New Orleans, Louisiana
March 17
Onika

"It's mandatory, get to the dining table right now."

Beyoncé picked up Luxe, covering her up with her pink blanket and grabbed Cavalli's hand, walking behind me.

"Baby your butt-"

"Don't start."

"It's so fat."

"Giselle." I looked back at her. She didn't say anything else, just followed me to the table.

Kelly, Taylor, and DeQuan were already seated. Makayla sat at the smaller table and when Cavalli saw her, she ran over. Bey put Luxe in her high chair beside my seat.

I went in the kitchen and Beyoncé followed.

"Beyoncé what do you want?"

"Why do you have an attitude? I didn't do anything to you."

"Mhm hmm."

"You acting out for nothing. I didn't do shit."

"Uh huh. You gon get the hint and walk away or not?"

"Not." She grabbed me by my hair, pulling me backward into her body. "I don't understand why you have an attitude and I asked you. You didn't say shit so I assume there's an issue right down here."  She slid her hand inside my shorts. "Tell me I'm wrong."

"Mommy!" Cavalli came in the kitchen and thank God because I was about to say fuck it and let her have me.

"Damn cockblock." Bey moved away from me. "Weren't you just playing with Makayla little girl?"

"Auntie Kelly wants you."

"Tell her to wait, I'm doing something."

"Come on Princess, let's go sit down."

"Uh uh, finish what you started." I grabbed her hand, watching Cavalli walk out of the kitchen.

"Definitely would but you just proved to me why you had an attitude. What did you make?"

"Food but that's not what you're eating." I smirked and started bringing out the plates for everyone.

I loved serving my fiance but not to the point where I'm her slave, I liked that she appreciated me but I also loved working. I missed working.

"You gon' feed me." She followed behind me.

"Oh I'm gon' feed you, just not food."

"Onika you gon' starve me?" She asked. I handed them their food then started to prepare the food for the kids. Cavalli don't eat shit but chicken nuggets and chinese food.

"Feed my baby." I pointed to Luxe who was banging the palms of her hands on the high chair.

"Feed me!"

"I am."

I sat on her lap as she fed Luxe. Luxe was just babbling and continued arguing with Bey. Luxe loved arguing for no damn reason.

"Little girl, eat your food and stop arguing with me."

"That baby is so cute, why don't y'all have another one?" Kelly asked. DeQuan leaned into her ear then had her giggling like a schoolgirl. I didn't think anyone would have her giggling like that.

"I'm about to throw the fuck up, ew." Bey pretended to gag.

I popped her in the mouth. "Watch your mouth. The babies."

"I'm sorry."

Kelly and DeQuan were sitting across from us being disgusting. He was all in her ear and she was just giggling and holding his hand. I could literally choke.

"Girl is that how we look to other people?"

"When you're home, that's exactly how we look to other people."

New Orleans, Louisiana
March 18
Beyonce

"Come on baby girl." I grabbed Cavalli's hand, helping her out of the backseat of the car.

I decided that I wasn't going to go back to Los Angeles today. I needed to spend time with my firstborn, show her that I do love her because I know I haven't been home a lot. I knew she had been talking to Onika about it, Onika told me. My goal was never to make my baby girl feel like I didn't care or I wasn't around.

"Momma, why isn't Mommy with us?"

"I wanna talk to you about something. You're a big girl and you can handle it now."

"Handle what?!" She yelled.

I picked her up and kissed her cheek. "Stop yelling mama. I'm gonna tell you when we get some ice cream."

"I want some ice cream."

"Then we gon' get some."

When we got our ice cream and we were seated, I just laid my head on the table and made faces at her as she giggled continuously.

"Whaaat?"

"You sound like your Mom."

She nodded her head then continued to make faces at her. She couldn't even eat her ice cream without laughing. "Stopppp!"

"Okay I'm sorry. Now, you're a big girl, right?"

"Yes."

"And you know how I proposed to your Mommy, right?"

"Yes!" She leaned in over the table. "Sometimes we plan the wedding in the living room."

"Oh really?"

"Yes. Mommy put white and lavender and gold together because she said the silver would overdo it."

"Your Mommy knows how to decorate but forget about everything she said. I told you that you were a big girl so I really hope you can keep a secret."

"From Mommy?"

"Yes, from Mommy."

"That's hard. She knows when I'm hiding something. She's like freaking superwoman."

"I know right. She does the same thing to me. But this secret is a good secret."

"Mommy said there are no good secrets. She said tell her everything."

"Not this one. Anything else, you can tell Mommy but what I am telling you, you cannot tell her."

"Okay." She said, widening her eyes and turning her head to the side. "If it goes left, you're in trouble."

"Alright smart ass."

She looked up at me like she couldn't believe I cursed at her. Like she had never heard me curse before.

"What is it Momma? The anticipation is killing me."

"What did Mommy tell you I was doing while I wasn't home?"

"She said you were handling business, making money to support us."

"And that's true but what Mommy doesn't know is that she's getting herself a surprise wedding."

She yelled then put her hands over her mouth. "Can I be in it?"

"Of course. Luxe too. But you know, your Mommy is still building back her body from having the baby. She might not feel comfortable right now. I want you to help me with the rest of the process."

"Okay."

"You know that means being away from your sister and Mommy to come with me, right?"

"Uh huh."

"You sure? Or you just wanna see the outcome?"

"I wanna come with you."

That made me feel good.

Even though I knew Onika would like to plan her own wedding and I know she has been, with the help of Cavalli, I could get her ideas and combine them with mine. It won't take long because I know Onika. When she starts to plan, the woman will work herself to death. Especially if I'm not there to stop her. And I haven't been. I know she has lots in that vault and she loves to vent. Cavalli is the only one in the house that can understand her so of course she's the one she vents to.

When we got back to the house, I ended up carrying her because the ice cream and the playing had her tired so she was ready for her nap.

I opened the door and Nika was walking around the living room, trying to put Luxe to sleep. Luxe was faintly crying but I knew she was on her way to sleep.

"Just like her sister."

"I didn't even know y'all came in." She said, she took Luxe's pacifier from around her neck then placed it in her mouth. "How was it?"

"She's ready to go to sleep."

"This one too."

"Perfect."

When they both went to sleep, neither of them would stay asleep unless they were up under us so we had them in the living room with us. I had Cavalli laying on my back and she had Luxe in her arms.

The only thing on my mind was this wedding. There were so many parts that had been already put together and so many things that I had to switch up and so many things that weren't even touched.

This was no regular wedding. This was a badass, revolutionary wedding that I thought would never in a million years happen. The conjunction between two women completely free of everything. I never thought it would happen in general but especially not to Onika.

I had to make sure my fiance felt accepted at her own wedding and myself, because this was my day as well. It was well deserved and the elements were so complex. Everything had to be perfect. I had to put on a show. I just had to, it's absolutely mandatory.
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