Continued...

"Beyoncé stop!"

"Oh this ain't Beyoncé baby, you preaching to the wrong choir."

Camille has tears in her eyes but I really didn't give a damn. She came in here wanting to be bold so the bitch can bite me.

As soon as she got to her feet to run, I kicked her and she fell right back to the ground.

"Baby please stop."

"Onika shut up."

I felt her little hands on me. "No. Cavalli watches everything you do. I know you won't stop for me, not right now but please stop for Cavalli."

Because I still had her by her hair, I yanked her closer to me until she was in my face. I pushed Onika back slightly.

"I swear to God if you come around us again, imma kill you." Imma kill her anyway but at least she thinks she controls her own death. Stupid bitch.

A crowd had formed when I forcefully pushed Taylor's head onto the floor, making her hit it hard. Too fucking bad. That bitch can die for all I care.

"Bey-"

"Where's my daughter? We're going home."

"Look." She pointed.

Cavalli had her face pressed against the window and she was crying. Shit.

I rushed inside and scooped her up. She started bawling with her head on my shoulder.

"I am so sorry baby." I kissed her cheek.

When we got home, I figured it was more important to talk to Cavalli right now. She was the one that was crying and communicating with her seemed like the right thing to do.

"Can you tell Momma what she did?"

"You ruined my Benihana night." She wiped her tears but leaned into me anyway. "I had you and Mommy. We were okay-"

"We've always been okay baby."

"Nuh uhn! I didn't know you were my Momma for a long time. We weren't okay then."

"How old are you?"

"I'm six Momma. You already knew that! You were at my birthday party!" She giggled.

"I was. Let me tell you... a story. There was a time where your Mommy didn't trust me and she didn't want me around you." I pushed her hair out of her face. "She thought that I wouldn't treat you with the respect I hadn't been shown as a child. She thought Momma was a bad parent."

"What does that have to do with tonight?" She asked, poking at her covers.

"I know you think that tonight was your fault and you think that me not seeing you was your fault too but it's not. Neither of those situations were your fault. Tonight Momma just got a little angry."

"Mommy kissed her?"

"No. She kissed Mommy."

"So why were you mad at Mommy?"

"Something else happened and Mommy was in the wrong so I'm giving her the cold shoulder."

"You should let Mommy explain. I miss you guys."

"What do you mean? The two of us are always here for you. We're always here."

"Who was that lady?"

"Mommy's friend."

Her eyes bulged. "YOU KNOW MOMMY'S PREGNANT!"

"I know baby. I'm gonna go talk to Mommy then I'll be back and we'll plan our next trip to Benihana."

"I already did! You owe me!"

I nodded then left. I went in Nika and I's room and she was sitting at the end of the bed, crying. I wanted to continue being mean to her but I hated it when she cried. That's how she got me.

"What's your issue?"

"What's MY issue?! I know you've seen those headlines already Bey."

"I haven't actually because I don't give a damn. The thing I care about is my fiancé's EX having the balls to kiss her in my face. She kissed you twice!"

She flinched. "Please don't yell at me."

"I'm not going to hit you Onika. I'm over that stage in my life. This isn't about me. This is about YOU missing that bitch and kissing her back. You kissed her back."

"You've gotta let me explain because you're just coming up with scenarios that don't make sense."

I stayed quiet.

"I went to her house because she told me it was something really important and I know she doesn't have anyone else. I knew something was hurting her even though she's my ex. I knew you wouldn't approve so I kept it away from you. I knew you would fuck me to keep me away from her."

"I genuinely don't see the fucking issue Onika."

"She wanted to talk!"

"Why you yelling? We're talking. Don't yell at me Tanya."

"Please forgive me. Kissing her was never part of the plan. When she kissed me, I didn't wanna kiss her back but it was just a reflex and it was only for like two seconds. She made it sound like we made out when that's not the case."

"But you didn't fucking leave Onika. Even after she kissed you and showed you 'I just want some pussy from you', you stayed."

"Because I just thought the kiss was only a spur of the moment thing, that it was just an emotional thing. She told me she had cancer before that so..."

"Bro she does not have no damn cancer."

"How you know?"

"Look, that's not the fucking point. Say the roles were switched. You would go the fuck off if I kissed another bitch. If I even looked at another bitch wrong."

"It's different. I didn't kiss her baby."

"You're missing the point. It doesn't matter if you kissed her. You stayed. What would have happened if I didn't come? Y'all could've ended up having sex or worse, you could have gotten taken advantage of. It isn't that I'm going off because I don't understand you, I'm going off because of what DID happen and what COULD have happened. Do YOU understand what I'm saying?"

"Yes."

"What?"

"Yes, I understand baby. Do you forgive me?"

"I don't know."

She straddled my lap. I had to restrain myself from ripping her leggings in half and showing her that she's mine and nobody else's. I was still pissed at her.

"Please?" She whispered in my ear, leaning in close and holding my face. "I apologize and I feel really bad. I should've told you."

I knew what she was doing. She used to do this to everybody else but me but now that she's doing it to me, I can understand why they submitted to her. That pussy got some power.

"Onika..."

"Baby it won't happen again. I didn't mean for it to happen this time. I should've listened to you."

"This is what's about to happen." I sat her down on the bed beside me. Because I knew she nurture me, I sat between her legs, facing her. "If you're working with Taylor, I'm there because I don't trust her and frankly, you need to earn my trust back too. You will lose any and all contact with Camille. I better not hear anything about you doing shit."

"Okay."

"I'm not playing."

"Okay."

"Cavalli needs you right now. When you come back, we can talk about the baby."

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"I feel like I'm spiraling. You know? It happened and I have the right to be mad at her. I don't think she understands that."

"What do you mean?"

"She expects me to just stop being mad at her when she wants. It's my fault because I spoil her like a baby but she acted like I couldn't read her. If Camille hadn't called me, would I have even known about that kiss? I don't think so."

"Have you talked to her?"

"Yes. She explained everything but I'm not over it. She's too damn nice to people. She thinks she has to be nice to people and that's her issue. She keeps giving chance after chance after chance like people aren't genuinely out here trying to hurt her or take advantage of her."

"So you want her to be mean? Like you used to be?"

"No. I just want her to be aware of her surroundings. She doesn't pay attention. When she has her eyes set on one thing nobody can tell her differently and that's not okay. If something is bad for her, she should see the other side. She's too hellbent on one thing."

"Do you trust her?"

"Not as much anymore because the fact is, she kissed back, she stayed, and she let her touch all over her. How she think that made me feel?"

"Why don't you talk to her how you talk to me?"

"Cause regardless, it happened. I can't change that. It is what it is."

"Obviously not if it's weighing on your heart. You're hurt, I can hear it."

"She did me so dirty. I had problems, shit I still got 'em but nothing like this."

"You think you can forgive her?"

"Yeah, of course but right now, I don't even trust her. She's not a bad woman, not at all, she's just stupid."

The entire situation hurt my heart. Onika didn't feel comfortable enough to tell me about this woman. She felt like she had to sneak around. I know damn well that's not my fault. This was top three in hurt for me. It went Nana, Tina, Onika. Each situation killed me in a different way.

"She's pregnant right?"

I smiled. "Yeah. I want a boy."

"You got a name?"

"Yeah."

"See? You get excited about babies. Is Onika just the vessel?"

"No." I shook my head quickly. "I can't put my babies in just anybody. She's the only woman I want to have my children. I proposed to her for that very reason. I wish I could give her everything. Make the planets revolve around that woman."

"So do you think that trumps the situation?"

"Call it what it was Ms. Boe. She cheated. Do I think my love for her trumps that? Yes. In this situation but I'm still mad."

"And you get real aggressive when you're mad."

"I'm not going to hit her again."

"Tell me some good things about her. Anything that pops up into your head."

"She's beautiful. Those deep ass dimples that I'm sure both of our children will have. She's intelligent. She's reflective. She's selfless. In times of absolute need, she can go crazy. She got amazing pussy-"

"Beyoncé."

"What? You said anything. I should've said that shit first. Like her shit cla-"

"The details?"

"You grown. Listen."

"No, we are here to talk about why this problem is happening, not how good Onika's pussy is. Now yes Onika fucked up but your love is passionate, your love is deeper than oceans to come. I want her to come see me alone. Don't tell her anything. I just wanna talk to her."
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