I come back into the house, only to find Min yoongi sitting at the couch again, with a chic but irritated expression.
My face turns red as he faces me, after I remember what I said at Jimin's house. I quickly try to go into my room,
but of course, who is my big brother without trying to pick a fight with me.

"Where the fuck did you go this late in the night."
He demands as he blocks my way in my doorway.
"Its none of your business you asshole."
I say with my face avoiding eye contact with him. He runs his hand through his slightly damp hair, and lets out a lifeless sigh.
"Were you with that muscle pig again?"
I give him a quick sharp glare, and look back down. "What if I was."
Yoongi slams his one hand against the door frame, blocking me completely and shoves my shoulder.
"Did you guys have sex?"
My face gets heated and I push him back in an inmature gesture, but I couldn't care less.
"Is that something you should be saying to your baby sister??"
He scoffs at my attitude, which he should be used to by now, and rolls his eyes at me saying,
"You're actually using that sister thing to me? If you are my real sister,you'd respect me a bit more."
"Well blood related or not I would respect you more, if you aren't such terrible example of a brother; or even a human being to me!!"
I can see his ears turn red and he's pissed off really bad now.
"You know I actually TRIED when we were younger. You're the one that was being a bitch to me all the time."
"Thats because you kept on mocking me and teasing me when we hadonly just met!"
"I was just trying to get close to you..Jesus."
"Yeah, by making fun of me in front of my friends and disregarding my discomfort... and don't you fucking forget that time you--"
"OK SHUT UP I APOLOGIZED ABOUT "THAT" ALREADY. HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO REPEAT IT??"
Our argument is never going to end.
We always fight about the same topic when it gets more serious; on the topic of why we hate each other. Everytime we fight, its mostly filled with anger and distaste for one another, but there is always a very small part, i dont know about him, but in me, that wants to reconcile. I'm sure that that is the reason why our fights peak so high in tension all the time. So that we could end in a final resolution, which never, ever happens.
"Anyway, if you know our relationship will always be shit, why do you even care that much on what I do in my life??"
He makes a sudden movement as if he wants to hit me or i don't know, something, and I face him straight on in confusion. He stops the gesture, and turns back around to the couch, mumbling,
"nevermind."

Its monday morning when I realize its already summer break.
I rub my eyes, feeling odd because of what I had happened yesterday.
What was I thinking!? Unconsiously saying yoongi's name outloud.
I pat my self on my chest an assure myself that its probably because I thought about him alot because I despise him.
I shake off the gross feeling and text Jimin to clarify about yesterday.

Y/n- Hey Jimin... I'm sorry about yesterday. I actually looked forward to it :(  (9:37am)

Chimchim- Nah its good babe. Its not like you'll stop being my gf or something aha (9:38am)

Y/n- Thanks for understanding, I just thought of something that time... its not your fault okkkk (9:38am)

Chimchim- Ok don't worry about it :) You excited for tomorrow? (9:40am)

Y/n- I guess.. I don't really enjoy parties haha..
(9:40am)

Chimchim- Well I think its nice that we can go socialize as a couple and show off you know :)
(9:41am)

Y/n- Yah tru.. Ok I think i'll go and get ready for that then. its at 8:00pm right? (9:42am)

Chimchim- Yeap! (9:43am)

Y/n- Okee! Imma talk to you later then. Byebye (9:43am)

Chimchim- <3 (9:44am)

Right when I ended the text convo with jimin,
Haerim calls.. Probably about yesterday.

["SO Y/N DID YOU DO IT YESTERDAY????"

"Um... he did light foreplay on me and..."

"AND??!???"

"...I fucked up."

"oh... oh no what did you do?"

"Ok. Don't think that I'm weird when I ask this."

"I wont. What is it?"

"If I called someone else's name unconsiously when i'm making love with my boyfriend.. was does that mean..."

"Omg. Did you do that??"

"Yes I did!!! I know I fucked up what does it mean girl???"

"...Are you that stupid or..?"

"Ugh I know Im an idiot just answer me.."

"It means you're thinking of wanting to have sex with the person with the name you called,
or even worse,
you actually like that other person rather than your boyfriend."]

Shit.