Chapter 19

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It had been two weeks since Levi had taken me from my father and he was adamant about not letting me out of his sight. It was as though he was afraid I would disappear, as though he was worried he wouldn't be able to protect me if I wasn't with him at all times.

He was protective to the point where he hesitated allowing me to go to the bathroom and apart from Leila, Augustus and Alexander, I hadn't met anyone else in the pack.

The house always seemed to be empty even though I could sometimes hear whispers from the hallway and I assumed Levi had something to do with it. Although, I didn't really mind the solitude that came with the quiet house now that I had someone to share it with.

The darkness that consumed me whenever I was alone now had no way of reaching me with Levi's constant presence. Over the past few days, he had been trying to get to know me better and while there wasn't much I could tell him since I spent most of my life in a cell, his eyes lit up whenever I would talk about myself.

Warmth spread like fire through my veins every time he smiled at me and every touch sent a torrent of butterflies pounding against my chest, urging me to pull him closer and never let go. Safety and comfort were unfamiliar to me and yet that was all I felt around Levi and I couldn't understand why he didn't look at me the way everyone else did. I wanted to trust him but I couldn't help the waves of worry that crashed over me, filling my lungs every time I opened my mouth to confide in him.

I was so so scared. I was absolutely terrified that he would wake up one day and realize he had wasted his time on me. I felt paralyzed at the thought of him leaving once he decided he deserved more than what was left of me, once he realized how ruined I truly was.

Instead, I focused my attention on unraveling him so I could distract him from discovering how much of a wreck I was. Since he was busy with his Alpha duties, we didn't have much time to talk with how much paperwork Levi needed to fill out and with how little free time we had, this meant that our meals together turned into bonding sessions where he would try and get to know me although he avoided the topic of my father and my imprisonment which I was thankful for.

I still didn't have the courage to look at myself in the mirror but I could tell I was much better off than I was when I had initially come to the Hyperion Pack. The bruises were slowly disappearing and my body was looking less like that of a skeleton with every meal I ate. There were times when I couldn't handle the amount of food and I would vomit all that I had eaten but I was making progress.

I was proud of how far I had gotten but Levi was concerned with how slow I was healing and he decided to take me to the pack doctor. The moment we stepped into the pack hospital we were greeted by a handful of unfamiliar people all wearing white lab coats. They were all peering curiously at me and I cowered behind Levi. It wasn't until he growled that they backed off and hurried off to do their jobs.

"Alpha, Luna," a voice called. I turned towards the voice and noticed it was the woman that had first examined me when I woke up in the hospital. A small smile graced her face at the sight of us and she bowed her head before walking away from us. "It's good to see you're doing well, Luna. Follow me this way."

I hesitantly followed her and Levi placed his hand on my back, an assurance that he was with me and he wasn't leaving. She led us into the same room I was in before and I let out a breath at the familiar white walls. She closed the door behind her as I walked over to sit in the plastic chairs placed in the corner of the room, Levi plopping down next to me.

She grabbed a chair and sat down so she was facing both of us, her clipboard clutched in her hands. "What seems to be the problem today?"

Levi's eyes bore into her and her smile flickered under the intensity of his gaze. "She doesn't seem to be healing at a normal rate despite how much she's been eating."

The doctor's eyebrows furrowed as she tried to come up with an answer. We stared at her in silence before she said, "It's been quite a few days and Luna's wolf should have taken over the healing process, seeing as she's been eating well and drinking enough fluids there shouldn't be any problems with her healing rate unless something has happened to her wolf."

I could feel them both turn to look at me but my gaze was fixated on my trembling hands. I squeezed my eyes shut and wondered how Levi was going to react to what I was about to say. He would finally see how weak I truly was after he knew that even my wolf abandoned me. I sucked in a harsh breath before confessing, "I don't have a wolf."

Levi's reaction was immediate as his fingers gripped my chin and tilted my gaze towards him. His eyes were dark and I couldn't seem to figure out what he was thinking. He was searching my face again, trying to gauge how I felt. "What do you mean you don't have a wolf? How could you not have one?"

I blinked rapidly, trying to keep the tears at bay. "S-she left me."

Levi's face was blank and I knew he wasn't happy with me. My heart clenched as his fingers disappeared from my chin and my head hung limp, my eyes fixed on the flowers embroidered on my jeans.

The doctor cleared her throat, uncomfortable with the tension building in the room and assured, "Well, this simply means that Luna is healing at the same rate a human would which also means that she is unable to shift and until her wolf comes back, there's nothing much that we can do." She directed her voice towards me and asked, "Has she shown any sign of wanting to come back?"

I closed my eyes and searched around for my wolf but could sense nothing but darkness accompanying me. I lightly shook my head in response to her question and she turned back towards Levi. "The only thing we can do is wait then. Are there any other concerns?"

"No, that's all. Thank you, Melissa." I fidgeted and bit my lip, wishing I had my long hair to shield myself from Levi's questioning stare.

"Of course. Feel free to call me if you have any more questions or concerns." She stood up and walked over to the door, her heels tapping against the tiled floor. "Alpha, Luna," she addressed once more before exiting, the door clicking shut behind her.

It was just Levi and I left in the room now and the silence was suffocating. I could feel Levi's burning desire to find answers to his questions but when it became clear I wasn't going to say anything he let out a loud sigh.

"Why didn't you tell me?" he finally questioned. His tone was soft and not angry like I expected. I lifted my head to look at him but there was no hatred or disgust in his eyes. The tension in my body eased but the fears that plagued my mind still remained.

I kept my eyes locked on his before whispering, "I didn't want you to leave me."

"I had thought something was wrong when my wolf couldn't sense yours but I wanted to wait and see if you would tell me yourself." A frown marred his face and my heart clenched at how often he wore it when I was around. "I already told you I'm never going to leave you, little moon and I'll say it as many times as it takes until you believe me. It's you and me and we're in this together, okay?"

"I'm weak, Levi. You deserve better than me. You deserve more than what I have to offer because frankly there's nothing I can give you. I don't have it in me to be the Luna this pack needs. My wolf abandoned me because even she could see how worthless I am and it's only a matter of time before you leave me too." The tears that were pooling in my eyes were trailing down my cheeks and I didn't make any move to wipe them away. My chest heaved as I tried to control my breathing but gasps and sobs began to fill the room and soon enough I was collapsed on the floor.

My body trembled and Levi sat next to me before pulling me into his lap. I clutched at his shirt and buried my face into his chest. The bitter coldness of my anguish was replaced by the warmth of his touch. He didn't say anything and simply held me, letting me cry for as long as I needed.

I cried at the fact that my wolf had left me. I cried at how easily everyone I loved had abandoned me. I cried at how for twelve years no one had cared enough about me to call me by my name until Levi. I cried because of how much I wanted him and how much it would hurt to have to live a life without him after knowing the heat of his skin as it brushed against mine.

When my sobs finally quieted I was able to register his hand against my back, rubbing small circles in an attempt to soothe me. His lips brushed against the shell of my ear as he murmured, "I want you to be able to trust me, Rain. I want to help you and I want to know everything that goes on in that head of yours." He gently tapped the side of my head with his index finger before continuing. "I am not your father and I am certainly not someone who is planning on abandoning you. I am yours and that means you're stuck with me unless you one day decide to leave me."

My eyes widened and my heart fluttered in its cage. I had been afraid for so long - afraid of my father, afraid of men, afraid of me but then Levi came in and tore down everything I had been led to believe. I had spent most of my life in pain and darkness but Levi found me and now that I knew what it was like to be held in his arms, I didn't want to let go.

He was so different from everyone I had ever known and I wanted to know more. I wanted to know what his deepest, darkest fears were. I wanted to know how he got the scar on his face. I wanted to know if he could ever feel about me the way I felt about him. He had wormed his way into my heart and I was sure I never wanted him to leave.

A sleepy smile graced my lips at the thought of him being mine forever and the weight that was on my chest began to disappear. I softly murmured, "I trust you." It was so quiet I wondered if he had heard it but by the way his arms tightened around me and how he gently whispered my name, I knew he had.

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