Y/N

I was sitting in a cafe with two iced americanos in front of me.

In half an hour, I was supposed to meet Jungkook so I could end things, but first I wanted to meet with Avery. She walked into the cafe and I waved her over.

She took the seat in front of me and grabbed the ice americano. "Hey, what's up?"

I wasn't sure on how I should approach the topic. I didn't want to tell her my decision just yet, but I needed a moral boost.

"It's just about last night." I looked around the cafe to see if anybody was listening. This morning I learned that people were now aware of how I look, and not only me but the kids too. Due to this, I told them to stay at home, not that they wanted to go to school anyways. "You said that I should break up with him."

"And you should."

I frowned. "But what if I do break up with him and he did manage to fix everything?"

"Y/N, that still doesn't change the fact that he's going to have two new kids." Avery's jaw dropped at my question. "You know for a fact that he's going to ask you to raise them without even considering your feelings. It may be selfish and those kids probably deserve better but so do you."

"But they're his kids." I repeated the same conflicted question that I had. "I know the feeling of loving your unborn child. What it is like to have to choose between love and them. No matter how much I want to blame him, I can't."

"Y/N." Avery reaches out and grabs both of my hands. "I want to ask you a serious question and you have to answer honestly." I nodded my head and she let out a breath. "Are you really in love with Jungkook?"

I stared at her for a moment. "Why would you ask that? What do you mean?"

"Are you in love with Jungkook, or do you believe that you're under the presumption that you love him just because he's the kids father?"

I stared down at my hands that were on the table and frowned. "I love him." I love him don't I? What kind of question is this? "Why do you think I don't?"

"Well..." She cocked her head to the side. "I don't doubt that the two of you look like a couple and that he treated you right before all this happened, but when did you first realize you were in love with him?"

I thought back to the first time I had met him since I returned to Korea. It was at the amusement park and he was together with Sana. At that point I never really had a huge impression on him, until I found out that he was going to be my boss.

Ever since then, I had always thought of him as my boss. A boss who was kind to my kids. When did that all change?

My affection towards him grew the more he had spent with my children. Playing with them and filling in that hole they always carried with them.

Did I really fall for him, just because I loved seeing him treat my children right? Everything changed the day he told me that he was their father. But even so, everything we've done afterwards, it still must've been love right?

The time we spent in Japan without the kids. It had to be love.

The more I spent thinking about mine and Jungkook's relationship, the more conflicted I felt. Avery squeezes my hand and sadly smiles at me. "I didn't intend to make you confused or hate Mr. Jeon and everything. I just wanted you to know before you made your decision. What is your true answer? And you don't have to tell me."

"Thanks Avery." I nodded my head.

"No sweat." She smiles. "Just know that I'm always on your side."

"I never doubted it for a second."

Avery looks at her watch and gets up. " I need to go back to work. I took a 15 minute break and it's almost up."

"Jungkook will probably be arriving soon so it's alright." I smiled. Avery hugs me and then rushes out of the cafe.

I sat there pondering over Avery's question. Am I truly in love with Jungkook?

I sat there spaced out for so long that I hadn't realized that someone was standing right next to me.

"Ms. Kim?" Jungkook's new secretary, Secretary Moon Jaesuk asked.

"Ah, yes?" I looked around to see if Jungkook was here. "Where is Jungkook?"

"Mr. Jeon had an unexpected appointment today, he told me to tell you that he'll call and meet up with you later..." Jaesuk avoided eye contact and twisted his fingers. He looked guilty and I knew that something had happened for him to be here instead of Jungkook. "Ms. Minatozaki said that her stomach hurt today and Mr. Jeon had gone with her to the hospital."

"Is that so?" I whispered and felt my heart sink. I had made my decision yesterday, but maybe this was the one that had shredded my last hope. "Thank you for coming here to tell me that and tell your boss that there is no need to call me back. It was nothing important, I just wanted to know how he was feeling after yesterday."

Jaesuk raised his eyebrows but nodded then left the cafe. Outside the window, I could see him pull out his phone to probably call Jungkook to tell him my response and got into the car.

I watched him drive away and it felt as if there was lead in my chest. It was painfully heavy and I had laboured breaths to prevent myself from crying.

I sat in the cafe for another 10 minutes, a wishful thought that Jungkook might just show up after realizing something was wrong with my message. When he didn't, I stood up and left the cafe without touching my drink.

Maybe Avery's question shouldn't have been directed to me, but to Jungkook instead. He said he loved me for the past 7 years, but was it really love or desire? Who falls in love with a mystery girl that they had a one night stand with and searches for her for years? Did he truly love me or did he love me just because I was the mother of his kids?

Because I think his actions today answered my question.

He only concerned himself with me because he wanted to get closer with his kids.

I pulled out my phone, wanting to spend time with someone, but almost everyone else was busy and I couldn't go home and let the kids see me in this state.

I called Ina and waited for her to pick up.

"Y/N, did you get the text that I sent you last night?" She sounded worried.

"I did. Sorry I didn't reply, but I saw it." I nodded my head.

"Avery filled me in on some details, but why did you call?"

"I just wanted to talk with someone. Are you free right now?"

"I'm due in 2 weeks. You think I have something to do?"

I let out a small laugh. "I guess not. Can I come over?"

"Of course! I'll need the company. All I'm doing right now is binge watching boring soap operas."

"I'll be there in a few minutes."

I rang the doorbell of Ina's house and she immediately opened the door.

"Hey Y/N!" She grins and hugs me. Her huge belly pressed against my stomach and made it hard for us to hug. "I'm so sorry."

"I'm tired of hearing people say that they're sorry for me." I pulled away and she led me inside. Ina waddled into her house and I couldn't help but laugh. She told me to sit on the couch and she went to the kitchen to get us drinks. "You shouldn't be moving around that much. Just come sit down."

"Don't treat me as fragile just because I'm pregnant." She pouts and pours the two of us a glass of tea. She walks to the living room and places the cups on the coffee table then sits down. "So are you really here to talk or do you just want me to comfort you like the good old days?"

Back in highschool when Mrs. Park found out about mine and Jimin's relationship, she tried whatever she could to get us to break up. I could never go to Jimin because I didn't want him to worry or worsen his relationship with his mother so I always went to Ina instead.

I could always complain to her, and if it was bad enough then I would cry. Then we would sleep over at either one of our houses and watch movies all night. She was my support back then and even now.

"Apparently Sana's stomach started to hurt and Jungkook took her to the hospital." I rested my head on her shoulder and stared at the terrible soap opera that was playing on the TV. She wasn't kidding when they were bad. "However Jungkook and I were supposed to meet up. Those babies may be his number one priority and I get that, but I wish that he could have at least called me instead of sending his secretary to tell me. Like is it that hard to send one text message?"

"And he still hasn't called you yet?" Ina exclaimed. "How long has it been?"

"I left the cafe about 30 minutes ago, but we were supposed to meet up an hour ago."

"Well..." Ina frowned. "Maybe it just slipped his mind. Hansol's been like that ever since I got pregnant. I can't tell you how many times he's been late to a meeting because he was running errands for me and just forgot about it." Ina bit her lip. "But at least he sent his secretary?"

"Do you think he loves me?" I blurted out.

"I- Wha? Of course he does! Y/N, what in the world made you think that?"

"Avery asked me if I loved him earlier. I'm not 100% sure anymore and he must not be as well right?"

Ina was silent for a moment. I could feel her shoulders shaking and then she burst into laughter. "Avery- Avery reads too much fiction. Chan is literally the only boyfriend who she manages to hold onto for this long because he's timid. Avery is either black or white. She hates her boyfriend and breaks up with him or she absolutely adores him until she wants to break up with him. But you don't have to be that way Y/N. Find middle ground. Work things out with him. I'm sure that everything is just a misunderstanding and let's be real here. The only problem here is Sana, but work together and she'll be out of your way."

"The two of you make everything very conflicting, you know that?"

"Well you always need an angel and a devil don't you?" Ina smiles.

I let loose about everything with Ina. I told her about the decision to leave him and despite everything that she just said, she actually agreed with it.

"It doesn't have to be permanent, but I do think that the two of you should take a break." She sips on her tea. "Sometimes more drama can strengthen bonds but that is only after the reflection phase."

"And what about the twins? They want to move back to America."

"The twins might be smart but they're young." Ina waves her hand dismissively. "Just let their anger die out then ask them again when this is all over."

"You must not know the twins that well. It's impossible to persuade them out of things that they've already decided on."

"Not unless they get good news that takes their mind off of things."

"And where will I find good news?" I raised an eyebrow at her.

"Right now." She nods her head. That was when I started to realize that she was sweating and was taking labored breaths. "Because I think you need to get me to the hospital. My water just broke."

"Fuck, Ina." I got up and helped her up. "Where is the hospital bag?"

"In the closet by the entrance. Just pick it up when you're taking me to the car." She winces and places a hand on her hips. "Holy shit, how did you deal with contractions?"

"To be honest?" We paused and I opened the closet to grab the hospital bag. "Mine weren't that bad."

"Lucky bitch." She cussed under her breath and I helped her into the car and put the hospital bag in the back. "C-call Hansol right now."

I started to car and called Hansol. It took him a few rings to pick up and I was already driving. "Sorry Y/N, I just had to step out from a meeting. Is this important or-"

"Hansol I don't care if you're in a meeting!" Ina yelled at her husband. "Get your ass to the hospital right now!"

"Is there something wrong?" Hansol's voice panicked.

"Your wife is about to give birth is it that hard to figure it out?" I shouted and drove over the speed limit.

"I'll be on my way."

I hung up and focused on getting her to the hospital. I peeked over at Ina at a red light and she was tightly gripping onto the car. I couldn't help but ask. "Are your contractions really that bad?"

"I feel like I'm dying." She glares at me. "I am never going to have another baby after this."

"Ok, just take a deep breath in and a deep breath out. You'll be fine. Just stay-"

"DON'T TELL ME TO CALM DOWN." She barks at me. "I WILL NOT CALM DOWN."

I got to the hospital and quickly called for a nurse. Two nurses came and took Ina to a single room and told me to wait outside. I marched back and forth waiting for the doctor or Hansol to show up.

Soon, Jennie ran down the hallway and had a surprised look on her face when she saw me. "Y/N, do you know the patient inside?"

"Yes, she's my friend." I nodded.

"Ok. You're going to need to stay outside. Only family is allowed in, if the patient's husband arrives then please let him know." She goes into the room and I continue waiting for Hansol.

In approximately 10 minutes, he runs down the hall out of breath. He stops in front of me and tries to gather his breath. Hansol looked haggard, his hair was messy as if he ran his fingers through it a hundred times and he had loosened his tie.

"How far along is she?" He gasped for air.

"I don't know. I'm not allowed inside." I jutted my chin towards the door. "Go! She's waiting for you!"

Hansol goes into the room and I was finally relieved now that he was here. I stood out the door for 5, 10, 20 minutes and I could hear Ina's cries from inside and Jennie's calm voice telling her to push.

I haven't heard anything about seeing the baby's head yet so I knew that it was probably going to be a long labour. Maybe I should have suggested that she get an epidural before she went inside.

I had gotten tired of waiting for the baby so I sent a quick text to Hansol telling him that I would be wandering the hospital.

I took the elevators to the floor where my father was staying. I walked to his ward and stood in front of his room. It had been a while since I had visited him. The last time was when his condition had gotten worse and I haven't heard an update from my mother since.

I knocked on the door before going in. Instead of finding my father sitting on the bed, it was a young lady.

"I uh... Sorry. I think I must've gotten the wrong room... I thought this was my fathers." I stuttered.

"Oh no it's alright." She smiled and I backed away. I looked at the room number and I was sure that I had gotten the right one.

"Excuse me." I called out to a passing nurse. "Was there a patient who used this room named Kim Baekho?"

"Mr. Kim? He was transferred to a different ward." The nurse smiled.

"Really?" I frowned. "I wasn't aware."

"I can check the records right now to see where he was transferred to. Follow me." The nurse led me to the nurses station and she went onto the computer. "Ah yes, Kim Baekho. He was transferred to the VIP ward just last week."

"VIP ward?" My heart raced. If he got transferred to the VIP ward then the price of his treatment would have gone up exponentially. "I don't remember transferring him to the VIP ward. I thought that he was just getting regular chemo treatment."

"It says here that someone under the name Jeon Jungkook had transferred and paid for the next month of his hospital bills."

Jungkook did? If it was a week ago then it must've been around the time where they had gone to the hospital to get the paternity test done. My heart raced with the fact that Jungkook had visited my father alone.

"Can you tell me what room he was transferred to?"

The nurse gave me the room number and I had gone to the VIP ward. I tried calling Jungkook on my way there but he didn't pick up his phone. I wondered if he was still with Sana, but my thoughts didn't last long when I stood in front of the hospital room.

I knocked on the door and this time I heard my father's voice. I walked inside and found him sitting inside a huge luxurious hospital room. He was eating a meal and looked healthier than the last time I had seen him.

His face was no longer sunken and pale, but pull and tan. He still looked skinny, but at least it wasn't down to the bone.

"Y/N." He said surprised. He looked behind me as if he was expecting the kids or his wife to show. It kind of hurt to see that he thought I would visit him just because of my mom or the kids and never on my own. I guess after pushing him away in the past he would come to that conclusion however. "Come, take a seat." I walked into the room and took a seat on the plush chair beside the bed. "What are you doing here?"

"One of my friends went into labor. I brought her to the hospital." I said and looked around the hospital room. "How are you doing?"

"Wonderful. I already feel healthier than I have been in the last four years." My father smiled. "It's all because of your amazing boyfriend."

I looked at my father. "I didn't know that he came to visit you. Did mom know?"

"He said to keep it a secret from you." He stares at his lunch. "He knew that you would not have let him if you knew."

"So you decided not to tell me anything and accepted everything just because he's my boyfriend?" I narrowed my eyes at him.

"We didn't accept anything." My father said knowing that I believed Jungkook was taken advantage of. "He insisted and told me that for a long time the kids never had a male figure around. He wanted them to grow up with their father and grandfather around." I clenched my hands knowing that part was my fault. "But he also said that it was because you had told me that I shouldn't give up on life."

I blinked. I didn't know that Jungkook had heard that part the day I went to the hospital with the kids to get a paternity test with Jungkook.

"He said that I don't have to pay him back any money. Just to fix our relationship." My father smiled. "That boy would do anything for you. He has your best intentions in mind."

"He's been doing many things that certainly surprises me." I confessed. "But I really doubt that they were with my best intentions."

"Whatever it is that you're fighting about then you should forgive him Y/N." So he hadn't heard of the recent news. "The way he looked when he talked about you and the kids was the same look that Jimin had given you when you were back in highschool."

"In the end Jimin and I broke up." I countered.

My father lets out a sigh. "I wasn't the best father later in your life, but I wasn't ignorant, Y/N. The two of you had plans on getting married. If you had gone through with it you would have had a family of your own by now."

"Yea well we can't change the past, dad. Jimin and I have moved on and have found happiness."

"Exactly. You can't change the past." There was a certain look in my father's eyes that I haven't seen since I was a child. It was the look of determination and one of a loving father and husband. "Why do you think your mom has stayed with me for this long?"

"Because she was blinded and couldn't see the drunkard you were." I crossed my arms.

My father sadly smiles. "That may have been a part of it, but it was because she always hoped for a better future for the three of us again. She knew I couldn't change my past actions but she thought that I would recover and grow. If you love him then you can see through his faults and see his potential."

I hated that he was right. I hated that he now chose to become a good father again and give me advice. Where was he when I needed him the first time around?

"Now you