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Chapter 46: Lovers Possession

"When you love someone,

You love the whole person,

Just as he or she is,

And not as you would like them to be..."

~ Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina ~

Khushi sat on the bed, trying to calm herself down. Her emotions were everywhere, she felt herself shaking, she felt warmed up even though she had just walked out of a cold shower. Arnav was so close to her, Khushi's heart went wild at his proximity. Khushi heard the washroom door open and Arnav finally came out..Khushi felt herself growing nervous as Arnav slowly takes forward steps towards the bed and soon he was before her..He had already changed his clothes.

Arnav let go of a deep breath in relief at the sight of Khushi. Khushi did not have to think hard to figure out that Arnav thought she must have left him.

"You thought I left?" Khushi asked looking at Arnav's intense eyes and to her surprise Arnav bobbed his head immediately in agreement like an obedient kid..

No more pretence..

" You don't trust me? I told you I will not leave.." Khushi asked calmly.. She has once deal with his possessiveness which once messed up their relationship, Not again...

" I... I trust you, but I still cannot believe in my destiny, my luck... Try to understand Khush, It's seems still a dream for me that you are here, beside me, with me, willing to give me a chance..." Arnav said sincerely and Khushi was little bit amazed watching this honesty in Arnav's eyes...

Slowly Arnav went towards the door and checked the lock...

Khushi smiled nervously thinking about the happenings till now and all the possibilities which can happen afterwards... She felt for one moment to run away from the room but one look at Arnav's eyes and her all fear flew away...

She has to build her trust on him, once again... otherwise; their relationship will not survive...

Arnav studied Khushi closely as he walked to her and sat beside her on the bed... Khushi gulp down the uneasiness as the air suddenly became tense around them...

"Trust me...Please.." Arnav just whispered those words while holding Khushi's hands into his bigger one.. and suddenly the night of her birthday 6 years back flashed before her eyes.. That night Khushi was heavily drunk and she shared her first kiss with the only man she ever loved, her Arnav.. That night, Arnav was in a mission to destroy her but still, at the end, he had protected her... Arnav did not take advantage of her...

Khushi remember... as if her thought was whispered to Arnav...

"I will never harm you.. Trust me... Just.. trust me...I.." Arnav was cut off as Khushi put a finger on his lips making his rant to stop.

Without further delay Khushi placed the food tray in front of Arnav and gesture him to eat. Being the annoying stubborn Rakshas that he was, he just nodded his head in denial.. Khushi knew he would not eat if she asked him to, so taking matters into her hands, Khushi got a spoonful of soup and held it close to his mouth. Arnav did not say anything , he did not question her for once, he opened his mouth and allowed Khushi to feed him.

But surprisingly Arnav took the spoon next from Khushi's hand before she could feed it to him again, instead he pushed it to her direction. Khushi smiled through tears and without arguing let him feed her. It continued till they finished the dinner. Khushi shivered a little, when Arnav's thumb slowly caresses her lower lips..Khushi slowly shoved his hands away, taking a deep breath she collected the food tray and kept it on the trolley at a corner of the room..

Khushi went towards the washroom and stands infront of the mirror..Washing her face Khushi looked through the mirror only to meet with Arnav's chocolate brown eyes.. Gulping down her emotions and the sudden dancing butterflies in her stomach, Khushi just stand aside giving space to Arnav..

Arnav entered in the washroom, cleaned his mouth and then wiped his face with Khushi's dupatta, he did it so casually as if he is practicing this for years..Then Arnav looks at Khushi and flashed his warm smile, holding a dazed Khushi's hand he came out from the washroom...

Khushi was battling with her emotions very hard... She is feeling that her heart would burst with overwhelming emotions which she is feeling for this man and the way Arnav is looking at her with those deep, dark brown eyes... His scent warmed Khushi's heart up a little more.

Khushi came out from the passionate web of Arnav when her eyes landed on the bruises on his face.. He needs first aid.. Khushi cursed herself for being so ignorant.. Slowly Khushi took the first aid box in her hand and took Arnav towards the comfortable sofa..

After finishing bandaging his wound Khushi looked at Arnav's eyes.. throughout the whole time, she was feeling his eyes on her but Arnav did not uttered a single word, not even whimpered in pain, when Khushi knew how much wounded he is actually...Suddenly Arnav stand up and went towards the cupboard, Khushi frown a little but soon she realised when Arnav bring a towel in his hand...

May be he needed to clean his hands once again... Khushi knew Arnav had the obsession of cleaning his hands.. But her eyes pricked when Arnav slowly sat besides her and started to dry up her hair..

" Your hair is still wet.. and You will catch cold Khush..." saying so Arnav again got busy drying her hair with outmost concern.. He did not even flinch once while using his wounded hands.. Khushi could not realise when her eyes became blurry and one after another tears started too rolled down...

" I missed you so much Khush.. So very much..." Arnav spoke only to hear by Khushi.. Khushi did not reply as if giving time to Arnav to express himself..

" Every single second I thought of you.. Only you.. and I just hope that you are safe and secure somewhere.. I had one desire that...." Arnav stopped speaking and suddenly turns Khushi towards him.. There was something so intense in his eyes that Khushi felt her whole body is shaking with overwhelming emotions...She could not help but ask, " You had one desire , what Arnav? What you desired?"

Arnav smiled and took Khushi's hands in his and kissed them softly without breaking his eye contact with Khushi.. then Arnav whispered,

"Zindegi badi lambi hai, katt jayegi...

Tere saath na sahi, tere yaadon ke sahare hi mit jayegi

Zaruri nahi har pal tera saath ho,

Ya tere haathon mein mera haath ho..

Meri khawaish bas itni si hai...

Ki jab bhi mohabbat shabd labon par aye..

Tere gaalon par laali aur Hoton par Muskaan aaye..."

~[ By  Tanushree aka ishqdinoorhai3   ]

[ Life is too long, somehow will spend, without you but with your memory. It's not necessary that you will be always beside me or with me, but I just wish that whenever the word LOVE appeared in your mind, you will blush with a smile]

Khushi froze in her place understanding the depth of Arnav's words.. She looked at him only to found tears in those mesmerising brown orbs.. with trembling voice Khushi asked , " and now what you desire Arnav? What is your heart's wish?"

Smiling through tears Arnav answered immediately,

"Chhupaana chaahta hoon tumhe apni aagosh mein is qadar,

Ki hawaa bhi guzarne ki izaajat maange,

Ho jaaun main madhosh tumhare ishq mein is qadar,

Ki hosh bhi aane ki izaajat maange...

Kahan jaaunga main tumhe chhodkar,

Ki tumhaare bina jab raat nahi gujarti, to zindegi kya khaak gujregi..."

[ By ~ Anonymous ]

Khushi closed her eyes unable to hold her emotions anymore...One after another tears rolled down from her eyes.. Soon she felt Arnav's hot breath on her nape and his lips were slowly sucking those tear drops...Khushi felt not only her heart but her whole existence is melting in Arnav's touch..

Arnav's love is giving her a new life again...Khushi wonder, who has got the "another chance" in life .. Arnav or She?

Her heart whispered, " Both"...

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Aman and Kuhu's bedroom..

Same time...

Kuhu and Aman were holding each other closely trying to catch their breath after their passionate love making few moments before.. Aman was placing soft kisses on his beloved forehead.. There was a peaceful silence lingering between them...

" Don't think much Kuhu... They will be fine.." Aman's soothing voice slowly reached Kuhu's eyes..

" This time, they both will get their happiness, right?" Kuhu asked while snuggling more towards Aman..

" I think so.. I am sure about one thing, Arnav will never hurt Khushi again, and he will die before he could ever think to hurt Khushi again..." Aman whispered..

" Those days were so beautiful, Aman.. We four... I had dreamed of about so many things about our future together... You and Me, Arnav and Khushi.. But everything spoiled.. Khushi just got vanished in thin air...Khushi did not even attend our wedding, she was not here when our Advay came in this world.. and Arnav was here but he was too far from everyone's reach.. None of his families or parent's pleads brings him back to life.. but now look... How he had again became the old Arnav..." Kuhu smiled.

" Because It's love baby.. Arnav always loves Khushi.. But years before few wrong steps and he messed up badly.." Aman sighs while Kuhu placed a soft kiss of his cheek..

" I want to ask you something Aman.. Arnav humiliated you so badly, how did you forgive him? I know you did not expressed but you had forgiven him years before.. Is not it? But how? Did not you felt betrayed?" Kuhu asked..

" Yes, I felt not only betrayed but I was shattered.. Initially I thought it was the end, I will not able to forgive him.. But you know what Kuhu, Arnav was not only my best friend or brother, but he was a shadow of mine.. In fact we both were shadow for each other.. Our relationship was so strong rooted that I did not able to move away from that idiot.. When he was in coma, I knew I will lose myself if something happened to him... I keep that distant with him, because indirectly it was a punishment for me to not able to protect Khushi and Arnav as well from that group of vile people.. I was punishing myself.." Aman said while his eyes became misty.. He felt a warm lips were kissing him slowly wiping the tears away.. His hold on Kuhu tightened..

"Thank you for always staying beside me.." Aman whispered.

" What to do, My stupid heart fell for you, you idiot.. and yes, I am proud of you Aman, the way you are..." Kuhu whispered back..

" I love you Mrs Kuhu Aman Mathur..." Aman said while placing a soft peck on Kuhu's lips..

" I love you more Mr Mathur.." Kuhu reciprocated back...

They broke the kiss and smile tenderly looking at each other..

" Not feeling sleepy?" Aman asked after a while..

" Let's dance..." Kuhu proposed...

Aman chuckled a little... his wife is a crazy woman...But she is his world...and he can do anything for her..

Slowly Aman stand up from the bed and offered his hand towards his wife.. Kuhu took it instantly .. " No music??"

" Wait baby... I am always at your service.." Aman replied and twirled Kuhu a little..

Soon the room filled with Arijit Singh's melodious voice..

" Aaj jaane ki zid na karo..

Yoon ki pehloo mein bainthe raho,

Aaj jaane ki zid na karo..

Haay mar jaayenge, hum to lut jaayenge

Aisi baatein kiya na karo..

Aaj jaane ki zid na karo..

[ Tonight don't insist on leaving. Keep on sitting close to me like you are. Tonight don't insist on leaving... Oh, I will die, I will be lost, don't say such things. Tonight....don't insist on leaving ]

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Guest room...

At the same time..

The melodious voice was filling their room.. Khushi hummed listening Arijit's voice...

" Who is listening song at this time? Definitely it's Kuhu's idea..Kuhu is really crazy.." Khushi said smiling remembering her best friend's face.. Kuhu's face always depicted her happiness and Khushi is really happy for her bestie...

" Because they are in LOVE.. and Amy loves her beyond everything..." Khushi's eyes snapped towards Arnav hearing his whispers..

" They are lucky, they found each other..." Khushi said while Arnav nodded his head but a sad smile spread in his handsome, bruised face..

" They are lucky because their circumstances was in their favour and Aman is always a good boy, unlike me.." Arnav murmured in a low whisper but Khushi caught it..

" You are not BAD Arnav... It's just that..." Khushi was cut off by Arnav, "That there was lack in TRUST in our relationship, from my side.. Right?" Khushi nodded her head..

There was a perfect silence lingered in the room, then Khushi whispered, "Make me Trust you again Arnav..I want to TRUST you, Trust on our relationship..." Khushi said and Arnav immediately holds her hands..

" I promise, I will EARN your Trust.." Arnav said softly while kissing Khushi's forehead.. His lips linger there for a moment while Khushi closes her eyes...

The soothing music touched them like gentle breeze...

" Tum hi socho zara, kyun na rokein tumhein

Jaan jaati hai jab uth ke jaate ho tum,

Tumko apni kasam jaan-e-jaan,

Baat itni meri maan lo,

Aaj jaane ki zid na karo.."

[ Just think for a moment, why should I not stop you... My life seems to leave my body when you get up and go.. I swear to you, my beloved, just agree to this request of mine.... Tonight....don't insist on leaving..]

Slowly Arnav parted away from Khushi and they looked at each other.. Khushi's eyes suddenly landed on the medicine box beside the food tray and she slaps her head...They both are so drawn to each other that reality seems alien to them.. Khushi shook her head and opens the medicine box to give Arnav his regular medicines.. She took his diabetic medicine and give it to him.. Arnav gulp down it immediately.. and look at Khushi, he frown a little looking at Khushi's pale face..

" What's wrong Khushi? What happened?" Arnav asked immediately.

" You tell me what's wrong? Why these medicines strip is in your medicine box Arnav?" Khushi said while gripping a bunch of antidepressant medicine strips on her hands.. Arnav's face lost his colour... He cannot tell Khushi that he tried committing suicide.. What if Khushi blame herself for his accident?

" Ohh.. Khushi.. I... I am insomnic, so..." Arnav trailed off..

" Since when?" Khushi's voice was cold.. and it scares Arnav.

" I.. I.. I had an accident and ..." Arnav said not looking at Khushi's eyes.

" Accident or your suicidal stunt?" Khushi finally put the bomb and Arnav looked at her wide eyes..

" How did you know? Wh.. Who told you?" Arnav said stammering..

" Does that Really matter? Fact is that You thought to KILL yourself.. Did not for once you thought about Ratna maa and Arvind Papa, your brother, sister, chacha, chachi and all of your other family members? Did not for once you think you are leaving them alone? You are leaving ME alone?" Khushi whispered the last part while her eyes became teary..

Arnav immediately hugged her and murmured numerous sorry.. " When my car came infront of that truck, I was frozen.. All I could think about you.. and my barbaric act towards you.. I was as if glued at that place.. I..I.. am sorry Khush.." Khushi hugged Arnav back and his shirt was socked with her tears...

" Promise me, you will never do such stunts again.." Khushi whispered.

" Promise me, You will Never leave me again.. Never..." Arnav said instead..

" You are still that same arrogant, spoiled brat.." Khushi whimpered while Arnav chuckled a little..

" I am.. I am the same Arnie , the same idiot who was and is madly in your Love.. I am still YOUR ARNIE..." Arnav said and kissed Khushi's hair gently..

" You have to promise me that you will never take these medicines ever again, then only I will promise you back." Khushi said while snuggling more to Arnav's chest..

" I had already stopped taking those pills, since..." Arnav finally broke the hug and look straight in Khushi's eyes..

" Since..." Khushi's voice dried up looking at Arnav's intense eyes..

" Since the day we bumped with each other in RM, when you came back again in my life.." Arnav did not broke the eye lock and said in a go.. Khushi shifted a little and kept the medicine box on table... She was burning under Arnav's intense eyes...

They did not say anything for further few moments, there were no words said, but Khushi realized that they did not need words to communicate their feelings any more.

" Waqt ki qaid mein zindegi hai magar

Chand ghadiyaan yehi hain jo aazad hain,

Inko kho kar mere jaan-e-jaan

Umr bhar na taraste raho

Aaj jaane ki zid na karo.."

[ Life is trapped in the prison of time.. But these are the few moments that are free by losing them, my beloved.. Let's not have a life of regret... Tonight....don't insist on leaving ]

Arnav took a step closer to Khushi, bent down and picked her up in his arms. Khushi did not protest, infact she did not have the heart to do so, instead she wrapped her arms around his neck. They stared into each other's eyes, refusing to break the contact, till Arnav walked them over to the bed and ever so tenderly he placed Khushi on the bed..and he himself sat beside her..

Khushi lightly blew on Arnav's face, at a bruise on his cheekbone, he closed his eyes. Khushi could not stop herself anymore.. The overwhelming feelings was killing her, she grabbed Arnav's face in her and kissed him. She felt the sudden urge, the need to be close to him. Arnav was hurt and Khushi wanted to take that pain away. Khushi knew this was not the way to do so, but she could not think of anything else.

Before Khushi's mind could precede more, Arnav kissed her back in urgency, as if he was waiting for her to initiate. He almost immediately took over the kiss. Khushi pushed Arnav back on the bed, losing herself in his scent and