Cayman Islands
April 3
Beyoncé

"Five years is a long time. I wanna know what you were doing in my absence." I said then grabbed Nika's hand, pulling her into the tub with me. She had her back to me and I had my hands on her stomach.

"I was taking care of my daughter and not long after I had her, HE came into my life. I knew he was in the life but I didn't care. I decided that I would be his anyway and he promised that he would keep me out of the life so he kept his promise."

I rolled my eyes and she looked back at me, smirking. "You don't like hearing about him, do you?"

"I don't. If I could kill that nigga again, I would."

"Mhm hmm, I know baby."

"Keep going."

"Well at one-year-old, Cavalli was starting to look so much like you, it was crazy. There wasn't a day where I could go that I didn't think about you because of how much she looked like you. It made me sad because she didn't even know who you were but happy because you were her other mother."

"So at one, why didn't you tell me about her?"

"Would you have changed your life if you would have known about her a year after we broke up?"

"I don't know."

"Exactly and I needed you to be as sure as you were when you actually found out she was yours."

"I can understand that." I pulled her closer.

"Tell me what you were doing."

"The same thing I was doing before and while we were together."

"I never asked you, did you have sex with anyone else when we weren't together?"

"Of course I did. I was looking for someone that could fuck me the way you did but I couldn't find anyone-"

"Obviously. This pussy is magnificent."

"I know."

"How many women did you have sex with?"

I shrugged. "Like ten."

"It took you ten times to give up?"

"That's good for five years."

"I had sex with ONE person for five years. Ten is not good. Especially since the bitches you fuck are all strays."

"Strays? They aren't dogs."

"Why you defending them?" She turned back to me.

"I'm not, I'm just saying. Anyway, how else was life without me?" I rubbed her shoulders and she exhaled, relaxing into me.

"It was stressful at first. I was always worried about if you were okay, if you got killed, or if you got locked up. My heart always wanted you to be okay and if you weren't, I didn't know what I would tell our daughter when she was old enough to ask those questions. Then he came into my life and I started to feel better but it was always in the back of my mind 'is she okay?' 'does she miss me?' 'should I tell her about Cavalli?' and it just always made me treat him the way you treated me when you weren't being disrespectful."

"Damn."

"Yeah, I learned a lot about myself in those five years."

"Like?"

"Like, I deserve better which is why I didn't let you disrespect me the way you thought you were gonna do when you came back. I learned that my daughter was the light of my life and I would never let her go through what I went through with you. I learned that I'm my own woman and I could control everything in my life. I learned that I can and will do whatever I want with my body."

"And who taught you that?"

"Life."

I nodded. I wanted to stop talking now but she continued the conversation.

"What did you learn? I know you learned something."

"I learned even more that you can't trust anybody. I'd almost been killed so many times in the last five years by people that I thought I could trust. I learned that nobody got you like you got you and to not believe anything anyone ever tells you."

"Then you haven't learned shit Beyonce. You're still thinking pessimistically."

"I'm not, we're here aren't we? I trust you and I see that I can trust more people now but not too many because it makes me look like a pussy. No thank you. It's okay though, Ms. Boe is teaching me so much too."

"Where did you meet Ms. Boe? I really like her."

I sighed. "Nana. She's the daughter of one of Nana's friends and anyone that Nana trusts, I trust wholeheartedly."

"That's sweet."

"Mhm hmm."

She laid her head back against my chest. Her eyes were closed and she looked so good without makeup on. I don't think I've ever told her how good she looked without makeup.

She got out of the water and I just stared. When she started to put her towel on, I told her not to.

"Just walk around like that, I'mma stay right here."

"You gon' stay right there 'cause yo dick hard. I'm not dumb, I know you like the back of my hand." She leaned over the sink to grab some of her products.

"Oh please, you love this dick."

"I do."

As she washed her face, I stared. She loved the attention, she craved it so she gave me a show without me even having to ask for it.

"It's so pretty."

"Beyonce! Stop it."

"I'm just telling you the truth. It's so damn pretty. Too bad I'mma fuck it up when we get back."

She shook her head at me as she started to apply her makeup.

"Uh uh, no makeup tonight."

"Baby what if we take pictures?"

"Doesn't matter. You look good without it. No makeup."

She nodded her head and put the products back. I got out of the jacuzzi and wrapped a towel around my body. I stood behind her, holding her waist.

"How you doing on this wonderful night my love?"

"I'd be doing better if you kissed me right now."

I grabbed her by her neck and tongued her down, hard. She moaned in my mouth and held my biceps. I pulled away and went right back to laying my head on her shoulder. She held her hand over her heart. I could feel her heart beating fast as hell.

"You doing better now?"

"Mhm hmm."

The plans for tonight were to take her to the Cayman Crystal Caves. I knew she was gonna be scared because it looked like this.

Then I was taking her on a helicopter ride over the Cayman Trench. I heard it was beautiful. The last thing we were doing was going to Camana Bay to eat. I wanted to show her a good time before I made her feel EVEN better by proposing to her tomorrow. I already knew what was gonna happen after that. I was gonna give her some good dick, she was gon' love it, and not be able to walk the next day.

When we left out of the house, I couldn't keep my eyes off of her. She looked magnificent. She was glowing and all.

"You always staring at me." She said once I opened the door for her to get in. I got in next to her. I hated that her dress was so long. I couldn't do a damn thing if I wanted to fuck.

"You're my wife, of course I'mma stare."

"I'm your wife?"

"Yeah."

She smiled as I closed the door. "Okay."

As soon as we got to the caves, she wanted me to carry her.

"Baby please! I don't wanna walk!"

"You are just as spoiled as your daughter. A real nigga come into your life and you want me to carry you-"

"It's not that deep, just carry me."

"I'm not carrying you just for that."

"Yes you are." She held her arms out and closed her eyes. "Come on baby, I know you soft. Stop tryna act hard, nobody's around."

I picked her up bridal style. She smiled at me and kissed my cheek.

"Thank you Daddy."

"Mhm hmm. Baby you know you have to get down to actually enjoy the caves."

"No I don't, you just have to follow my directions. It's cute already."

I walked inside and she got scared. I knew it.

"It's gon' fall on me?"

"Girl no. Why would I bring you somewhere where things are going to fall on you?"

"Because you don't care about me."

I shook my head, putting her down. "Stop acting like your daughter and walk."

"She act like me." She mumbled, walking in front of me.

I already knew she was a handful but I couldn't wait to marry her.

I looked at her as she looked around. I had already been here, I just wanted her to experience it for herself.

"This is so beautiful but I still think it's gonna fall on me." She looked up and around.

"It's not gonna fall on you mami." She smirked at me as we walked around the whole cave.

When she started to go too far, I grabbed her by her waist and pulled her back. "Where you going without me?"

"I'm not going nowhere without you, I'm right here."

"Go ahead." I let her go.

Her phone rang in my pocket as she walked. It was Kelly but I already knew it was Cavalli.

"Yes Princess?"

"How'd you know it was me Momma?!"

"I know my daughter."

"Is that Cavalli?" Nika whispered. I took the phone away from my ear and nodded my head. She took the phone away from me and they started to converse. Her face lit up the moment they started talking. I loved their connection. They talked the entire way through the tour.

When we got out is when she finally got off the phone with Cavalli.

"You didn't even pay attention while we were in there."

"I did but my Princess was having an emergency that only I could fix."

"And that took two hours?"

"Yes. She'll tell you why when we make it back home." She smiled at me.

I held her hand while we got back inside the limo. We were taking the limo to the rooftop of a close by hotel so we could take the helicopter over the Cayman Trench. She didn't know any of that though so the moment we went back to the hotel, she was confused.

"Why are we back here? I didn't know the night was ending so early."

"Oh it's just getting started my love."

**

"Obviously you just like to sightsee."

"It's a beautiful place to see." I leaned over and kissed her cheek.

"And the people here are so nice. It's like they come from all over."

"It's not like that, that's what it is. People do come from all over."

"Mhm hmm."

She took off her seatbelt and I bout jumped out of mine to put her back in hers. What in the blue hell is she doing?

"Onika... sit down."

"I am." She pouted.

I moved my hands and she sat on my lap, forcing me to wrap my arms around her. I laid my head on her back, calming myself.

"Baby look!" She yelled. "It's a eel."

"How the fuck can you see that? It's all the way down there."

"I got great eyesight. You didn't know? I see everything boo."

At the end of the night, I took her right back to the house, on the beach. She had changed into this black and white striped bathing suit and she looked gorgeous.

"Put that one up here crybaby." I told her.

She smiled back at me and took the bucket of sand, placing it where I told her to. When she went back to the water, I took the ring out of my pocket and put it on the highest tower of the sandcastle. I sat beside it and waited for her to see it.

She came back and her focus wasn't even on the castle. She looked at me and sat between my legs, hers over mine.

"Hey."

"Hey beautiful. Your hair is wet."

"You can wash it for me."

"I can do that."

She focused back on the castle and gasped. I knew she saw it. I grabbed her arm and pulled her back to the position she was in.

"Don't touch it, let me say what I gotta say first."

"Okay."

I blinked to keep myself from crying. She brought her hand up to my face but I just held it.

"I don't think you know how good of a woman you are to me. I knew you were the one for me when my Nana said she liked you. It was all in her aura, she usually didn't like any of the girls I had around me. I knew you were different. You made me better and you still do. You're my better half, you keep me on my A game when I'm not on it. I made compromises with you that I don't do with anyone else. You're the type of woman that makes a person think about if they wanna be with you. You are so much woman to handle, you are an addition and an addiction all in one. I am so proud to call you mine. When I first saw you with Kaylin, I knew something had to change, I knew I had to get you back 'cause there's nobody better than me for you. I lied earlier about what I'd been doing with my five years. I made sure you were okay. The card that you never gave back to me, I continued to put money on it just to make sure you always had something. I figured you were smart enough to figure out if it worked or not. I'd been seeing someone else besides Ms. Boe and she taught me but not like Ms. Boe does. She taught me how to admit my wrongs. She taught me and pushed me away from my abusive tendencies. I wanted to change and come back and be a better woman for you than anyone else could be. I was lost without you. Loving you healed me, loving you mended my soul and it made my pain easier to deal with. I will take my love for you to my deathbed if I have to. I want you to be my wife. I want you to have ANOTHER one of my children. You are the only woman I want to be with, the only woman I want to bare my children. I see truth in your eyes, I trust you wholeheartedly, you hold my heart in your hands. It was so easy to love you once I figured out how it worked. THIS is why you're here, this is why I have you here. Will you marry me Onika?"

"Let me check that ring sis." She looked at the ring again then held out her hand, trying to distract me from the tears rolling down her cheeks. "Oh you know it. Put that shit on me."

I chuckled and shifted the ring onto her finger. I pulled her into me, bringing her into a deep, passionate kiss.

This woman was the inspiration for everything positive I've ever done. In this moment, I was saying goodbye to the old Beyonce, goodbye to Lucifer. I was a new woman just for her. She is the love of my life, my reflection, my favorite person, she's who I do it for. She's mine.
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