"Do you want me to sit beside you?" Taehyung asked as you sit down on the table for lunch.

You look up to him and smiled, "Yeah, sure."

He stared at you for a while before he sat beside you, putting his tray infront of him. Jimin pouts across you as his eyes goes back and forth from you and Taehyung.

You're not sure if you'll tell him everything that happened but seeing him right now, you know he's already formulating something and it won't be that long before he comes up with a theory. And with Taehyung never leaving your side and always has his eyes on you, Jimin will go nuts in a minute now.

"Are you guys dating now?" He says, his eyes turning into slits as his arms fold against his chest.

And his observation is done, here goes his conclusion. You felt awkward, the heat comes up to your face and got stucked there. You try to find Wendy in the crowd for distraction because you don't know what to say to Park Jimin.

"Only if she agrees." Kim Taehyung replied.

"So you want to go out with her for real?!" Jimin screeched that made you shut your eyes tightly.

"Yes." The boy sitting beside you said while you lowered your head.

"Why? I mean, do you like my best friend?" Jimin sounded confused at first but later on, he sounded more interested.

He's so interested in it that you felt like you want to here Taehyung's answer too. Will he tell Jimin that its because of Jungkook? Or will he keep it to himself? Is he going to lie that he really likes you? Because Kim Taehyung liking you feels surreal, he's from Australia, he came here like a month ago, the administrator's son and will he admit that he actually likes you that's why he's doing this?

Seems impossible to hear.

"Because she needs me." He answered seriously.

There he goes again about you needing him. The more he says it, the more you want to shield him away from you. The thought of hurting him scared you, it made you guilty although it was just a possibility for now. He doesn't need to be in this mess. He doesn't need a complicated life because of you.

He doesn't need to fix you. Because you won't let others fix you. You wont. That's your job and not his. You are not a liability. A responsibility. An obligation.

You sighed, "I'm sorry, I have to go. I need to do something. Kim Taehyung, you can stay here." You said before standing up and leaving them.

Maybe if you distant yourself a bit, he wont push it. Maybe, he'll just leave you alone. Maybe you'll save him from the damage you can bring him because the truth is, his offer was tempting. His offer would make everything a lot easier. Use him for a cover up and hopefully, you'll be okay in the end. It was so simple but you know its not the right thing to do.

He doesn't deserve any of that.

You swallowed as you decided to go to the library. Its lunch and the hallways are pretty empty, and the library would be the place for you to think peacefully.

You got there and was greeted by Ms. Ley. Her light yellow cardigan wraps nicely on her petite frame as she sat on her desk with a sandwhich in a plate.

"Y/n, its been a while." Ms. Ley smiled, "Im so glad you visited."

"I came here two days ago but it was already closed." You said as you sign in.

Ms. Ley nodded, "Well, enjoy reading."

Walking in a room full of shelves filled with books, you found an empty table for yourself. A couple of student sat far from you with their laptops infront of them and wearing an earphones. You shrug as you scroll on your phone.

You jolt when you felt hands on your shoulders. You put your phone down and glance at person behind you. At first, you saw a black jacket, then a skinny jeans then that timberland boots.

Jeon Jungkook.

He pulled out the chair beside you and sat there. He slides a sandwhich on the table to give you. "You haven't eaten, right?" He asked, a brow raising.

You just looked at him, his eyes are glowing again. He looked lively again. He even can stretch his lips into a smile and his voice sounds strong and soft again.

So this is her effect on him? You smiled bitterly on yourself. Of course, he'd be in joy afterall they got back together yesterday.

"Hey, I'm sorry for everything. I know I made you feel uncomfortable." He says.

You swallowed a lump in your throat. Why is he saying sorry? Does he even know what you feel after he said that? You felt insulted. You felt ashamed. You feel so low.

"You got back with her. That's great. I have to go." You said and quickly stood up, not waiting for him to speak.

You left him sitting alone and his sandwhich on the table. You felt heavy again. You pass by Ms. Ley who smiled on your way but you couldn't get yourself to smile so you just gave her a curt nod.

Deciding on where to go now, you found yourself inside the gymnasium with the volleyball players training for the upcoming competition. Your hear their shoes screeching on the shiny floor and the sound of the palms smashing the ball.

You sat on the lowest seat of the bleachers and watched them. Some students were also in there, mostly people who's also a part of the varsity. You can also see some guys wearing basketball jerseys sitting not to far away from you.

A ball rolls towards you and nudge your feet. You look at it before picking it up to give ut back to the volleyball players. You look up at the player who jog her way towards you. 

You froze when you recognized that almost porcelain doll in front of you. Her hair in a ponytail and innocent eyes batted with it long thick eyelashes.

She smiled at you, "Our ball." Even her voice sounds like an angel that came down from heaven.

So this is the girl he loves. Standing in front of you made you feel so little, it made your insides sick and churn. You've never felt this way towards a person, not even someone like Taehyung who had his life completely way better than yours.

You felt intimidated, is that the right word for what you're feeling right now? For she is the greater good and you're just yourself. She's so high, so high that she can match Jeon Jungkook.

It made you felt insecured. For you will never be like her. You won't even come close to her greatness. No matter what you do, you won't pass Jeon Jungkook's standard.

You smiled bitterly at her as you stretch your hand, "Here."

Her smile widened. Her perfect white teeth came in view and you swore it shined. "Thanks."

Her eyes had that twinkling effect too. How is she so perfect? She jog back to her teammates who stood there watching you both.

"Focus on the ball, Lee Ara and stop thinking about things that are unnecessary!" Their coach shouted.

"Yes, coach." She said inmediately.

Her teammates chuckled and patted her back. "Who wouldn't be preoccupied with hot boys surrounding her?" A brunette girl smirked.

"Are you thinking of Son Ji Ro?" A tan girl said while their teammate took the service.

Your brows furrowed at what the girl said. Son Ji Ro? Who is that? Shouldn't her name be acquainted by Jungkook's?

"It's not like that." Lee Ara denied, shooking her head.

"But I saw you talking in the locker room." Another girl said. "He was even boasting about your number to his teammates!"

"That's some good catch, Ara." You recognized the girl from the sports competition from last time, the one who had her drink spilled all over your white shirt.

"Im pretty sure she's thinking of Jeon Jungkook!" A girl with short black hair shrieked.

Your thoughts were being mixed up when you felt your phone vibrate on your pocket. You fish for it and saw a message from Yoongi.

From: Min Yoongi

Meeting's at 1. Where are you?

Your brows furrowed before taking a glance at Lee Ara who was shaking her head all this time. Something felt wrong. And you're sure you're going to find out about it before this day ends.

You went out of the gymnasium and walk to the journalist room. You saw all of them seated around the table. Taehyung immediately turn to you the moment you walk in the room.

You saw an empty chair beside him like he really reserved it for you but you still tried to search for another vacant seat even though you know its probably impossible since all of them are already seated.

You sighed as you walk towards Taehyung. He smiled softly at you, a flash of sadness in his eyes.

"Where have you been?" He asked the moment you sit beside him.

"Gymnasium." You answered then you focus on Yoongi who was talking infront.

A fest will be held a month from now and every organization or club are obligated to help in the preparations. Yoongi discussed where we are designated and made your team mates suggest for the designs while you get lost in your thoughts with everything you heard in the gymnasium.

Everything is about Lee Ara, Jeon Jungkook and that Son Ji Ro. You didn't want to conclude yet because you still don't know the whole story but something's formulating in your mind. Could Lee Ara possibly be cheating on Jeon Jungkook?

God, you hope not. Because Jeon Jungkook loves her purely. And he certainly doesn't deserve being cheated on.

But you can't rule out the possibility that it was the cause why Lee Ara wanted out from their relationship days ago. She could be confused.

But why would she commit to Jeon Jungkook if she likes this Son Ji Ro then? When did this Son Ji Ro even came in the picture?

You pulled out your phone and immediately texted Jimin.

You:

What's the connection between Son Ji Ro and Lee Ara?

Park Jimin immediately replied back.

From: Park Jimin

Bitch, I dont know.

You:

Ask around.

From: Park Jimin

Look at you commanding me like you're my queen. Okay, I'll ask around.

You put your phone back inside your pocket. And focus on Yoongi.

"I think the dance club will be helping us on our station." Yoongi nodded on Sharlene.

"The preparation will start two days from now, I expect that you buy all the things that we need for those who assigned to buy. That's all, meeting adjourned." Yoongi said and all of us stood up from our seats.

"That was a long meeting. Yoongi talks so slow, it's almost our dismissal. Should we go home now, Y/n?" Taehyung said as he stood beside you.

You gather your things and turned to him, "I can't go home with you today, I have some things to take care of."

Taehyung beamed, "It's okay, I can wait." He said.

You shook your head. Taehyung, please, this is the only way that I can spare you from being hurt, you thought.

"You should ride your car today. I really can't come with you, today." You said, pained.

The look on his face was disheartening. "Oh, is that so. Okay. I'll go then." He said before he turn his back on you.

You slump yourself on you chair as you wait for him to leave the campus. You were guilty of doing this to him but you know you have to do this to distant yourself. Hurting him now is better than hurting him in the future because you know that would wound him more.

You rode the bus home. Still busy thinking about Lee Ara. And Jungkook of course. You're worried for him. You quickly went to your room and turned on your computer.

You quickly search for Son Ji Ro's social media. You saw a guy with black hair, fair skin with pink lips and thick eyebrows. He's wearing the varsity jacket of your school. This guy is from your school!

The guy was popular with thousands of followers in twitter and instagram. You even saw his last tweet and it had Lee Ara's surnane and her firt name initial. Did Ara chose this guy over Jungkook. Obviously no, because you wouldn't see Jungkook hugging her if she did.

It was insane. Does Jungkook know anything about this?

Your phone vibrated and you saw Park Jimin's message.

From: Park Jimin

Bitch this is some tea. So this game from the dude's classmate and she told me that this Ji Ro guy has been crushing on Lee Ara since forever. Last year, they were rumored dating but stopped when Lee Ara denied it. Everyone was quiet since much of the people knew now that Lee Ara was dating Jungkook but everything surfaced again when she was caught in a coffee shop with Ji Ro. The rumor's pretty subtle about them.

You put your phone down as you sighed. Jeon Jungkook what have you gotten yourself into? Even though the image of the angelic Lee Ara was tinted in you mind, you still cant help but to give her the benefit of the doubt. But if she ever make a mistake, you don't know what you're going to do.

If she ever waste Jeon Jungkook, you sure will do something.

You saw an email notification in your laptop that caught your attention. The sender caught your attention. You immediately opened it with a fast beating heart. Your eyes read what was written inside it.

Dear: Y/n,

Congratulations! It is our pleasure to inform you that you have been accepted in International Grammar School Sydney! You are, therefore, eligible to enroll for the school year 2020-2021 as a senior high school student. On behalf of the faculty, staff and student at IGS, we are excited to see you in our campus.

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Okay, now, now, settle down kids. I've been breaking down a lot these days and Im just feeling so sad. I cant eat, I oversleep and dont want to go to school. I even dont want to write but I cant do that. This is my dreams we are talking about and I am ready to kill just to have it.

Its just so hard that I've always been on the top, an achiever and now I feel like Im a loser because everyone was so better than me. But its okay. Maybe its time to be an average now. I just have to pass this.

I might update slowly because I'm studying for my entrance exam in college for next year as well as I am busy with my academics right now since Im already a senior. If you're thinking why Im already studying for my entrance exam when Im going to take it next year on September well because its all or nothing, this is my dream university since I was a kid and I can only take the exam once in my life. If I can't pass it my dreams will go to waste so wish me luck on my reviews.

P.s. give me lots of love while i am away because that could fuel me to update ;))