Shivani pov

I was on my way to hospital when I was thinking to my self....
arjun he seems nice and kind.....I enjoy spending time with him....

I snapped out of it when a two wheeler hit my car due to his speed and not even bothering to say a sorry
Ahhh ....soo irritating....

I decided to reach hospital and then look at the damage caused.....

After reaching and parking my car and got down and saw ....it was a dent....ahhhh ...I wish I could ring my hands around him....

I went into my cabin after that and had my cup of coffee ....while doing that I got a page from Dr rajkumar....

I went into his cabin...

"Hello shivani beta...how are u?" He asked

"Good morning...M good sir...amytning important? " I asked

"Yes ....congratulations dear I have decided to give you your first individual case" he said

OMG !!!!  I had waiting for sooo long...I wanted to do jump around!!  I m sooo happy!!

" oh! Thankyou soo much sir means a lot!! " I said

I took the case file and left his cabin...immediately I texted mom dad and  arjun....arjun...don't kniw y I want to him too to be among the first people to know about it...

After I finished texting I got a reply immediately from all....

I read the case it was complicated...but I was sure I'll handle it....

I went to meet my patient. ..he was a 12 year old boy....I felt really sad for him...

After having a good check I realized he needed immediate surgery. ...

Since I was the doctor incharge I take the calls...

I informed every concerned person to get the operation theatre ready...

During surgery

Everything was going well ...until his BP dropped suddenly during surgery ...and he crashed....

I tried soo hard to save him...but I couldn't. ...

OMG! I KILLED  A 12YR OLD BOY....I COULDN'T SAVE HIM!...I AM A BAD DOCTOR!...M A KILLER!

I fell on the floor in my knees in the operation theatre. ...

I was helped up by the other doctors and staff....

I went into my office and took no more cases....Dr rajkumar came in.... he said...it child I know u tried your best he was a very sick child. ....there were very low chances for his survival. ....beta I wanted you to experience this...its an important phase in a doctors life...you were aware that u will face this one day and maybe the day was today....beta take it light today and go home....

I felt like a zombie. ...I asked the hospital driver to take me home....when I reached I didnt greet my parents and went directly into my toom and locked it....

I didnt even realize it was night until I came bak to my senses....
I saw many notes passed from the bottom of my closed door....they were from my dad mom ...

They were all aware about wat happened ...but I didnt want to face them now....I felt like  looser ....I let every one down.....

I continued crying.... and didnt realize when I slept!