Assalamu alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuhu....

(AND BE PATIENT OVER WHAT BEFALLS YOU) HOLY QURAN 31:17...

I request my precious readers to pray their salah if they haven't prayed yet before reading this chappy.....

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Humza's pov :

I just wish! that it should be a bad dream, and when I open my eyes everything should be normal! like it used to be! me, holding my love, in my arms...

"Love! " I laughed, bitterly...

I'm not made for it, it doesn't include in my dictionary right now! pity! yes! it's pity! that should be it..

Because, it's what she felt for me! her words "I never loved you! I just felt pity for you!! " kept on ringing on my ear, like a broken tap record...

The moment those words left her lips, my world, came down crashing, I felt numb! my mind registered her words! it's like, someone stabbed me right in my heart! again and again! till it can take no more and the pain which I felt! or now I'm feeling, is unbearable...

I dropped on my knees, I couldn't stop the tears running across my face, however! my heart refuses to believe her words! because, I felt it! everytime she looks at me, everytime she is near me, everytime when she holds me tight like she is afraid to lose me, everytime she responds to my kisses...

But, my brain doesn't agree, with my heart!...

"it was a lie! a big fat lie!! Her every words, her every actions, was a lie!! " I yell, with so much agony...

I looked at the decorations, which I made for our special evening!! a bitter laugh escaped my mouth, I thrashed the table down, I ripped off the table cloth, I shattered the glasses,

just like my shattered heart, I destroyed the whole place...

I drop onto my knees..

"you hurted me! you Hurted me asfa! you broke me! you ditched me! when I thought! I found my happiness in you! you just ruined it!! " I said through gritted teeth..

"YOU RUINED OUR HAPPINESS MRS ASFA HANNAN IBRAHIM!YOU RUINED IT!! " I shouted, at the top of my voice....

"I wish I could hate you! I really want to hate you, but I can't! this stubborn heart of mine, refuses to believe whatever rubbish you said! but you were right! I didn't deserve to be loved! " I cried my shoulders shaking from crying...

"why you did it! asfa, I know you were hurt! it was not easy for you! but you again pushed me away " I said...

"oh! why she'll not push you? is not like, that she loves you right!! no one loves Humza! no one! " I said, sounding broken...

Ya Allah! I can't bear the pain anymore, why she had to ditch me, am I that bad to be loved! I never intended to hurt her, I always loved her beyond limits, I always tried to understand her, I always put her comfort before mine, I always tried to make her happy!!.....

But, what I got in return? hurt! rejection! pity! pain! insult! humiliation!! it's what we get rewarded?? when we love someone truly!! I can't understand where I went wrong in our relationship?? I don't know why I'm like this!!...

"I really hate myself! for not able to hate you asfa! I really hate myself! because, I. LOVE. YOU. SO.DAMN. MUCH. THAT. IT. HURTS!. IT HURTS! I'M UNABLE TO HATE YOU! EVEN WHEN YOU DESTROYED OUR HAPPINESS! " I cried, cried and cried until there was no tears left...

I'm not a person to cry easily, but she made me cry too! she brought all the foreign sensation which I never experienced before.....

And in that sensations one is betrayal! she betrayed my heart, she betrayed our happiness....

"what have you done Humza? "came a sound, I turned around to see Haan standing there, bewildered!...

I just stood on my knees, not looking in his eyes, he too dropped in front of me and cupped my face, when I looked in to his eyes, I find concern...

He just pulled me in his embrace and I hugged him tight and sobbed in his shoulder...

"she left me Haan! she left me! " I sobbed hysterically....

"she didn't love me as I do! " I cried, he was patting my back...

"shhh! don't say like that! everything is going to be fine, don't worry! " he said, but I know it is not going to OK...

"don't give me false hopes Haan! she'll never love me! she said herself! " I said, with so much pain in my voice...

"come-on lion! gather yourself you're strong! you know that right! " he said with determination...

"No I'm not strong! I'm not OK! I'm just HURT BEYOND HURT AND ANGRY ! " I said, my voice just above a whisper....

Then, I looked into his eyes and smirked "maybe, I know where I'll be strong again! " I said evilly....

He looked shocked "no! you're not thinking about that right! " he asked, shocked...

"hell I'm! " I said, with so much anger...

"no you'll return there! you'll not be the old LION! " he said, sadly...

"there's no reason left for me, to stay put here! I want to forget this pain!" I said growling...

"no! it's a straight no! you'll not go there, you promised to momma remember! " he asked, me confused...

Yes! I promised to momma that I'll not return to there and I shook my head in surrender he smiled a little at my surrender....

He helped me to stand and he lead me to our naah my room, he removed my jacket, my shoes and I removed my shirt and changed into tracks, then he tucked me to bed....

"don't forget you've promised and don't worry! everything is going to be alright, Insha Allah! " he said, smiling sadly, his own eyes brimming with tears...

I just nodded, my head and he dimmed the light and left....

Again I'm surrounded by darkness and loneliness.....

"BUT WE ALL KNOW HAAN! PROMISES ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN!! " I SAID ICILY....

I just want to forget the pain, I want to feel numb and it's the only way! where I can release my anger and frustration!! I'm coming, YOUR LION IS BACK.....

Third person's pov :

It's been a week, after that tragic incident and grandpa has recovered very well! he regained his consciousness after two days after the surgery and everyone was very happy! then, the doctor discharged him and everyone left for home...

And it's been a week! they returned home and no one knows about asfa's confession! no one even got a hint that what had happened between them...

And asfa was like a living corpse! she doesn't smiles, always crying when no one is around! she is surrounded by her self hatered and pity...

She regrets! for hurting him, she regrets for lying to him, she regrets for the pain which she caused him! but she did which she thought was right, for both of them...

"you should be happy! for what you did right? why are you crying here? " came a voice and she looked around to see Rey and Haan bro standing in front of her...

"tell me asfa? are you happy now! you finally broke him, are you happy? " rey said, with anger and frustration and her every words pierced asfa's heart.....

"open your mouth asfa! I'm talking to you! " she yelled because Rey can't see her brother and friend suffer, because of her fears and foolishness! for that she has to say hurtful words....

"I did what I thought was right! for both of us " asfa said, masking her guilt...

"oh really! when did you started thinking about his happiness? do you even cared for him? " she asked, with sarcasm...

Asfa turned her head to see Rey, whether she is serious or not! but she is damn serious...

"I just saved both of us, from getting hurt " asfa said, sadly...

"oh! then what are you feeling right now? happiness! oh yeah, you'll feel happy right now! because you ditched him right !" Rey said with, frustration...

She looked shocked for the choice of words, her friend is using! but she remained silent, she know she is hurting inside....

"Rey Pls leave me alone! I don't want to talk to you right now! " asfa said, pleadingly...

"why? so that you'll create your bubble extra strong, huh! you think you don't deserve happiness right! then, on what rights you're ruining his? " she asked ,with gritted teeth...

Her words Just pricked her heart, she looked at her with shock...

"what? why are you looking at me like that? you'll always say that you don't deserve happiness and peace of mind! you always wish to die right! then let it be, because, you're surrounded by your self-hatred that you don't want to see your blessings YOU ARE A COWARD! ASFA! A COWARD!! " she seethed....

She was right, asfa thought she is a coward and Rey was succeeding in breaking her bubble...

"you know what? let's finish this love hate game! let's finish it for once and all !!" Rey said, pointing a finger towards asfa...

"what are you trying to say rey?? " she asked, bewildered...

"yes! let's file a divorce and you'll both be free from your problems!" Rey said, closing her eyes...

Her words stabbed asfa's heart, she never ever thought she'll take a divorce! she can't divorce him she loves him...

"what are you saying Rey? "she asked, with anger...

"yes! I'm saying the truth! according to you, you don't deserve to be happy! then, why are you ruining his happiness? he has a life to live! he deserves to be happy again!! " Rey said...

"just think asfa! another girl in humza's life, whom she'll call him her husband! her love! who'll claim him to be hers! and another girl will be in his arms, replacing you! it's that what you wanted right? " she asked, bitterly....

Her words stung her heart, she can never imagine any other girl in his life! except her! because he's hers!! she'll die a thousand deaths, but she can never imagine any other girl in his arms!!....

"what do you think? that, you can go on hurting him and he'll not leave you one day? " Rey asked, her...

"no he'll not leave me! because he loves me!! " asfa yells...

"oh! only because he loves you, you're taking advantage of his love! how can you be so cruel and selfish asfa!! " Rey said, with frustration...

"enough Rey!! " Haan said with finality in his tone because she is being cruel in her words which she actually didn't mean it...

"no! Haan, I'll not! remember! you told me, that how much he's broken and hurt right now! that he even was not like that when he lost daniyal, we never know if he's going to be alright or not! "Rey growled...

Asfa looked shocked, because she didn't thought he'll be this much broken from her words and actions! she hurted him...

"so? only I say! because I always end up hurting my loved ones, even when I don't want to! " asfa sobs ...

"it's again about you asfa! you're thinking again about yourself! you're hopeless asfa! hopeless!! you're surrounded by your self hatred so much, that it had made you blind! blind!!! " she yells....

"you have become blind towards your happiness, you've become blind to see your blessings from Allah!! you've fall so deep in the trap of shaytaan, that you no more have faith in Allah's mercy and his blessings!! which he has showered on you! " Rey says, her voice turns soft...

"you keep on replaying your past, that you've failed to see the present! your past will ruin your present and future happiness! when Allah has blessed you like a gem of a husband to make you feel happy and content! you pushed him away, when Allah is trying to help you! you run from it, why because you've fell deeply by the whispers of shaytaan and he's becoming successful! because he wants people to suffer! he wants people to worry about their past and future! and he made you like that! and you know what he hates the most??? the pure love between a husband and wife!! and he succeeded in making you drift apart " Rey says, while a tear fell from her eye...

"he whispered and you acted according to him! now you guys are separated from the bond of love!! " Rey says, with a hoarse voice....

Asfa remains silent! because whatever she uttered, it was indeed true! she became hopeless in the mercy of Allah! if she didn't! then, she'll not be worrying or grieving!!....

A loud cry erupted from asfa, she falls on her knees and cries loudly " I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I hurted everyone, I hurted Humza! " she cries....

Rey hugs her tight and she wraps her arms around her tightly and sobs in her chest and she rubs her back....

"he'll not forgive me Rey! he hates me now! he'll never forgive me! its too late now " asfa cries, like a child....

"it's not late asfa! we still have time! he'll not hate you,I know! he'll be mad at you, but be never hate you!" Rey says, assuring her...

"why? he'll not hate me? I hurted him very badly! I always broke him! why he'll not hate me? " asfa asks, like a broken child...

She cups her face and says " because... he loves you so much!! " she says and wipes her tears...

" I love him too! I love him so much that it hurts! " asfa says and sobs... finally she broke her own bubble which was suffocating her from very long time, and this time, she wants to make everything right!

Haan wipes a tear from his eyes, finally he thinks everything is falling in place! but....

"I want to talk to him and clear all the misunderstandings! I want to apologize to him, I want to say! what I told him was all a lie! I want to meet him!" asfa says wiping a tear....

Rey and Haan look at each other with worry reflecting on their faces and they don't know how to say it to asfa...

"but the problem is Humza is missing from a week! " arhaan says, sadly clenching his teeth...

"what do you mean by missing from a week? " she asks, bewildered! it was like a bomb had dropped on her...

"the last time, I saw him was when you guys broke up and after that, I went to visit him in the penthouse next day, but he was not there! I checked everywhere but he was not there and I dialed his number, but his phone was shattered on the floor " Haan says, sadly....

Asfa's breathing got hitched she doesn't know how to react to it! she is the reason of Humza's disappearance, but she'll not grieve this time! she'll bring him back, she'll fight for his love!!...

"but may be I know? where he's right now and if my assumption is right! he'll be there and I wish he shouldn't be there! " Haan says, sounding distant...

"what do you mean by that bro, where is Humza? " asfa asks, confused...

"he'll be in the UNDERWORLD! UNDERWORLD ILLEGAL KICKBOXING!! " haan says sadly

She refused to believe him, but asks "why he'll be there? "...

"because he's a underworld kickboxer " Haan says....

And her breathing got hitched....

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OMG he's a kickboxer my poor Humza baby

How much pain he has to go through it!

Finally asfa came out of her bubble cheers!!

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