20. when you need my love

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stop calling me

cmon we gotta talk about it

it's weird

no shit

i mean not only did i find out that my best friend had a secret boyfriend all this time and didn't tell me

but she slept with a god damn teacher at her school?? had an entire scandal and skipped town with someone who was probably the teacher?!

yep

and i found out that jenny (niffy?) apparently 'goes through boys' faster than you go through kleenex when you have a cold and has a 'boy toy' every night

which means she's probably been cheating on me for the entirety of our relationship

can't blame the dudes, though. she's got an amazing bod and an equally amazing personality

you make it sound like she's some sort of god, nico

what she did to you isn't okay

cheating isn't okay

you didn't deserve any of that

maybe i did

maybe i wasn't good enough

smart enough

kind enough

NO, nico! nobody deserves that!

especially not you

what's that supposed to mean?

it means

you're a two out of two maximum douchebaggy pervert bastard that keeps me awake until 1 in the morning just so i can hear your voice

and you're a sick minded asshole who turns my death threats into sexual invitations

but you're also the guy that talks to me about nothing and everything until i fall asleep

the guy that stands in a payphone booth from one to four in the morning just to help me drown out the sound of my parents fighting

you're the guy that makes me smile even though my best friend ditched me without a second thought

you're the guy that didn't deserve what he went through. that didn't deserve the pain.

you're the guy that deserves better, nico.

god

only you, nessa

im smiling so hard right now

good. it's better than mourning someone who you're better off without

maybe you're right and i deserve better

but holy hell id like to know what the fuck i did to deserve someone like you

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im SCREAMING

the FEELS VJKHSOFUDHGOW

my wig flEW

oh my god im the god damn author of this book and im fangirling so hard rn

++drake (like nico) is a smol cinnamon roll that needs protection

like fr the whole God's Plan music video? he's a blessing to our world

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xoxo, Sierra