"Ty stopppppp." I laughed and tried to find my keys in my purse.

"No, you smell good. Good enough to eat." He said nibbling on my neck.

We had just gotten home a few minutes ago and we were fooling around in the hall. We fooled around at the restaurant, we fooled around in the car, we even fooled around in the elevator on our way up to our apartment. We were like hormonal teenagers...well I mean we are hormonal teenagers.

I finally pulled my keys out and was about to let us in when he grabbed my hand to stop me. Tyrie turned me around and pushed me against the door.

I bit down on my bottom lip and looked up at him from under my lashes. We locked eyes and his hazel eyes almost made me look away.

I was trying really hard to break that habit of looking away from him, but it just made me feel too vulnerable. After being bullied most of my life I built a tough skin, so it was really hard to be vulnerable with someone again.

He gently rubbed the side of my face and leaned down to place a small kiss on my lips.

"What was that for?" I asked him.

He shrugged. "I missed you."

My chest kind of hurt by how much I loved him now. "I missed you too."

"Awe baby they are so cute. Why can't you be more like that."

We looked over and saw Bonnie and Makayla peeling out at us from their doorway. Bonnie was saying how cute we were while Makayla just shook her head at her nosy girlfriend.

Tyrie chuckled, told them goodnight, and left inside to let us girls do what we do. I waited for him to close the door before rushing over to their apartment door to gush about our date.

"Oh my gosh that was so cute. Y'all seem so in love. Now of course it would be even cuter if Tyrie was a woman, but it works either way I guess."

I laughed at Bonnie's ridiculous statement and didn't take her seriously. I guess we were kind of cute.

"Him being a man does kind of set us back but I still love him." I joked. "Y'all should have seen him tonight, he was the perfect gentleman. I felt like our first date again or something."

"Y'all make a beautiful couple." Makayla said. I could tell she was a woman of few words, but she knew just what to say.

"How about you come out shopping with us tomorrow so you can tell your fairy gay mothers all about it?"

"That sounds like a good idea. Truth be told I don't really have any friends."

I played with my hair and avoided looking at them. It felt awkward to tell strangers that people didn't fuck with you like that.

Oh yeah I don't have any friends and never had any real friends because people hated my ass in grade school through graduation lol?

Bonnie didn't miss a beat. "Good thing for you, that we don't have any either. We sort of became hermits after we got together so it'll be nice to get along with someone else for a change."

"Oh yeah I sometimes feel the same way in my relationship. Tyrion is perfect, but his company just isn't the same compared to having female friends."

"Great, so we'll see you tomorrow when we ride down to the mall together." She threw me a huge smile that started my own.

"Definitely."

"Now that we made plans for tomorrow I think we should finish our plans for tonight. Hmm?" Makayla said to Bonnie.

I felt like a dumbass when I took in the bonnets and short silk robes they were wearing. If that didn't make a mental image, the marks on Bonnie's neck surely did.

I couldn't help but laugh hard enough that my stomach hurt. "I'm sorry y'all. I didn't mean to interrupt..private time. Y'all get back to whatever y'all were doing before we got in the way. Good night."

Bonnie squeaked out a coy response as Mikayla pulled her back into their apartment. At least someone is getting it in tonight.

Ty was changed from his nice clothes and just had a pair of basketball shorts on when I walked into our bedroom. Right now felt like a good time to mention I'm not all the way comfortable with seeing him shirtless. It makes me more nervous than a whore in church. It doesn't help that his favorite dog tags hung around his neck and made noises as he moved around the room, pulling one of his shirts out for me to wear to sleep. It was something about a man that wears dog tags and chains for me.

"Tyyyy what have I said about you trying to put me in your clothes? You know there's a good chance it won't fit."

"Taeee what have I told you about assuming things won't fit you before you even try them on? You know there's a chance it could fit."

He held the shirt out for me. I grabbed it and felt how soft it was. Truth be told I did want to wear it to sleep, but I really couldn't afford the embarrassment that came with trying it on and it making me look like a sausage bussing out the seams.

I opened it up to see how big it looked. I made a wtf face at how the size looked compared to what I thought I looked like.

"Well?" He asked waiting on me to try it on. He even moved to sit and the foot of our bed to face me at the door.

I tossed the shirt to land on his head. "Nope."

He kissed his teeth annoyed at my childish shit. I was pulled down on my stomach to lay on top of him as he basically tickled me to death. I was close to crying when he stopped.

"Bruh why are you letting a few T-shirts psych you out? You don't just wanna try them on?"

"Nope." I popped the p on the end and avoiding his eyes from him looking down at me.

"Why don't you wanna try?"

"I'm insecure about my body." I whisper choosing to play with his hair so I didn't have to look at him.

"Well then how about this, stand up and stand over there."

"Wait why-"

"Get up Shunt'A."

Whew yes sir... it is not the time let me shut up

I quickly got up and pulled my dress back down. It was sort of riding up and getting itchy after so many hours. I had thrown my heels in my closet as soon as I stepped inside the apartment.

"So what I'm thinking is since you don't wanna try on shirts until you find one I'll just do it for you. I know you're insecure about your body and I understand. There are parts of my body I don't exactly love either. But being the type of nigga I am, which is a simp, I want my girlfriend to wear my clothes to bed so when I cuddle her she'll smell like me. I admit I'm a little possessive over you. I know being possessive isn't cute but that's just how I am. So I'm giving you the choice of closing your eyes while I do it for you." He shrugged and gave me his big 600 kilowatt smile like he just solved world hunger and was nominated for a noble peace prize.

I blinked at him just trying to understand how I fell in love with a weirdo like him. I doesn't make sense really.

"Okay I'm gonna ignore all that other stuff. How does closing my eyes help me with being insecure? You're still gonna see my body and I don't feel great about that."

"Tae be honest with yourself and me for once. You don't hate me seeing your body as much as you hate seeing me see your body. You hate watching me watch you do anything. You always think I'm judging you. Deep down inside you know I love your body, but because you hate it you convinced yourself that I should too."

I was starting to get a little irritated now. It made me a little upset with how right he was. I was ready to just get changed so I could get some sleep and forget everything he said.

I sighed. "I don't really want to talk about this right now. Let's just get this whole experience over with please." I closed my eyes.

"Take off your dress first." His deep voice telling me to undress myself made me open my eyes immediately.

He wanted me to undress? With him watching?

"You don't wanna do it?"

He looked up at me with playful confusion from his spot on the bed. "I never said I wanted to take your dress off for you. I said I would find you a sleep shirt. You gotta take the first step baby. You've got to get used to me ya know. We do live together and share the same bed."

I rolled my eyes and called him a couple curse words. I basically ripped off my dress. I didn't even think about the Bobby pins in my hair that stuck me when I moved or how my makeup might smudge since it hadn't been removed yet.

Now don't confuse this for me suddenly bursting with confidence. I was damn near shaking. I didn't feel very beautiful right now. I felt stupid for not having the confidence to open my damn eyes when I knew Tyrie was looking at my body. I felt stupid that I kept trying to convince myself that no one would ever love me when I had a man right in front of me trying his ass off to. I felt stupid for never sticking up for myself when all my school age bullies called me fat and ugly, so that I could save some self love and dignity left. I felt pretty fucking stupid for letting a boy like Maurice break down my confidence so bad that I flinched when ever my boyfriend touched one of my sensitive spots like my stomach or back.

"Shh it's okay baby. Calm down. You sound like you might hyperventilate."

I didn't know that I was breathing that loud.

"Sorry."

"You don't need to apologize to me. I'm sorry for having you put yourself in that situation. If you don't want to we can stop."

My eyes were still closed but he was louder now. He hugged me and kissed the top of my head. I sighed and shook my head in his neck. God he smelled good.

"Please don't. I want to build my confidence. To be really comfortable around you I have to push myself."

"Whatever you say Tae."

He moved back because I felt cold. His hands moved up from where they rested on my thighs. He moved them up to my hips. If this was a romance novel this would be the part where the female protagonist would bite her lip.

I almost told Tyrie to stop touching me when he touch the sides of my stomach and back. I wanted to push him off at first, but he knew me well. He moved on quickly without staying on those spots.

He slipped the first shirt on. It felt tight on me. Tyrie took that one off pretty quick and thankfully didn't say anything. I could hear him rummaging around in the dresser drawer.

The second one fit much better. It was tight on my chest but I expected as much seeing as he didn't have breasts. Other than that, I was comfy and the smell of dove soap, axe body wash, and a small scent of weed was enough to make me smile wide.

"I see you like that one huh?" He asked with that stupid sexy voice.

I just nodded like a dumbass. I liked it a lot.

His soft lips were on my mouth for less than a second. I opened my eyes slowly, peaking out one eye to see if he was looking at my face. Of course he fucking was.

"You might as well opens both of them pretty brown eyes. I caught your ass red handed. You too old to be playing like you don't see me see you." He said laughing at me.

I wanted to roll my eyes but I was too tired. I just wanted to face plant in the sheets now, but my face was itchy so my makeup removal came first.

"Shut up...ugly self."

I grabbed a face rag and bonnet. He grabbed the neck of the shirt I had on to stop me from moving out the room.

"We both know with a face like this I could never be ugly." With that his cold ass hand went up the back of my shirt and swiftly uncoupled the strapless bra I had on making it bout fall to the floor.

I rushed to pick it up without flashing him anything. His horny ass would probably like that!

"I HATE YOU!" I shouted walking to the bathroom.

"YEAH WHATEVER JUST HURRY UP IN THE BATHROOM! Your man wants to cuddle!"

He gets on my fucking nerves.

I don't like how this ended but oh well. I can't punish myself for that.

How y'all been?

I've been snowed in my house for the last week so that was fun. Anywho...

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