Naya's P.O.V.  

I was going to kill him. 

That fucking Darkling. He was going to die. One way or another.

Troubling thoughts clouded my mind while the calm lake before me failed to subside the turmoil bubbling up inside me. A week passed had by within a blink of an eye.

 My existence seemed meaningless without my wolf, the physical strength, heightened sense and my strength, was all gone. I was discharged a couple of days after waking up but Adeya, kept me under heavy medication. 

Supplements, she called it, all kinds of Vitamins and Calcium that humans took.

I started to get tired quicker than usual. People walked everywhere here and so did I when I had my wolf but my body physically would shut down after a mile. Hence, I was stuck at Oceans' house. 

My parents were staying with the Drakos family but my mother came over every day, babying me. I was an Alpha for Goddess sake even if I didn't feel like it anymore. I was always cold even though spring had taken over. I felt lonely and empty inside.

Worse, I couldn't feel Ocean any more. The mating pull wasn't there but I didn't dare tell him that. He was already riddled with guilt and I didn't want to add more pressure on him. It frightened me, honestly. 

I couldn't feel his presence when he was near but not in sight like before, I couldn't feel his lingering emotions anymore. Tears repeatedly kept leaking from my eyes. I tried to hide them as much as possible but I knew, deep down, I was deteriorating.

My bones felt heavy, joints popped with every movement and a constant headache that never allowed me peaceful night of sleep.

The hallucinations stopped too. Another information I hid from Ocean. Any ties I had with the spirits were severed. Sometimes, I cursed the Spirits for leaving me there to get tortured by a sick sadistic immortal. 

It took a while for the seriousness of the situation to sink in. When my family found out the truth about us, they didn't believe it until my father spoke to LoRusso and saw the pictures that Ocean hid in his room back at the Quarters.

It was uncanny how much we looked alike. The picture contained 18-year-old Ocean, Jace LoRusso, Isiah and 17 years old Lea and me. In the middle, Ocean had his arm wrapped around my waist while his other one hung over Jaces' shoulder. 

His hair was cropped to its roots and a big smile stretched across his young face. I had my arm around his back and the other one around Isiah. He kept his hand on my shoulder and the other one held on to his back pack. 

I looked happy. The lean of my body against Ocean indicated how intimately involvedwe were. Lea looked shy beside Jace, holding onto his arm.

In the background, lockers were stacked up against the wall. The exact same ones that appeared in my memory.

It reminded me of my old friends in high school, only difference was these friends still held on to the memories of us. The old us. Where as in this life, my other friends could care less if something ever happened to me or Macey.

Feeling helpless, I threw a rock in the still water. It plonked against the surface before the water swallowed it whole. The waves reflected soft sunlight every time it managed to the break through the clouds.

 My life resembled everything opposite of what was in front of me. The mountain and the trees on the other side of the lake remained still where as everything in my life was in chaos.

Everyone was terrified. We'd never heard anything about a werewolf losing ones' wolf and continue living. Lea was yet to arrive. They didn't want to make any impulsive actions that could jeopardise their pack. 

Apparently, she figured out how the Darkling found us. How he always finds us. Only this time we had protection against him, even if it were for a short period of time. Ocean told me that the power of Talisman weakens over time and a new must be replace the old one before the shine disappeared completely.

Lea managed to obtain quite a few Talisman with longevity but it's been years. Frankly, I was anxious to meet this woman who dedicated her life to the mysteries of her best friends' death. I wished I remembered her. Ocean spoke very highly of her and it made me realise that they helped him pull through after his parents' death.

"Did you meet you parents from your other life?" Ocean hadn't left my side since I woke up in the hospital. It felt odd to see the fierce emotionless Alpha to be sitting on a checker sheet next to a picnic basket.

"I did." He was lost in his own thoughts just like me. Did he miss me? Did he miss not being able to feel my emotions? Did he still have the mating pull? So many unanswered questions but not enough courage to ask.

"How were they?" I wondered about mine too. I wondered about all my other lives. Oddly enough, I missed getting the memories.

"I was still with my parents when I first met them so it was a very territorial tug and pull but they had to accept I wasn't their Ocean. In all honesty, the parents we have, the friends, they will always change. The only thing that's constant is you me and The Darkling." He received more memories than me, therefore he had seen our families from different lives.

"What about mine?" I loved my parents. They provided me with everything I ever needed and more.

"You didn't like them. They actually didn't even realise that we were sleeping together before either of us turned 18." Shocked, I turned my head towards him slowly. A ghost of a smile touched his lips. "Okay, so because we grew up in the same pack, we were very connected. I felt it when you shifted and you did the same. Lea told me that I practically slept at yours and your parents never even noticed."

"OH MY GODDESS!" They mustn't have been good parents. "My dad would have killed anyone I brought home."

Suddenly, he grew, sitting up to his full height. Angry waves vibrated off his body. "NOT, that I have, just that they were very protective." He deflated like a balloon. A loud sigh of relief brought him back down. Shaking my head, I turned back to study snowy mountain tops.

"You see behind that hill?" He tapped my shoulder before pointing to the smallest peak. I nodded. "There's waterfall there. When I was young, I always went there with my friends after training. We were only 12 or 13, I always wanted to take my mate there." His sounded sad, knowing he wouldn't be able to do that anymore. I couldn't walk that far let alone hike up anything. I didn't say anything to that, didn't know what to say.

We sat in silence. I was surprised by his comfort level towards me. In some level, he was still a stranger to me, now more than ever. Without the connection, I didn't know what I was supposed to do. I was used to him not talking, not being around but ever since my attack, he's been there, constantly.

He put his hand on my back. "How are you feeling?" He asked me that every day. I pretended to be calm and collected in front of him and everyone else but I was far from it. I was dying inside, battling with the trauma of what had happened to me.

"I don't know." Was my only answer every day but I decided to something more. The truth. "I want my wolf back."

"We should get back. Lea is on her way." He didn't miss a beat. I knew he was doing everything he could, to figure out what was going on. On the way home, I noticed the heavy growth of his beard, dark circles under his eyes and slimmer frame.

My heart sank. He was suffering too. Even without the mating pull I felt attracted to him, felt sad seeing him in such a miserable state. Sighing I rested my hand on his tense thigh. 

The muscle jumped under my hand. I hated that I couldn't hear his heart beat, hated that couldn't see farther and hear anything over or under the natural human hertz.

He wove his fingers through mine and kept the other hand on the steering wheel. I was looking forward to meeting Lea. I just wished it was under better circumstances. 

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I just wanted this bit before Lea comes to show you guys how she's coping. Yes, of course she will be calm and strategical. She's an Alpha. But her outburst is yet to come. Just wait.

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