Warning : Depressing talks
Y/N's POV

I woke up in the middle of the night as i felt a weight on me , i looked beside me and noticed jungkook's sleeping face right next to mine.One of his arm was over my stomach while another one was below my head..

How did this happen?? Did we sleep like this?

On the side table i saw the food that jungkook bought me earlier , it was still untouched..
I looked back at the man beside me ...again

Last night when he said he cares did he really mean it??does he really care about me now?
I noticed the earrings in his ear and couldn't help but think

Is it even possible?? Can he really kill someone? Are you really a murderer jungkook??if yes then why do i feel so safe around you? Why do i feel so secure around you?why did i cry only when you were with me ?why?... i thought to myself as i snuggled closer to him , i turned around as my back faced his chest and brought his arm in front of me ,i held his arm tightly as if i was afraid that he might leave or go away..
I couldn't help but smile to myself ..

(They are wearing clothes ok.. dont freak out)

Taking a final glance at his face i closed my eyelids waiting for sleep to engulf me...
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I woke up as the sounds of bird chirping , i squinted my eyes as my blurry vision started to clear and it was then when my breath got hitched,Jungkook was just right in front of me only an inch apart , his doe eyes staring right into mine ;

eyes that make me loose myself , eyes that make me want to know more about him, his hand moved from my waist towards my face and i flinched at the touch if his hand on my face... he started caressing my cheek with his thumb as we both stared deeply into each other's soul...

His eyes trailed down to my lips and my heart and breath raced at their very peaks..
the hair on my neck stood at their very ends as his hand moved to my neck and i couldn't help but feel good at their touch...

Is it wrong? To feel like this ? Is it wrong to get comfortable like this? Is it wrong to like the feeling i am experiencing at the moment??

He closed his eyes and pulled me closer positioning his lips in plane with mine, tilting his head he moved further closer and i exactly knew what was about to come as i myself inched closer to him..

until..... the earrings caught my attention and
"Jungkook!!" I whispered making him furrow his eyes in confusion
"Its late , you need to leave for work" i said averting my gaze as i finally moved away from him

I think he realised what he was about to do as i noticed a blush creeping up his cheek...
He quickly got up and made his way outside my room while i sat there on bed thinking what could have happen if i hadn't stop him ...
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It was evening already and i was here sitting by the pool... boss had told me to skip work for a while until i feel better , he told me to take as many days of as i want to..

He is so kind and considerate ....

I was thinking about yesterday and that how everything had changed in such a less amount of time..
how i lost my parents 6 years ago , then junghyun 1 year ago and now my sister...

What have i done to deserve all this?? Is God not happy with me?? Or is he testing me for something else?
I was engulfed in my thoughts when a sudden sound of bell pulled me out of my thoughts

"Hey y/n? Your friend yoongi is here to see you." Said tae as i saw yoongi walking behind him..

tae just gave me a nod and left leaving us alone as Yoongi sat beside me
"How are you feeling?" He asked
"Empty so empty that i just wanna kill myself.. There is no purpose of my life anymore." is what all i could say as a tear escaped my tear
Yoongi was quick to kneel in front of me as he wiped the tear off my face and made me look at him
"This is not the y/n i know, my best friend is stronger than this girl" he said as he held my hand tightly
"See y/n i know you have seen alot of things in your life and i understand but you need to be strong and what is this that you want to kill yourself?huh? Who is gonna support me now? Who is gonna cheer me up now?hell!!who will i annoy now?" Yoongi said as he scanned my eyes..
"But yoongi, i c-can't this is just too m-much for me." Tears started to roll down my cheeks ..
Seeing me cry he quickly pulled me in his embrace as my soft sobs turn into whimpers..

"Its okay , i am here with you and i will always support you." We sat like that for a while before min Yoongi broke the silence and said "by the way why don't you file for a divorce now?" and continued " i mean he forced you to marry him by threatening you with your sister,Now he doesn't have any thing to threaten you and so you can file for a divorce!" He finished

I felt my heart stop for a while at Yoongi's words.. i didn't think about this before..i know he was right .. Now with SungHee gone jungkook has nothing to blackmail me with and i dont have to worry about my job since i am no more in his company...

but still why do i feel different?why did my heart stop for a while at the mention of his divorce?
Brain: believe it or not you have developed feelings for him
Me: b-but ...

"What?" Min yoongi asked pulling away from hug
"Don't you think i am right?" He asked to which i didn't reply and just lowered down my gaze
"Hey look at me!" I heard him say as he raised my head above making me look at him..
"Don't tell me y/n !! Are you possibly falling for him?" His voice came out low yet confident
"NO!!THAT'S NOT TRUE" i snapped and continued "i still have some business left." I told him
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I still have some business left , i had said this too yoongi earlier but do i really have a reason to stay??
No i really don't ... i can really file for a divorce and then it will be over finally ... everything will be over ...Jungkook , this marriage everything...

I felt a sudden pang in my heart as i thought all this ... but then... but then i realised something.... maybe i do have a reason to stay

If i ll get a divorce then who will collect proofs for boss, i still need to collect the proofs against Jungkook.
I have promised Boss that i will help him so i can't leave like this..

Brain:are you sure this is the real reason you need to stay?
Me:yess!!
Brain: or is this just an excuse to stay with him because you cannot accept the idea of leaving him..
Me:—-

Too many feels ? Enjoy 😝😝
Shabiha