every tear that falls is one step closer to getting stronger, not weaker.

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Cameron's Journal
Entry 1

I don't think there's such thing as fate. Well, scratch that. I think the world just gives us these people/things to either teach us a lesson or to help us.

But why are the good things being ripped away from me?

It's Sunday, July 28th. Blake, my very own brother is leaving. I don't get it! Did I do something wrong? Did I play with my dolls too much? I swear I only played with them like twice this week. Ask Sierra!

It's not just my brother leaving, it's also my two other best friends. Kaydon Murphy and Ty Shruder. Sierra, of course, is heartbroken over the fact she's going to lose her best friend. And her little crush!

Oops, ignore that if you're Kaydon reading this. :)

Parker is going to lose her nonbiological brother. Her best friend since day one, Ty. She's also going to lose her two other nonbiological siblings, Kaydon and Blake. She's going to be crushed.

It's sad that they don't know yet. I'm in the closet reading this sheet of paper I found for Blake, Ty, and Kaydon. My dad was never a favorite in the family. Mom used to tell me that he isn't worth talking to. Now I see why.

He's a monster! These boys are leaving for who knows how long! I couldn't stop reading it. The words replay over and over again and I couldn't feel anything. I just felt heartbroken and betrayed. They chose this over us. Over this group we call family. The unforgettable six.

Tears are probably staining these pages, I'm sorry. I don't want to lose our friends. I don't want them to go. Who's going to race us to the ice cream truck every Sunday? Which boy will we do a make-over on every Tuesday? Who will win in our annual football and volleyball games on Thanksgiving?

The girls can't win without the guys playing!

We're gonna lose it all. Everything.

I don't even care about the wet, fat tears splashing onto the page. I can hear dad and mom screaming at each other and I just want it all to stop. I want everything to pause and just freeze for this one moment. Not even for long, just for at least a minute so I can say goodbye. So I can hug him one more time.

Ty if you're reading this, I love you bro. Even though you hate admitting you love me but I know you do. ;)) I'll always be with you buddy, I promise.

Ew, never do winky faces again I feel like a weirdo.

I hear Sierra and Parker running around searching for me and oh, more shouting coming from mom. "Frick you, Harry!" "You don't care for this family!" I'm used to this by now and it's kinda sad. The yelling was 24/7 and I'm gonna have to deal with it on my own. Blake won't be here to hold me or cover my ears. Our family isn't exactly stable. We're literally falling apart.

And I think that's the reason why I'm crying more now and why I don't believe in fate.

Fate wouldn't rip apart our family.

-c

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A/N

ouch. :( poor cam

you guys are going to love her. shes the sweetest soul and so AMAZING. cant wait for the next chapters!!

put some song recs pls <3

-s