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Chapter 10 : Because I Love You Dammit !!

" The minute I heard my first love story, I started looking for you, Not Knowing how blind that was...

Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.

They are in each other all along.

What you seek is seeking you."

~ Rumi

Flashback....

Six years and few months before...

XYZ Bar...

US...

Next Day Night ...

Day 10...

Sheetal Pov...

It's already 10 days gone. Only 5 more days and I will again win, I will again snatch everything from that chit of a girl, Khushi....

11 years back, my mother and I had snatched everything from her and now again, history will repeat...I never thought I will met Khushi again in my life face to face but seems our fate wants that..

I pity her, poor girl, suffering since she was 8 years old...Ha.. ha...I still remember that day when my mother crushed every damn thing which was once dear to her and made her shelter less..Her mother attempt suicide but failed and send to mental hospital, and she was forced to live as a orphan...ohh...that old lady, her buaji is there to take care of her but the void my mother created in her heart snatching her parents years ago is still fresh. I will just dig the old wound and make it so worse that she would never raise her head again, she will be finish...

And this time she has tried to snatch what is mine, ASR....how dare she, to come in between me and ASR...But by any chance are you all thinking that I am in love with ASR ?? Ohh.. come on...I have better things to do in my life... love does not exist for me... I like to play, and this time, ASR is my new toy, new Prey....

Since the day I have seen ASR, I wanted to have him, exclusively for myself..In initial days, I tried to lure him through my charm, but that egoist jerk rejected me. Not for once but thrice and I decided then and there, I will make ASR my slave...For the last 2 years, I had slowly but steadily spread my web to capture ASR...and he fall in my trap..

It was me who spiked the drink of his, to sleep with him but that Bitch Tina, she took him away...though I took care of her later on, but the most funny part was ASR... you have to see at ASR face...when he found out that he is no more a virgin....I enjoyed the look of the shock, fear, pain and embarrassment in his face ...even he had tears in his eyes...how funny...goody goody mumma's boy...

Then he started to avoid us, I mean, me, Veer and Raj's company.. Veer finally convinced him that no more girls will accompany us when we hang out, only we four... like a fool he believed on us, again..., because ASR trusted Veer a lot...and then, I had no other options other than to drug him...yes, I had used drugs...precisely Date Rape Drugs...Mainly I used Rohypnol and ketamine, because those drugs are available in this club...and then...I had him...only for two times though, because it was not fun, I mean, I was the one playing around and seduced him and that sexy hunk was lying like a log, just like a dead body, ...I felt humiliated... So, After the initial two times, I just make the set up look like, ASR and I slept together...the whole world and ASR himself too began to believe that he is sleeping with me, but truth were something else...I had my fun with some random boy in the same room where after drugging ASR I use to keep him..and in the morning, after waking up beside me, every time, every damn time ASR use to say the same, " how did this happen? I ...don't... remember... anything...is it true?? Why I just could not remember a single happening? Are you telling the truth Sheetal ??"

Every time, not his words, but the look on his face boiled my blood. Come on, you should be happy that Sheetal chooses you but no..., the ASR use to feel ashamed, after waking up beside me, every damn time he use to feel guilt and the unbelievable look at his face just made me mad more...

...So, I tried new methods, I mean I made him heavily drunk and seduced him but he never bend down until he got totally wasted... I did not enjoyed it at all, then, I tried to tarnish his image and I got success of course.

My minions willingly took parts in it..we use to made ASR get drunk or spiked him and then simply undress him........If, You Guys Think That, I Molested ASR, Then Yes....YES... I Did.. Not once, but every time...HE NEVER SLEPT WITH ANYONE WITH HIS OWN WISH BUT I MADE HIM MY TARGET, I MADE HIM MY SEX TOY WITHOUT HIS OWN CONSENT....and I am not at all ashamed about it.. Come on, ASR himself called it upon him... he refused me...ME ? The SHEETAL KAPOOR GUPTA ?? Because what I want, I get it, by hook or crook.. and I wanted ASR as my bed mate, simple...

In the beginning ASR was a free spirited, jovial, naïve boy..He used to flirt with girls but all were harmless...But he took the war with me when he refused me, the boys literally threw themselves on me and ASR had the guts to refuse me?? So, I thought why not to make the predator as my pray??..

He denied me, and I trap him..just like that... Everyone started to call him playboy, Casanova and the naïve fool he is, he started to believe that...besides his open flirting in campus proves the rumors true..ASR was and still is a naive soul, he has a child like golden heart, but his anger, immaturity, impulsiveness and ego these are his weakness. AND I USED THEM AGAINST HIM.....MADE HIM VULNERABLE...

But nobody, no one other than me knew the actual truth, not even Veer and Raj... because what lies behind the door, it should not come open right? ASR always tried to find a way to slip from my clutches and my determination use to become stronger...

Few months back he got seriously ill, because I had just increased the dose of those drugs and he could not take it..poor he...I forgot he was a diabetic, but thank GOD he survived..That Aman Mathur, ufff... another pain in my ass, because of him ASR survived...though it's a good news for me...but ASR was so ashamed on his deeds that he even hides the night out from AMAN...thank GOD..it's became a positive boon for me... if Aman got a single doubt, he would have spoil my plan....

But I must say, it was all possible because of Veer and Raj.. Actually we three wanted ASR, but for three different reasons.. Mine I had already told, Veer was jealous of ASR and Raaj wanted his money... so, we three made a team for our very "Nobel task", and best part is we almost achieved it...yes... Almost.. Because Khushi took an entry in ASR life and our set up plan started to fail...initially I thought to use ASR to destroy KHUSHI , so I kept quiet, but The ASR was hypnotized by that low market girl, for the last 3 months he is behaving like a love sick puppy and totally got out of our clutches..It's like Khushi became his new drug, he even fought with RAJ and finally totally avoided coming to the club...His every seconds were dedicated to that Khushi... But how can I allow that? Besides, The girl is none other than "Khushi"...my old "sweatheart"...

So, here we are, with our plan...to kill our two targets but with only one blow.....

My monologue was broken by HIS touch on my shoulder...our new partner specially mine...

Sheetal: " Is everything ready? Will it work?"

Anonymous: " trust me It will, they all are my trusted men, they will never fail...Tomorrow, our target will be alone, and at evening they will attack...just wait for few more hours. Now come on, don't waste the night thinking about them, I really want you now..." With that he attacked me like a hungry beast and I obliged...

Finally I can see my victory...

Tomorrow...It...is...

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Next day evening...

Day 11...

Khushi's Pov...

While coming back from college I felt so suffocated, so I thought to take a walk to clear my head... Now I am on my way back to hostel but my thought is still revolving around the same, Arnav....

It's been two days since that night Arnav pure his heart out.. Since then I did not met him, called him or messaged him... and true to his words he did not contacted me or came to my apartment...Today morning at college when accidentally I colloid with him, the longings and pain on his brown orbs bring a ache in my heart. But still I avoided him...Though I am sure about my feelings for ARNAV, I like him.. yes, I like him....probably its more than like but I don't know will I ever be able to trust Arnav or not....

The last two nights I did not able to get an ounce of sleep...Arnav's revelation took away my breath... I tried hard to keep myself from sobbing, but I failed. Tears were flowing like a cascade... I wanted to scream but I could not. I am too exhausted for that.

I was thinking about my life, how drastically it changed in last 3 months since when I met Arnav and specially when I accept him as friend. Slowly he has crawled into my heart and make a special place for himself, I don't know how and when I started to rely on him.. His every gesture of care, affection melt my heart.. I was a lonely soul, for the last 11 years I was fighting for myself .. alone... in a deserted road, yes, My Buaji is there .. always as a guardian ... and after coming here , I found Kuhu , not only as a friend but as a soul sister...but still there was a loneliness seeping within me. And unfortunately or fortunately Arnav started to fill the void..

May be it's me, myself allowed Arnav to reach into my heart....at the beginning I was always confused why I even interacted with the playboy in the first place... But there was something, something so special about Him that attracted me towards him without my conscious effort..I knew I am falling for him ..may be already fall deep for him...the feelings I carry for Arnav can not be just affection or attraction, it is more...Like him, I too wanted to spend my every second with him, probably my life with him...but the revelation shooks me.

The thought of ARNAV and so many other women, it hurt me, it chocked me,it robbed my soul... I knew it is his past and I can not erase it, besides I was not in his life then...I can not say, he cheated on me or something, but am I ready to accept him with his past?? From my childhood, I am scared to love because the taste of betrayal in my younger age, made me vulnerable...I had trust issues...this is why, I am surprised, how I accepted ASR as a friend and allowed him in my life...but what had happened , happened .. I can not change it..

Now the question is what should I do?? I can not pretend that we are just friends.. Because after Arnav's confession, being friend with him is not possible any more..

"You made my world a better place Khushi" I remembered his words and automatically a smile curved in my face. Did he really mean that? As much as I came to know about him, he is a very impulsive boy..he has tantrum, anger issues, but he has a golden heart.. and his jealousy and possessiveness towards me, sometimes I got irked but eventually I accepted...

Now the question is not about him but me, will I able to accept him in my life with all the baggage's of past? Will I ever be able to forget those things?? Will I ever be able to lead a normal life with Arnav?? Every time I think about it, it's feel too difficult...Because it's not only about Arnav's night stands but his association with SHEETAL....

Sheetal...The name itself enough to spoil my days...she and her mother are like a storm destroyed my childhood and snatched everything years ago from me... I am still carrying the wound with me , still the 8 years old girl somewhere alive and craving for her parents, after 11 long years, my wounds are still as fresh as it was before...will I able to take another blow?? As per Arnav's confession, he had the longest relationship with Sheetal...they were too intimated that even after break up, Arnav used to hang out with her.. What if, Arnav leave me for her in near future, like he did with his other flings?? What if situation comes and Arnav choose her over me? Will I ever be able to take it? Will history repeat again? I feel my head will explode literally thinking about all these...

But, besides all these, there is one more matter, that is I am missing Arnav terribly..this two days without him seems like ages, like I have not had smiled or lived my life for years....In this two days, I realized, he has became a part of my life...I even question myself, what if Arnav did not shared about his past and we began to start a relationship? Will I broke up after knowing his past after getting into a relation with him? I respect and appreciate his honesty, but just because of his confession will I forget and accept him? I even felt sorry for him...but just feeling pity or respecting his honesty, can not be the base of a new beginning...no... never...

Will I be able to overlook his past and give myself totally in a relationship with Arnav ?? Is it his vulnerable state or my true feelings melting my hearts for him?? I am not sure... till now , I am not sure...I don't know what I will do next and how long I will fight with myself.....

Suddenly I felt an uncomfortable feeling...My instincts told me someone had been following me the whole way. But I ignored the feeling thinking I was being paranoid. It was very late so I was surrounded by darkness and silence, the traffic could not be seen miles from where I was because I was on a stranded street, away from the hustle of the main roads. This way may not have been the safest but it was a short cut I normally used to get hostel when walking.

My phone started beeping and my thoughts were distracted from the feeling of getting stalked. I checked to see it was Arnav. What did he want now?

"Hello?" I asked after receiving the call. But I did not listen why he called me instead I continued, " Arnav why are you calling me? Did not you promised..." suddenly somebody snatched my phone and pushed me on the pavement. An involuntary scream escaped my throat. I was pushed so hard my arm rubbed against the harsh concrete of the road that I fell on and started bleeding. I dread looking back to see who it was but I know I had to. I could feel trouble lingering around me.

I turn to see probably the creepiest man I had ever seen looking at me with lust filled in his eyes. He was probably the same age as me, the worst part is he was not alone, there was two other guys behind him looking at me in the same dirty way. I got fear.

Devi Maiyaaa.... I recited her name a million times as they took slow and steady steps towards me. With a disgusting smirk on their faces. I did not have to guess too hard to know what their intentions were. I had heard about a million cases of gang rapes in nearby locality and my heart sank in fright thinking about what could happen right now. I looked around to see if there's anyone around to help me but there was nothing. Nothing. I was alone.

" what... who are you?" I asked the stupidest question in hope to distract them for sometime.

The guy with my phone came close to me, too close for my liking and grabbed me by my hair. I could feel my hair being ripped out of my scalp because of the amount of pressure he applied. I screamed in pain. He made me stand, still grabbing onto my hair.

"Beautiful" he whispered and my senses were filled with the strong scent of alcohol coming from his breath. I shivered hearing him, his gaze made me tremble in revulsion. I tried pushing him away but his hold on me only get stronger.

I pushed, kicked, punched, scratched wherever I could in an attempt to hurt him and he dodge all my attacks with perfection. My protest was only making him angrier, he tried to get me to stand still but I was not giving in. I kicked him HARD in a place he did not want to get kicked in and my ear drums were showered with the sound of his painful screams. His hold on me loosened and I made a run of my life, but to my dismay there were two more guys around who grabbed me before I could run. I tried to protest again but I alone was not enough for three of them, they surrounded me from all sides and now, there was nothing that I could do.

" Pl.. please let me go.." I was crying. I was terrified.

"Why baby? You don't want to have fun?" No you bastard. I want to rip your head off.

" Please let me go" I begged..

He laughed before walked to me and pulled me closer to himself, he pushed my head closer to his own. I closed my eyes dreading the worst to happen but suddenly could no longer feel his touch on me. I was out of his hold. I opened my eyes to see him almost being strangled