered me, does little Harry know about Zayn and how you two would fuck" Jesus, he's still on this even years later.

"Yeah he does, they both fuck me so well. You jealous Chris that two men get to fuck me and make me cum when you didnt?" I clench my jaw at him.

He stalks his way over to me, I keep my composure. He grabs me by my throat pulling me up and pinning me against the wall.

"Shut the fuck up, or I'll shut you up myself" he smirks, I know what he means, he would always say it when we were dating. Meaning he'd throat fuck me until I cried, my body shivers at the thought of him evening putting a hand on me.

I don't say anything, just stare at him as he smirks at me, he thinks he's so fucking clever.

He eyes at the door, probably waiting for Liam to come in and save him or fucking help him, he seems like he has no idea what he has to do with me in here. He just paces the room and every now and then he'll glance at me.

"Can you go and see what that noise was please." I know I shouldnt ask but I need to, I need to know if harrys dead, if the man I want to spend the rest of my fucking life is dead, and if he is'ntt then good becuase I will be killing him myslef after this, why couldnt he left it alone. I knew what I was doing. I had a plan and this would have been avoided if he had just listened to me.

"Why, scared that Liam finally ended the cunts miserable life, deal with it Luna. me and you are destined and after all this, me and you will be together." I muster up enough strength to sit my body up against the wall, holding on to my ribs.

"Is..that..what." fucking hell! "Is that what Liam promised you?" I finally get the words out, even though my ribs now kill from speaking.

"No, I just know that once Harry is out of the picture you'll be easier." Is this ma hearing himself, I am literally sat in the room with him, no way in fucking hell would I ever get back with fucking abuser.

I roll my eyes and before I know it Chris is back in my space, grabbing me by the arm this time. Yanking my body up and slamming me againt the wall, fuck me. My back is bruised, he slaps me across the face, I lean over, but he grabs my hair and yanks me up.

He places his head in the crook of my neck, I squirm to try and get him off but he has hold of my hair and waist. I try to push his chest, but he towers over me and I'm weak from the beating he's given me.

"Please, stop...Chris." he doesn't listen, grabbing at my waist tighter, knowing it's going to leave a mark.

"God you're no fun, what happened to you?" oh only the fucking fact that I left a relationship an drealised the fucking absue I was out through, this man thinks hes mans gift from god, he leaves me against the wall and walks ovr to the door, as he goes to open it, the door comes flying out, practically being torn off of its hinges.

Harry. He's covered in blood, I can't work out if its his or not, fuck he looks battered. His lip is bleeding, I mean most of his face is covered in scratches.

"Harry" I try to walk but my whole body aches, Chris grabs me and spins me so my back is against his chest.

"Come any fucking closer styles and I'll slit her fucking throat" Harry eyes me up and down, trying to talk to me, letting me know he's okay.

I wink at him, he drops his head to the floor hiding a smirk, god now is not the time to fucking flirt with him Luna, I think back to the self defence Harry has taught me.

I take a breath, we got this. We can do this, I see Harry's gun hanging at his side, he's holding his ribs, I catch sight of his gun hanging at his side.

I elbow Chris in the gut, making him lose grip of the knife. I spin and grab the knife from his hand and hold it out towards him.

"Fucking hell" Chris shouts out.

"Don't come closer or I'll slit your fucking throat" I use his words back at him, Harry comes and gently grabs my arm but I still flinch out and wield the knife at him.

I feel so on edge right now.

"Baby, give me the knife" he slowly takes the knife out of my hand, grabbing me and pulling him into his chest. Fuck, his smell it makes me feel at home.

He places his arm around my head holding onto my ear, he has his bicep on one ear and his hand placed tightly on the other.

My body jolts when I hear the gun go off, no fucking way, did he just shoot Chris.

"Luna baby, we need to go okay, Nialls out front with the car" Nialls here. I don't say anything, he doesn't let me look at Chris.

I manage to sneak a glance and see his lifeless body, my head snaps forward, still in Harry's hold as he escorts me out the house.

Did he kill everyone, what the fuck happened whilst I was in that room. My breathing becomes shallow as we walk out into the fresh air.

Everything comes back to me, what Chris did what just fucking happened. I push Harry away and drop to my knees, letting the tears fall free.

I hug myself, Harry drops next to me rubbing circles on my back.

"Get off, Harry please stop"

"Okay, I'm sorry but we need to go, your brothers waiting" I stay silent, as the tears still fall, I shoot up and walk over to the car.

Sliding into the back and pulling my legs up to my chest. Not saying a word as I see Harry walk over to the car and sit in the front.

"All done mate" Niall says as if what just happened was some mere business plan. "Fucking hell lad, you got battered in there"

"Just drive to Lunas" Harry snaps out at Niall, i zone out for the rest of the journey, I can hear them both bicker in the front, Harry puts his leg on my calf but I pull it further into my body, he slowly pulls away.

After what feels like eternity, we arrive at mine. I get out before any of them, I think the adrenaline has worn off, my body starts to ache.

I slowly make my way up the stairs of the shop, I can hear Harry follow behind me, I'm hoping he told Niall to leave, I can't be dealing with a lot of people.

Once I get into my place, holy shit he has Goose here. Oh god, I run to the dog and kneel to him, he places his head on my shoulder and whimpers into me.

"I know boy, I missed you to"

"Luna."

I don't say anything and continue crying into the dog, I can't look at him right now, I don't even want to open my eyes right now.

"Luna please" I stop stroking the dog.

"Go sit boy." He wanders into my room.

Harry looks at me up and down, like he hasn't seen me before.

"Fuck baby" he comes over and places a hand on my cheek, he looks at my arms and my cut up face.

"Christ Luna, please say something"

"Like what Harry, what am I meant to say after what just fucking happened. I mean Fuck look at us" I forgot how battered Harry truly was.

"Take your top off"

"Luna I'm not fucking you"

"I don't want you to, just take your top off." He rolls

His eyes, but slowly takes his top off, I can hear the small winces coming from his mouth.

Once his top is completely off my jaw goes slack, it looks like someone as just come at him with no fucking mercy, slashes all across his stomach and chest.

"Who?" Is all I manage to say before I run to him and slowly trace over the wounds.

"Everyone Luna." I don't want to hear about it now, what I need to do is get him cleaned up.

"Come on" I take his hand and take him into the bathroom.

"Get undressed please" he does as I ask, taking off his jeans and shoes, leaving him in just his boxers. He stares at me, as if he's waiting for my permission or something.

"Get In with me"

"No" I cross my arms, knowing how bruised I am. He will flip,I know he's already killed Chris but I don't know how he will react to this.

"Why?" The running water steams up the room as Harry stares at me.

He's going to see me eventually, I take off my jeans first, but hissing at the pain as I bend over to take the jeans off, Harry doesn't help which I'm grateful for, him letting me do this at my pace. Once my jeans are off he doesn't say a word, he just watches me in content as I take the rest of my clothes off.

I'm now standing here in just my underwear, Harry's jaw clenched as he eyes me and all my wounds, he pinches the bridge of his nose and shakes his head, he wipes his eyes, is he crying. God why is he crying.

"Harry."

"Fuck Luna, look at you." Does he want me to get dressed again, does he not want to look at my body anymore, I feel a little exposed right now, not quite sure what to do with the way he's reacted or what to think, my mind is racing over what to think.

"I'll get dressed, you get in the shower." I go to leave but he grabs me and spins me into him.

"I'm so fucking sorry baby, I'm sorry." he keeps mumling he's sorry into my hair as he strokes up my bakck. He has nothing to apologise for, this wasn't his doing, and christ knows what he went through tonight, I know he won't tell me straight away but I know he will eventually.

"It's okay Harry, come on, let's get in the shower." We both get naked, then step into the shower. Nothing about this is sexual, no matter how badly I want him to forget about everything and be inside me. Now isn't the time, I also don't think my body could do anything like that right now.

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A few hours later, after we showered. Kissing each other softly and both dressed our wounds we lay on my bed with Goose in the middle of us. A lot happened tonight.

"You okay." We've been sitting in silence for the last forty minutes, neither of us knowing what to say or how to go about asking each other.

"M not sure" he whistles, sending goose out of the room, then he turns to face me, I roll over to lay on my side, resting my face in my hand, staring at Harry.

"Luna talk to me" he looks so sad, his eyes don't have that sparkle to them any more.

"I don't know Harry, I'm trying to wrap my head around how to ask you about what happened but I don't think I want to know, but I should know" I close my eyes and take a deep breath, he doesn't say anything, so I carry on.

"I wanna know if my family dead not because I want to mourn them but I just want to know, like what the actual Fuck was tonight, I mean you killed Chris."

"The cunt deserved It for hurting you"

"Is Liam dead?" I ignore his comment as I have no idea how to even handle that or reply.

"Yes, they all are, baby" my whole family except max.

"Fuck, Max?"  I shot up, I forgot about him. How could I fucking forget him.

"Hey calm down, he's with Niall."

"At your house?" I question, Harry hates having people at his house when he isn't there, he barely tolerated me having Zayn over.

"Yeah, Zayns there as well, he knows what I do." I sit up, fucking my ribs.

"What" I stare at Harry, he opened up to Z, told him all about Arcane and everything.

"He knows about arcane, who runs it, what I did, and now I'm out.."

"Back the fuck up, your out?" Why is there so much information being thrown out to me right now?

"Yes, Jack's dead Arcane will crumble and I'm not taking over, so people will flock." He seems so nonchalant about all of this, how is he so calm.

"So that's it, Arcanes over"

"Yep, everyone's dead and it's done baby, I'm out" holy shit. He did it, he did what he said.

I straddle him to cuddle him, "shit sorry" he hissed out in pain, I went to get off but he pulled me back and hugged me.

I cry into him, this is all done. The jobs he has to go on, the murders, thank god. I'm also scared as to what was going to happen with everything else.

"What's going to happen with the house?" I sit up on him, he moves us so I'm still straddling him but he's sitting against the headboard.

"I have a few friends in the police force that said they'd help me, nothing else needs doing unless you me to pay for funerals"

"No, god no. I mean I know my family's dead and I have no clue how to think about it, they never really treated me like a daughter and they were more than happy for me to stay with an abuser than be happy, like I know they didn't deserve to do but they ran a gang, they traded drugs and murdered people Harry, I never spoke to them and the way my dad treated me after taking me from the club, he had no remorse." I take a breath before I carry on. "I mean the time I spent in that room, it was torture, I barely ate and all I could do with think, being alone with my thoughts was torture for me and my mum knew this, she use to take me to therapy and explain that I wasn't truly broken I just needed some extra support"

"You don't need to do this baby" Harry chimes in.

"I know but you need to know about my childhood, or the parts that I keep quiet" he nods, placing his hand on my hips and stroking up and down over the scars.

"The scars on my legs, the ones here" I use his hand to touch them.

"These are from myself, I would get locked in the same room, for days on end when I would be in an episode or not wanting to do anything my parents suggested , so I would black out and not even realise I was hurting myself until I had sort of woken up again, it was never my intention to harm myself, I guess it was my body's reaction to blacking out." Harry's face doesn't seem to look disappointed, which is what I usually get when people see the scars without knowing why I have them.

"You are beautiful, your scars don't define you as a person Luna, if anything they make you stronger, I don't look at you any differently for having these scars, and I won't from now on after knowing why they are there." he moves closer and kisses my collarbone, all alone my neck line.

"Harry, I love you."

"I love you." I kiss him, there is nothing sexual about this kiss but just being this close to him is so heartwarming, we end up cuddled in my bed, both of us aware of the shit storm that's coming once I see Max but for right now I want to be in this moment with Harry.

"We're gonna be okay, we've got each other and that's all that matters"

"I know, I guess this is just a lot for me right now, it's very overwhelming and I have no idea what to feel or think." he doesn't say anything, I don't think he knows what to say to me which is understandable.

He did just murder people and now i'm telling him about my self harm, god knows how he's feeling. We continue talking about my mental health and his, I make sure that he's okay. He tells me he's fine but I know it takes him a long time to fully say how he's feeling so I give him this.

He falls asleep before me, I just lay in his hold, tracing circles over his skin. Listening to his little snores. I slowly slip out of his hold and go into the kitchen, I just need a minute to compose myself.

Once I'm in my kitchen, I grab a drink and walk to my sofa, plopping myself down. I finally feel as if I can breathe and think.

I curl up next to goose, laying in silence really trying to grasp that Harry got out of arcane and my whole family is dead, do I want a funeral for them, I know I told harry I didn't but god, where so they go,

How am I supposed to tell Max that our whole family is dead?

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