Kingsley told me to dress quickly and meet him back out in the aisle of the plane when I was ready. I was a bunch of emotions right now but I told myself to push my feelings aside and just be happy that I'm here with him.

He didn't say he loved me. He could express it with a soft touch to my face or a comforting kiss to my lips but nothing was gonna compare to hearing it come from his lips. Nothing could compare to looking the man you love in the eyes as he tells you that he loves you too. I let a small sigh slip from my lips as I showered and let the hot water sooth my skin in the small bathroom. I guess I just had to have patience with him. He'd probably tell me when the time was right. I can't let myself over think it like I overthink everything.

After my shower I chose to wear a pair of Black leggings and a grey long sleeved shirt. I put on my black ugg boots since from the window being slightly opened I could tell it was a little chilly and gathered my cell phone to head out.

As I exited the room I spotted Kingsley fully dressed in a new pair of sweats and a hoodie. He showered I guess from the other bathroom, he was sitting on one of the chairs chatting it up on the phone with someone. I walk over to him and sit, waiting for him to be done. He leans forward and grabs my hand placing it in his as he ends the call.

"How are you feeling?" His forehead creases with concern as he looks at me. "Okay." I nod. "where are we?" I glance to the side of us out of the window. We landed and I didn't even notice until now. We were at another airport and the pilot was leaving the plane.

"Canada." Kingsley answers while standing to his feet. "Canada?" I question quietly. He was bringing me to the one place they didn't want me to be? I follow him down the aisle of the plane deep in thought. This is where he and Kale grew up, this is where they were made into who they were today. This was their home.

It was beautiful to me. It had to be at least around lunch time right now and the airport from what I could see was packed. I swear though, nothing made me forget about Kingsley not telling me he loves me. It bothered me a lot. What the hell was stopping him? I didn't get it.

"Ready?" Kingsley stood at the entrance of the plane holding his phone and a duffle bag. He had an excited glint to his blue eyes. I only shook my head yes because I didn't have the strength to speak anymore. I felt like like my ability to smile was gone. I began feeling ever so sad.

"Are you okay?" Kingsley asked while examining my face as we stepped off of the private plane. He was holding my hand while staring holes through my face but i didn't give him any eye contact I just stared at the ground and said yeah.

He stared at me longer then I would have wanted but eventually had to look away when we neared a black escalade truck because he had to speak with the driver. Kingsley and I sat relaxed in the back seat of the car in a heavy silence. I could tell he was thinking really hard about something by the way his facial expression was as he gazed out of the window.
He had to know what was bothering me. I tried sitting in the middle seat to give us some distance but he pulled me beside him, giving me no choice but to rest my head on his arm.

He can read my mind and my emotions so he's got to know what I'm feeling. I turned my head slightly upward to look at him and he was already staring at me. "You really don't know how much you mean to me do you?" his eyes looked hurt.

I didn't say anything at all. I just looked at him with a blank expression and turned back towards the window.

If you love someone then you should tell them so they actually know it. End of story. I didn't understand, and he didn't really explain it to me. It's words. Words that will match your actions, so if he feels it, why can't he say it? I don't know, I can't explain it but he just won't. I'm new to dealing with guys, new to having feelings like this and actually having a full out relationship. Not only am I in one but I am in a relationship with two men at the same time, who are twin brothers. As easy as they have made this for me I still didn't know how I should handle this 'I love you' situation. It just wouldn't sit right with me no matter how many times I reminded myself that I just got together with them.

But then I thought further and I reminded myself that I am their mate. Their soul mate. Shouldn't they automatically love me?

I watched out of the window as we passed buildings and schools and houses and so forth. Then the scenario got seriously beautiful. I've never seen tree's this green in my life. It was like we somehow entered a new world of just a long road and forest on the left and right of us. We continued down the road as the sun was shining brightly above us. It was breath taking.

Suddenly I felt a vibration next to me followed by Kingsley saying hello. I was laying against his arm but he was talking so lowly I couldn't hear what he was saying then he abruptly hung up.

"Go to the house.'" Kingsley tells the driver and he quickly turned off into a trail in the woods. I didn't even realize there was car trail here. We were now driving in between the green trees which had even greener grass. We drove down further and soon we just stopped right in the middle of the woods.

"Here is good." Kingsley announces. He quickly gets out of the car and extends his hand to me to help me out. "Hey beautiful." He whispers. A small smile is on my lips as I scoot out of the car. "Hi." I whisper. He smiles and takes hold of my hand. I could tell he was so happy suddenly. He was very pleased to show me this place, whatever it was. We walked in a comfortable silence as he led me further into the dirt path. I began to wonder why we had to get out of the car and my anticipation to find out rose as higher and higher the longer we walked.

"Your quiet." Kingsley observed. He looked over at me and squinted his eyes. He seemed to be deep in thought again and he squeezed my hand even tighter while looking straight ahead again.

I wish I knew what he was thinking.

As we walked I gasped when I noticed what we were walking toward. In just a few feet away was the most beautiful mansion I've ever seen. It was white and had multiple windows, all of the lights were on inside and there was a huge wolf statue in front of the house surrounded by a water bath for birds I guess.

"Oh my god." I stood still for a moment. While Kingsley grinned, obviously pleased with my reaction. "Beautiful isn't it." He gazed toward the house like me. He held me closer as we walked towards the house and up the big flight of steps leading to the door. "Should I be nervous?" I suddenly ask before he opened the door. I nervously bit my bottom lip and fidgeted with my fingers.

Kingsley gave me a serious look. "With me you are always safe. Please remember that." His jaw tightened while opening the doors.

I swallowed back my nerves and walked forward into the mansion. The inside was breath taking.

As soon as you walk in you spot the long stair case that leads to I don't know how many floors. This place had very high ceilings, a creme colored marble floor, everything in here just screamed expensive.

Kingsley held my hand as he lead me through the first floor of the house and I was more then happy that we seemed to be the only ones here. For some reason I expected the house to be packed with people and i didn't know why.

He led me all the way in the back passed a kitchen and a few other rooms. He glanced back at me and pressed his lips together and then looked forward again. I wondered why he kept looking at me every few seconds. He uses his free hand to scratch the top of his curly hair before opening the back door.

In the back of the mansion outside was more gorgeous green grass. We walked into some woods again and it seemed as though he was taking me to a specific spot. He seemed focused and eager. I could tell he was nervous.

Kingsley's stride slowed as we approached a large tree with long branches. He stopped me from walking and looked at the tree. Even though we were surrounded by nothing but trees, this specific tree had carvings of names on it. I walked forward to read the names. I suddenly felt empty when I walked forward and our hands disconnected.

"Kingsley" I whispered while touching the tree. His name was the first one I saw. Next to it was a women's. Natasha, Neil, Anderson and Martin.
"Who are these people?" I turn and ask him while he stood against another tree watching me.

"Friends" was all Kingsley said.

I swallowed and examined the tree a little longer, trying to put two and two together and got nothing.
"So you brought me to Canada to show me a tree?"
I raised my eyebrows jokingly at Kingsley who was giving me nothing but serious looks.

"I shifted here, in this very spot in front of that tree for the first time when I was 10 years old. It was me and all those people who's names are on there." He informs me. "My dad didn't teach me, no one in the pack helped me except for those names on the tree." I nodded. I knew that had to be hard. He was just a kid, and his parents didn't help him with this, instead other kids who were his own age at the time helped him.

"I was lost as a boy. Grew up with other kids who looked up to our father because he was our Alpha, but he didn't really do anything for Kale and I. He took care of his pack half assed and that's about it. Kale and I raised ourselves."  He balled up his fists as his eyes are looking up at the sky.

"So you can imagine how fucked up we continued to be after our own mother killed us." His eyes drop down to mine as he says this. I hear the struggle in his voice as he speaks. My mind starts to go back to the day he let himself kiss me. The day I was freaking out about the social workers questioning me, and he just kissed me. He kissed me so hard and with so much emotion to it because he felt my pain, he knew my darkness.

"I know you know this feeling, this emptiness." He whispers. "That's why you and I connect the way we do." He finishes. I nod as we stare at each other. I almost felt glued to the spot I was standing in. Kingsley was dark and he was deep. I was looking at him in a new light right now. I hold my lip in my mouth as he steps from leaning on the tree and comes toward me.

We grew up kind of the same. Our parents were barely there so we both had to learn and go through a few hard things on our own.

"I can't believe you think I don't love you." His eyes looked pained as he closes them. I quickly wrapped my arms around his neck and pull him close. His arms wrap around my waist almost immediately and I felt his heart beating erratically as his head nuzzles into my neck.

I was trying so hard so keep my breathing steady but I just couldn't. Kingsley lifted his head and looked at me again. Well looked at my lips. Without warning he captures my lips with his and backs me up against the tree. We kissed each other heatedly and hard. Every time he kissed me I felt the passion, I felt the heavy emotions. Kingsley groans into my mouth as my hand reaches his hair, lightly tugging on the roots.

When he ended the kiss he smirks at me and turns around gesturing for me to get on his back and quickly jogs back to the house. When we entered the house we immediately started up our make out session again. He lets me down on my feet and grabs my face, sucking on my bottom lip teasingly. We breathe in each other's own breath, taking in every ounce of each other that we can. We paused in the hallway after walking out of the hug kitchen so he could pick me up and kiss me better.

Kingsley being so tall and strong he manages to make it up the steps while kissing me and holding me all at the same time. My legs were around his waist and I was in his arms securely. He walked until we reached a bedroom, he kicked it open with his foot and shut it behind him. He gently put me on the bed while starting into my eyes. I barely had time to study his room as he hovered over me.

"I need to taste you." He groans in a raspy voice while pulling at my pants. I lifted my hips while slipping them off along with my boots and he tossed my shirt and bra onto the floor. His touch, his voice and his lips were just enough to make me do anything he'd ever want me to do. He stayed at the end of the bed and kissed my ankles, leading the kisses up towards my legs and getting closer and closer into my thighs. I moan out lightly as he holds my thighs wide open as he nears my wetness. I have time to express my shyness because as soon as I feel his breath fan me against I moan in pleasure. My eyes close as I fall into the rush of euphoria that was him.

"Open them" Kingsley demanded. My eyes slowly peek open as I move my hips at the pace his tongue was going. "Watch me." He groans inside of me, causing a vibration to shoot from his mouth all the way through my body. He focuses his eyes back on my wetness and let's his tongue explore me, I grip the sheets all the while trying to keep my eyes focused on him but they kept rolling to the back of my head.

Both of us completely naked now he climbs on top of me without fully putting his weight on me and we began our makeout session once again.

"Baby." He groans at my continual grinding of my hips on his hips. I wanted to feel him inside of me so bad, my body just couldn't wait any longer.
"Take it slow." He whispers. Slowly disconnecting his lips to look at me and then connecting them again. He releases my lips again making me groan as he trails kisses from my jaw down to my neck. I moaned blissfully while Feeling his hard long shaft rubbing against my entrance making me shiver in pleasure.

He left a trail of kisses on my neck, my cheek and then finally connected with my lips the same time as he finally entered me. We both moaned out together as he stroked inside of me adjusting to my tightness. "Fuck." He groans into my ear. I felt paralyzed for a second because it felt so good I didn't want the feeling to go away. But his stroke start back up again and I start to meet his rythym with my hips making him go faster and growl harder.

"Kingsley" I moan softly into his own ear. He turns his face to line up with mine and watches my face as he pulls my lip into his mouth using his teeth to suck on it. As my hips go faster and faster with his rythym I reach up slightly to bite his own bottom lip making his jaw drop and his eyes close. He starts to go even faster, and his face is structure into the most sexiest face like he can't handle how good it feels.

"Fuck, what are you doing to me." He groans putting his hand in my hair this time, clamping his hands down hard as he gets close to his finish.

Our movements start to go rigid as we both finish at the same time. Kingsley end it's by placing gentle kisses all over my face making me laugh. He drops down onto the bed beside me and pulls me from my waist right on top of him. My legs are resting on the sides of his legs as I snuggle my head on his chest listening to his chaotic heart beat.

I felt a little weird that right after we were finished my mind went to Kale. It was because he was my mate too, and I was use to both of them being around in these times. Kingsley definitely did satisfy me and made me feel things I didn't even know girls feel during sex. But having them both, was a feeling out of this world. It was feeling I was meant to have because they were both my mates.

My eyes start to feel heavy as Kingsley's breathing starts to pick up. His arms snake around my waist as he mumbles something incoherent as he sleeps. I smile while managing to snuggle closer to him as if it was even possible and let myself fall asleep with him.

When I open my eyes again I am pleased to feel Kingsley hands making small circles on my lower back. As I wiggle in his embrace I feel him here below me, pressed right up against my entrance.
"Fuck, don't move." He whispers. I feel him move my hips off of him so my lower body is on the bed. My mouth drops in shock as I look at him. A smirk plays along my lips. "Whats wrong? The big bad wolf can't handle a round two?" Kingsley raises his eyebrows and jumps up, grabbing my arms and holding them over my head as he hovers over me, his faces inches away from mine.

"Baby I would fuck you until the only word you'll ever know is my name." His breath tickles my neck as he whispers against it. His dark eyes roaming over my body as if he wants to kiss it, he's stopping himself. "We just have to get going, if it weren't for that you'd be bent over right about now." He wink and I bite my bottom lip as the heartbeat between my legs thumps. Kingsley's jaw drops as he looks down under the covers. He must have felt it in his inner thigh since he was laying between my legs.

He rolls his lips into his mouth and looks back at me.
"Get dressed now." My smirk breaks out into a full out laugh at him trying so hard to keep us from having sex, he's fighting it ever second of the way.

When we finally pull apart from each other we managed to get fully dressed without falling into another make out session. Kingsley's grabs his duffel bag from the dresser across the room and looks at me.

"How are you feeling?" I walked toward the door opening it as he walks behind me. I smile as I look back at him. "I'm happy you brought me here, and I feel so much better that you opened up to me the way that you did." As my voice ends I feel Kingsley leans against me, placing a kiss on the back of my head. He takes my hand in his and we continue to walk down the beautifully red painted hallway. My phone makes a thud as it falls right out of hands hitting one of the bedroom doors on my left. All the bedroom doors in this hallway were open except for this one. This door was cracked and when my phone hit it, it opened a little more. "Darn it." I mumble while bending down to grab the phone and taking a peak at the bedroom as I stand back up. There was a twin bed against the wall on the left of the room, it had blue sheets and a blue blanket. A tiny set of two drawers were on the floor on the far right of the room and blue little carpet decorated the floor.

It looked like a child's room. A boy.

I turn around to see Kingsley staring at me, looking at me from his hoodie. His eyes are low as he stares. I fully turn around to look at his tense aura. This was his old bed room. The memories of him and Kale's childhood hit me like a truck when I remember how they told me about the night their mother who is a vampire, drank their blood and killed them.
"Yes this is where it happened, you could say I don't go in that room often." Kingsley's dark voice mellows out around the intense silence. By his demeanor I could tell he did not want to talk about this or dwell on it. I close the bedroom door quietly and reach for his hand again, I give it a strong squeeze as we walk away from the door continuing to the stairs.

The black escalade truck was parked a little ways away from the big mansion so we had to walk through the woods a little not until we entered a clearing and the truck was there. As soon as we entered the car I quickly snuggled into Kingsley's lap feeling myself grow tired once more. That cat nap we had earlier was nothing.

"Mind if I sleep?" I whispered feeling myself doze off. "Sleep as much as you need." I feel Kingsley gently rub my back as face snuggles onto his chest and my legs lay across his lap.