"Damn, it's hot as the devil's ass out there!" I half yelled when Don and I entered our hotel room, which was a hut that sat above the blue ocean water. I started stripping from the tank top that I was wearing as it was now sticking to my skin along with my shorts. "Babe, come fan me." I said to Don. "With what?" He asked. "I don't know. Find something." "Get your sweaty ass in the shower." He shrugged. I glared at him. "Don't look at me like that. I'm not the hot one, you are." He smirked before stretching his tall ass across the bed.

I threw my wet shirt at him and walked off. "You can kiss my sweaty ass." I mumbled. "Don! Stop!" I screamed and swatted him away. I was bent over turning the shower water on when I felt his lips on my left buttcheek and his hand was squeezing my right. "Why? Didn't you tell me to kiss your sweaty ass?" He laughed. "Well, yeah but I didn't mean for you to actually do it nasty." I stood and pushed him away.

"Gimme a kiss." He demanded and puckered his lips. "No, you just kissed my ass. Get away." I tried to step in the shower but he stopped me. "You kissed me before when I did it." "When was this?" I wanted to know. "That time you sat on my face and you got to squirming like a fish out of water, my tongue slipped a-nd I licked your crack-" "Shut up!" I cut him off.

"I'm just saying. It may have been some accidental ass eating that day but you still kissed me after I finished tearing that pussy up." He smirked. I tried to hold in a smile but I couldn't and I burst out laughing. He leaned in and kissed me as soon as my mouth opened. "Ah ha! Got my kiss nigga!" He started dancing. "Bye Adonis." I stepped into the cool water and proceeded to take a shower.

After showering, I didn't know what I wanted to do so I put my swimsuit on and some shorts to cover my bottom. "Where do you think you're going?" Don asked from his spot on the bed. "I don't know. I think I'm going to get Junior from Nana and take him to the beach." I climbed in his lap and slid my hands up under his white beater. He began running his hands along my exposed sides. "You better change into a full one piece suit if you're going to the beach." "This is a full one piece." I rolled my eyes. "Yeah but it's too sexy." He said. "And?" I smartly asked. "Change it." "Bye Adonis." I waved him off and got up to get my flip flops.

I walked over to the hut that Nana was staying in and passed Tati, Alayna and Ant who was carrying Junior on his shoulders on the way. "I was just on my way to get him. Where are you guys headed?" I asked. "The beach." They all replied. I turned in the direction they were going and followed them. While Tati and Alayna were playing in the water with my twin, I stayed behind to play in the wet sand with my baby. Trying to teach a fifteen month old how to build a sand castle was clearly a bad idea.

"No! Junior don't you dare kick that down!" I yelled as he lifted his foot. He looked at me with a small shovel in his hand and sat his foot back on the ground. "Thank you." I smiled at him and continued building the castle alone. It was a shame that I was enjoying this more than my kid. "Ma!" Junior got my attention and I popped my head up at the same time to see him kick down part of my sand castle that I had just completed. I stood up and his eyes became wide and he turned and started running.

I went to go after him but Don caught him. "Don't yell at him, he didn't mean it." I said. "Yes he did. I watched you two the entire time from when he first tried to kick it down. He purposely did it." He said. "Don, he's only a year old." I pointed out. "And your point? He's old enough to understand right from wrong." "Look, us arguing about this isn't doing anything. He probably won't even know what you're yelling at him for now." I sighed. "Stop babying him." "Tell Nana to stop babying your overgrown ass and then you can come tell me to stop babying my child." I grabbed Junior from him and walked off. "Like your dad does to you?" He yelled to my back. I stuck my free hand up in the air and flipped him off.

Don had some nerve to tell me to stop babying Junior when his ass was pushing thirty and his grandmother still treated him like he was ten. Just because I stopped him from scolding him didn't mean I was babying him. There just wasn't a point to yell at him for kicking the castle down- it wasn't going to last. I ignored the comment about my dad doing the same to me and to keep from a full blown argument with him I chose to walk away. We were on vacation and nothing was going to ruin it.

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The beat of drums and bongos filled my ears as the natives of the island performed for us. Both men and women wore grass skirts and head pieces of all sorts, dancing and singing. It was pretty fun to see. Each of us got a chance to learn one of their traditional dances and danced along with them at one point. I didn't want to go too hard with the dancing because I was feeling a bit uneasy due to the baby. Of all times he or she wanted to wait until now to really bother me. I took a seat but quickly stood up as a wave of nausea settled in on me. I moved to the restrooms quickly.

I exited the restroom only to come face to face with my twin. I groaned internally. "You okay?" He asked me. I nodded my head yes. He stared at me for a minute before squinting his eyes. "You're a liar." He stated. "How so?" I asked him. "You're not alright. Britni we shared a womb, I know when something about you is off. Tell big brother what's wrong." He grabbed my hand and we started walking. "We were born at the same time so how could you be older?" I asked. "They pulled me out first meaning I was in the world a few seconds longer and then your nagging ass came attached to my belly so that's how. I was 'Baby A' you were 'Baby B' and A comes before B so I'm appointed as your big brother. It's unofficially official." I looked at him in confusion. "Just pretend I didn't ask." I laughed and shook my head because he didn't know any better.

We were almost back to the festivities of the night. "Twin I told you to talk, tell me what's wrong." Ant spoke. "Nothing. I'm just tired." I told him half of the truth. "Are you sure that's it?" He glanced at me before looking straight ahead. I thought about if I wanted to tell him or not. I mean, he already knew I was lying so I should just tell the truth. "No." I bit my bottom lip. "You're pregnant aren't you?" I remained silent, giving him my answer. "That explains why you ran to the bathroom and your weight gain. Does Don know?" He wondered. "No. If we were having sex then he would've figured it out like last time." I informed him.

"You don't sound excited so I'm going to ask if you are." He said. "I am excited but I'd be even more excited if this was happening a few years from now. I mean, Junior isn't even two yet. I don't want my kids to gr- nevermind. Let's switch the subject. This is a vacation and I'm here to enjoy myself not think about my problems." I said before walking ahead and back to our family. I didn't have time to play therapist with Ant. Not here and not now at least.

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For the second time today I found myself on the sandy beach. This time I was all alone with the exception of a few other people who were either walking the beach or just hanging around. I wasn't paying mind to much of anything since I was kind of lost in my thoughts. I was trying to figure my life out.

I was a quarter century with one kid and one on the way and since I was taking care of Tati she's like my child- that makes three. I was in a relationship with someone that I considered to be the love of my life and my soulmate. Even with all the back and forth that we have been through he's still that to me. We were now coming to what I felt was about to be the start of a new chapter between us but we were on different pages still. I hoped that we could for once be on the same page in the same book.

It seemed like now, everything was opposite with us. The only thing that bothered me was that just a week ago, Don was telling me that he didn't want anymore children until we were married and settled. Who the hell knew when that would be? I just needed to figure out a way to prepare and tell him without him blowing up. I knew for a fact that he would be upset about me waiting so long to inform him. I truly didn't need that stress. I let out a huge breath and rubbed my growing belly.

"I've been looking all over for you." Don said from behind me causing me to move my hands. "Well your journey ends here. You found me." I said. He sat beside me and grabbed my hand lacing our fingers together in the process. "I'm sorry about earlier." He said after a while of silence. "I'm sorry too." I mumbled. I really was and it was hard for me to say it. It took a lot for me to apologize and Don knew it which is why a shocked look spread across his face. "Fix your face." I told him.

"So why are you out here at one in the morning?" He wondered. "I was just thinking plus it's peaceful." "Mhmm." He hummed as if he didn't believe me. "I'm for real but you interrupted my thoughts so we can go to bed now." I gave him a smile and kissed his cheek. He smiled back and stood up before holding his hands out for me to grab.

Once I was on my feet he pulled me into a hug and rested his hands on my ass. "This thing is juicy." "So is my vagina." I laughed after kissing his lips. "Just say pussy." He mugged me before he began walking me backwards. "You know I'm not going to say that." I blushed. "Why?" He asked. "I don't feel right using slang terms unless I'm mad." I spoke into his chest.

"Whatever. You plan on letting Daddy see how juicy it is when we get in this room or what?" By now we were in front of our door and my back was against it. I felt in his shorts pockets for the room key and handed it to him. "Open up this door and we shall see." I winked at him before pulling him through the now open door.